[T]eachings
"A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot."
"The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless."
"To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself."
"Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles."
"Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it."
Writer : Xiaofeixia
Age : Since 1988
Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher
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[A]rchives
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[G]oodies
Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling
[E]nemies
Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people
[S]crolls
"Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man."
-Nietzsche
"He who has enough why can bear almost any how."
-Frederich N.
"Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing"
-Plato
"Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them"
-President Roosevelt
"Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless"
-Mother Teresa
"The fool wonders, the wise asks"
-Benjamin Disraeli
"Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?"
"Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?"
"Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway."
"You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?"
"Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way."
"The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you."
"You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant."
"You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours."
"Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?"
"Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance"
"If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know"
"Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something"
"What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence."
"You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?"
"We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice"
-Spiderman 3
"Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen"
"Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"
Friday, April 29, 2005
'Brink Of Sadness N Depression + BGR'
Tests aft tests n tests again.. Stress had evidently played a vital role in my JC life.. It had also played a vital role in my recent dietary problems.. Juz dun feel lik eating.. the sight of the food din tempt me.. Juz feel tt the food there sux, ignoring its presence.. I juz wanna walk ard wif water nt wif a full stomach but an empty wld b gd.. Haiz.. Juz dunno wad d hell n s***t am I toking abt..
2day wake up damn late.. Den stil able to mak it 2 sch la.. But went to sch damn stressed, den feel lik tearing everything up.. Den gt test 2day.. Maths chap 5 test.. Juz hate tt chap, wanna tear tt chap out.. But I nt teacher, n if I wer, I wanna b MOE n den tak out Chap 5.. Haha.. A big illusion n fat hope of mine.. I so stressed now..
Nex wed gt rugby training, but I nid to go Pulau Tekong on wed.. 2 go n experience Army life.. Haha.. I've tok 2 the teacher abt dis, n he excused me.. Haha.. But now comes the delimma.. Shld I juz cont to play in rugby or go n join wushu? haiz.. Always haf to mak decisions, som more haf to choose in btw 2 most hardest choice.. Haiz.. The possibility of me getting injured in rugby is higher den tt in wushu.. So which 2 shld i choose? Haiz..
Den I shal go on 2 project work.. My teacher says my underground architecture idea is gd, but nt feasible.. Cos first thing first, S'pore at most haf basement carparks, shooping centres, but yet nt underground residentials.. Moreover, it is rather ex.. So it is nt feasible.. N den it is too specialised, n nt manageable at my level.. So I bo bian haf to give up on dis idea.. Haha.. Den I now haf to think of a new idea to work on.. Den radioactive disintegration or rather radioactive decay idea juz popped in2 my head while I was tryin to squeeze my brain dry.. But now the problem is tt how can dis b applied to our lives? or rather where r the applications? So many qns, juz dunno wad 2 do.. But honestly, i could nt bear to give up my underground architecture lehx.. But again, since it cun b done, it's no use holding on2 it.. Haiz..
I now shal tok abt the ending paragraph of the last entry (28/4), d one tt is lik a poem de.. Okie, I shal explain it fully.. Dis idea juz came str to my head while I was invading other ppl's blog.. Den came by my sis's "mum's" blog.. She was toking abt love things, den all so sad n depressed.. Den later, I went to another blog found tt it was abt true love existence.. So juz came in2 my mind.. Den recall abt the whirl tt I had while I was in MI, I juz penned down dis poem.. It is nt targetted at anybody.. N 4 dos hu realy wan to noe hu is the gal hu really changed me, it is tse. Shld u wanna noe more abt her, refer to march entries (11/3 , 13/3). But now I'm gradually numb to all love n relationship nt cos of her but partly of wad I'm gg to analysis..
U all now mayb asking y I'm so numb 2wards love n relationships rite? There incident is wen I was doin a relationship case while I was stil adjusting to YJ wif 132.. I was a bit more experienced in dealing wif dos kind of relationship problems, den i offer my counselling service to dis gal. She tok abt her broken relationship, den I juz say tak it easy.. But deep in my heart, I noe it wasn't gonna b easy.. I soon found out how she deal wif dos realtionships.. She was actually toying wif dem.. Haiz.. Tt completely turned me ard.. I soon found out tt we r stil all so young to deal wif relationships.. We juz do nt noe how to handle them, but yet we crave tt we could go in2 a realtionship.. Let me go in2 a deeper analysis..
Teenagers @ our current present age craves to go in2 a realtionship mainly due to 2 main reasons. First, they go in2 a realtionship due to the fact tt they want a companion of an opp gender. In lay man's term, they go in2 a realtionship cos they wanna company.. Secondly, they go in2 a relationship cos of 1 immature thinking.. This is their normal way of thinking "Boy likes gal, gal likes boy. So juz go in2 a realtionship" This type of relationship I wld classify them under Impulsive Realtionship, meaning dey go in2 a realtionship due to impulsion by both parties.. The other reason is nt so common which is d fact tt they wanna show off tt dey gt a stead.. 4 dis, they r downright dumb.. Dun u agree? Fancy taking a stead n gg in2 a realtionship juz to show off.. So dumb! 4 dis type of relationship, I dun classify them cos they r nt fit to b called a relationship..
Now I progress to talk more abt types of BGR. Generally, there r 3 types of BGR as according to me so far.. There r true love realtionship, impulsive relationship, n lastly companion realtionship. True love realtionship is defined as true love as shown by both parties wif no masks worn at all times while in front of each other. Impulsive relationship is as explained above, 2 repeat, it is defined as gg in2 a relationship cos of 1 immature thinking of "Boy likes gal, gal likes boy. So juz go in2 a realtionship". Lastly, the companion relationship is defined both r juz there 4 company, while little love n concern shown 2wards each other, sometimes to the extent of making use of eacho other; normally end up wif either no parties hurt or at least 1 is hurt.
Love n relationship is perhaps the most sensitive to tok abt, n oso the hardest to understand wad is happening.. So mayb aft dis categorising of relationships can help u understand more.. Cos dis type of thing is a v hard to grapple on, unless u haf experienced it b4.. I wld generally advise u nt to try out any relationship while u in education.. Nv try it out.. Shld u ask me again"Shld I go in2 a realtionship @ dis stage of my JC life?" I wldnt say anything, but juz give u a smile n reply as follow" Follow wad ur heart tells u."
Love is a hard thing is grapple on..
True love is hard to find..
A gd relationship is hard to come by..
What is the true definition of love?
Nobody actually noes..
But mayb a loving couple wil noe..
I tried so hard to get u
Now I tried very hard to 4get u
U made me heartbroken..
I cried all cos of u..
But I wil nv show it 2 u.
Cos I wld nv wan u 2 c me in such state..
I've changed cos of u..
I've written dis cos..
I juz wanna let u noe..
How much I stil love u..
I dunno how dis poem works.. But I hope it shld b ok de la.. Haha..
2day wake up damn late.. Den stil able to mak it 2 sch la.. But went to sch damn stressed, den feel lik tearing everything up.. Den gt test 2day.. Maths chap 5 test.. Juz hate tt chap, wanna tear tt chap out.. But I nt teacher, n if I wer, I wanna b MOE n den tak out Chap 5.. Haha.. A big illusion n fat hope of mine.. I so stressed now..
Nex wed gt rugby training, but I nid to go Pulau Tekong on wed.. 2 go n experience Army life.. Haha.. I've tok 2 the teacher abt dis, n he excused me.. Haha.. But now comes the delimma.. Shld I juz cont to play in rugby or go n join wushu? haiz.. Always haf to mak decisions, som more haf to choose in btw 2 most hardest choice.. Haiz.. The possibility of me getting injured in rugby is higher den tt in wushu.. So which 2 shld i choose? Haiz..
Den I shal go on 2 project work.. My teacher says my underground architecture idea is gd, but nt feasible.. Cos first thing first, S'pore at most haf basement carparks, shooping centres, but yet nt underground residentials.. Moreover, it is rather ex.. So it is nt feasible.. N den it is too specialised, n nt manageable at my level.. So I bo bian haf to give up on dis idea.. Haha.. Den I now haf to think of a new idea to work on.. Den radioactive disintegration or rather radioactive decay idea juz popped in2 my head while I was tryin to squeeze my brain dry.. But now the problem is tt how can dis b applied to our lives? or rather where r the applications? So many qns, juz dunno wad 2 do.. But honestly, i could nt bear to give up my underground architecture lehx.. But again, since it cun b done, it's no use holding on2 it.. Haiz..
I now shal tok abt the ending paragraph of the last entry (28/4), d one tt is lik a poem de.. Okie, I shal explain it fully.. Dis idea juz came str to my head while I was invading other ppl's blog.. Den came by my sis's "mum's" blog.. She was toking abt love things, den all so sad n depressed.. Den later, I went to another blog found tt it was abt true love existence.. So juz came in2 my mind.. Den recall abt the whirl tt I had while I was in MI, I juz penned down dis poem.. It is nt targetted at anybody.. N 4 dos hu realy wan to noe hu is the gal hu really changed me, it is tse. Shld u wanna noe more abt her, refer to march entries (11/3 , 13/3). But now I'm gradually numb to all love n relationship nt cos of her but partly of wad I'm gg to analysis..
U all now mayb asking y I'm so numb 2wards love n relationships rite? There incident is wen I was doin a relationship case while I was stil adjusting to YJ wif 132.. I was a bit more experienced in dealing wif dos kind of relationship problems, den i offer my counselling service to dis gal. She tok abt her broken relationship, den I juz say tak it easy.. But deep in my heart, I noe it wasn't gonna b easy.. I soon found out how she deal wif dos realtionships.. She was actually toying wif dem.. Haiz.. Tt completely turned me ard.. I soon found out tt we r stil all so young to deal wif relationships.. We juz do nt noe how to handle them, but yet we crave tt we could go in2 a realtionship.. Let me go in2 a deeper analysis..
Teenagers @ our current present age craves to go in2 a realtionship mainly due to 2 main reasons. First, they go in2 a realtionship due to the fact tt they want a companion of an opp gender. In lay man's term, they go in2 a realtionship cos they wanna company.. Secondly, they go in2 a relationship cos of 1 immature thinking.. This is their normal way of thinking "Boy likes gal, gal likes boy. So juz go in2 a realtionship" This type of relationship I wld classify them under Impulsive Realtionship, meaning dey go in2 a realtionship due to impulsion by both parties.. The other reason is nt so common which is d fact tt they wanna show off tt dey gt a stead.. 4 dis, they r downright dumb.. Dun u agree? Fancy taking a stead n gg in2 a realtionship juz to show off.. So dumb! 4 dis type of relationship, I dun classify them cos they r nt fit to b called a relationship..
Now I progress to talk more abt types of BGR. Generally, there r 3 types of BGR as according to me so far.. There r true love realtionship, impulsive relationship, n lastly companion realtionship. True love realtionship is defined as true love as shown by both parties wif no masks worn at all times while in front of each other. Impulsive relationship is as explained above, 2 repeat, it is defined as gg in2 a relationship cos of 1 immature thinking of "Boy likes gal, gal likes boy. So juz go in2 a realtionship". Lastly, the companion relationship is defined both r juz there 4 company, while little love n concern shown 2wards each other, sometimes to the extent of making use of eacho other; normally end up wif either no parties hurt or at least 1 is hurt.
Love n relationship is perhaps the most sensitive to tok abt, n oso the hardest to understand wad is happening.. So mayb aft dis categorising of relationships can help u understand more.. Cos dis type of thing is a v hard to grapple on, unless u haf experienced it b4.. I wld generally advise u nt to try out any relationship while u in education.. Nv try it out.. Shld u ask me again"Shld I go in2 a realtionship @ dis stage of my JC life?" I wldnt say anything, but juz give u a smile n reply as follow" Follow wad ur heart tells u."
Love is a hard thing is grapple on..
True love is hard to find..
A gd relationship is hard to come by..
What is the true definition of love?
Nobody actually noes..
But mayb a loving couple wil noe..
I tried so hard to get u
Now I tried very hard to 4get u
U made me heartbroken..
I cried all cos of u..
But I wil nv show it 2 u.
Cos I wld nv wan u 2 c me in such state..
I've changed cos of u..
I've written dis cos..
I juz wanna let u noe..
How much I stil love u..
I dunno how dis poem works.. But I hope it shld b ok de la.. Haha..
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:07 pm
Thursday, April 28, 2005
'Love Poem'
Haha.. 2day was kinda chilled out 4 me? I juz dunno wad happen 2 me.. Mayb u can by tagging it on the tag box.. Tagging ur ans on my tagbox wil help me quite a bit.. Here it goes..
I dunno wad happen 2 me lately.. I juz dun feel lik eating.. Whenever I see food, I juz dun feel lik eating it.. Den lately, I'm relying highly on Mentos juz to stay awake.. I juz dunno wad happen lorz.. Den food to me is lik secondary option.. Nt impt @ all.. Even though when i'm in Mac, u expect me to binge n bulge on all my fav fried food n burgers rite? U r absolutely wrong! When i gt there, it juz kinda a bit pissed me off.. I juz went in, bought a medium drink den juz sit down there n do my work, rotting away.. I juz dunno wad happen to me.. Haiz.. When i go in2 d sch canteen, i oso dun feel lik eating. Though my gd fren is sitting rite in front of me eating Western Food, I'm nt least tempted.. Tell me y.. I really nid to noe.. Pls help me.. Som more, I can dun eat my breakfast, den all teh way tahan til dinner or mayb even attempt to skip.. Juz lik on Wed, wen I attempt to skip diner, I was forced to sit down n eat.. I was nt happy at all.. Feel so sad n angry.. Cos I juz dun feel lik eating, wad 4 force me to eat? Haiz.. Juz dunno wad 2 say larz.. But d thing is I keep drinking water.. Haiz.. Juz dunno wad happen 2 me.. Haiz.. Sb pls ans me..
Den now i wil tok abt 2day.. I dunno 2 b happy or sad larz.. U c.. I kinda expected tt my Maths Test 2 b a fail grade, but in the end i pass.. Mayb i shld b happy abt tt.. Now i wil tell u abt Physics.. I sort of expected i shld haf passed my Physics.. But in the end i fail.. Nt too much but juz by HALF A MARK! Dotz.. haiz.. Dunno wad to say larz.. Now is always so bz.. No time to do dis n tt, but gt time to rot in my sch library, doin work.. Haiz.. Contradiction here rite? :p Haha..
I juz dunno if i haf an eating disorder.. Juz had my dinner.. 3 buns wif coke.. Den I'm very full.. haiz.. Did my system go hey-wire? haiz.. Sb juz ans me dis oso..
I dun really believe in Love anymore,
As much as I used to,
But I noe it exists..
It can nv b back as to wad had happened b4,
But i do really treasure u.. :(
But u juz left me all alone in d dark..
Me weeping silently.. In d dark..
True love is always to b found anywhere
As I've told myself n others..
But y am i weeping over such matters?
Cos of u, I've changed..
Frm an uncouth guy to a bit of refined guy..
Cos of u
I dropped my first tear of sadness due to love
My heart is stil weeping
Frm the day u started to avoid me..:"(
If I crossed million of oceans juz to b wif u..
Swam the longest river juz to call ur name..
Wld u stil b treating me dis way?
I'm so sry if i sounded so bad..
Cos my heart is bleeding..
I can give up almost everything..
Juz to haf u bac again..
Dis shal b my ending paragraphs.. end it in a diff way frm the other entries.. haha.. Sry if much of ur time is taken while reading dis useless entry of mine.. ;)
I dunno wad happen 2 me lately.. I juz dun feel lik eating.. Whenever I see food, I juz dun feel lik eating it.. Den lately, I'm relying highly on Mentos juz to stay awake.. I juz dunno wad happen lorz.. Den food to me is lik secondary option.. Nt impt @ all.. Even though when i'm in Mac, u expect me to binge n bulge on all my fav fried food n burgers rite? U r absolutely wrong! When i gt there, it juz kinda a bit pissed me off.. I juz went in, bought a medium drink den juz sit down there n do my work, rotting away.. I juz dunno wad happen to me.. Haiz.. When i go in2 d sch canteen, i oso dun feel lik eating. Though my gd fren is sitting rite in front of me eating Western Food, I'm nt least tempted.. Tell me y.. I really nid to noe.. Pls help me.. Som more, I can dun eat my breakfast, den all teh way tahan til dinner or mayb even attempt to skip.. Juz lik on Wed, wen I attempt to skip diner, I was forced to sit down n eat.. I was nt happy at all.. Feel so sad n angry.. Cos I juz dun feel lik eating, wad 4 force me to eat? Haiz.. Juz dunno wad 2 say larz.. But d thing is I keep drinking water.. Haiz.. Juz dunno wad happen 2 me.. Haiz.. Sb pls ans me..
Den now i wil tok abt 2day.. I dunno 2 b happy or sad larz.. U c.. I kinda expected tt my Maths Test 2 b a fail grade, but in the end i pass.. Mayb i shld b happy abt tt.. Now i wil tell u abt Physics.. I sort of expected i shld haf passed my Physics.. But in the end i fail.. Nt too much but juz by HALF A MARK! Dotz.. haiz.. Dunno wad to say larz.. Now is always so bz.. No time to do dis n tt, but gt time to rot in my sch library, doin work.. Haiz.. Contradiction here rite? :p Haha..
I juz dunno if i haf an eating disorder.. Juz had my dinner.. 3 buns wif coke.. Den I'm very full.. haiz.. Did my system go hey-wire? haiz.. Sb juz ans me dis oso..
I dun really believe in Love anymore,
As much as I used to,
But I noe it exists..
It can nv b back as to wad had happened b4,
But i do really treasure u.. :(
But u juz left me all alone in d dark..
Me weeping silently.. In d dark..
True love is always to b found anywhere
As I've told myself n others..
But y am i weeping over such matters?
Cos of u, I've changed..
Frm an uncouth guy to a bit of refined guy..
Cos of u
I dropped my first tear of sadness due to love
My heart is stil weeping
Frm the day u started to avoid me..:"(
If I crossed million of oceans juz to b wif u..
Swam the longest river juz to call ur name..
Wld u stil b treating me dis way?
I'm so sry if i sounded so bad..
Cos my heart is bleeding..
I can give up almost everything..
Juz to haf u bac again..
Dis shal b my ending paragraphs.. end it in a diff way frm the other entries.. haha.. Sry if much of ur time is taken while reading dis useless entry of mine.. ;)
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:01 pm
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
'Wad is Love?'
Hey yoz.. i'm back here.. haha.. i juz wanna blog my feelings out manz..
Okie, juz gt hm frm sch.. Cos now bathed n eat liao la.. haha.. Gt some bit to blog abt.. Okie let me start frm academic first..
Dere r som tests lately n frequently.. Maths test on AP.. Hey, n tt topic sux manz.. Juz hate it lorz.. Wish tt topic wld nt b inside dis Maths.. Wa lao.. I stil prefer other topics lik partial fraction, inequalities, mayb even binomial theorem so far.. Haha.. But dere is an AP test tt i tink sure flunk de lorz.. So difficult.. Manz.. Den dere goes my hope of securing an A.. haha.. Den we go on 2 Physics.. manz.. The test 2day.. Shld i say tt 4-letter word strat wif the f n ends wif k? or shld I say the 9 letter word starting wif f n ends wif c? (fantastic?) haha.. It's lucky tt my teacher cancel out the graph questions, if nt I sure kena chopped lik siao.. Haha.. Until none of my remains is seen.. Haha.. Manz.. I juz hate dos graphs of kinematics.. Haha.. But wad 2 do? Bo bian, but juz remain as a strong fighter(i hope) n fight on.. Haha.. Den chem test comin soon on 2/5/2005.. Haha.. Pretty fast huh? Haha.. Gues i haf to mug 4 chem liao.. Manz.. Hate redox titration.. Haha..
Den let me tok abt non-academic stuffs.. I now feel so confused.. I'm now facing an injured shoulder n oso a decision if i shld scram out of rugby.. Haha.. I now oso wanna take up wushu cos i wanna beat sb in2 a pulp.. Dun ask me hu, 4 dos hu r frm 132, u noe hu i'm referring 2.. Haha.. Den som more mayb if i join wushu, i can juz be more fit, rather den kena injured most of d time? Haha.. Den I oso dunno wad to do lorz.. Sianz.. haha.. Shld touch on some sensitive stuffs? Haha.. Inside of me says no, but my hands r itching to tye some.. Haha.. How contradicting it is.. Haha..
Okie gues I juz touch on the same old topic of love? Haha.. I noe it is rather tiring n boring to read all the same topic most of the time in my blog.. haha.. Pls bear wif me? [coz it's my blog, u dude]
Love is a feeling tt a privileged one could haf, it's nt an entitlement.. Haha.. Coz sb posted me a qn. "Shld i go stead @ dis age @ dis time?" My ans 2 u is juz a smile n nth more cos deep in ur heart, u haf already decided to go in2 a relation. wadever u r asking now, is juz to seek psychological support.. Nth much le.. Dis type of qn is so simple manz.. Nex time post me a harder one la.. Like a pentagon love? [I've waiting 4 tt so tt i can go 4 my glory retirement] I noe now i sound lik dos newspaper column of wad "Aunt Aggie", blah blah.. But den it's subjective to any other kind.. U can choose to ignore ur instincts or even go wif ur feelings.. but normally if i were posted dis kind of qn of "Shld i follow my heart or nt? Cos I dun really trust my own gut feelings.." My ans 2 u wil b "U haf to find som trust in ur feelings. I wld generally encourage u 2 follow ur heart cos it is wad u lik." I noe all dis sound very nagging, but my brush wif tse has som how brought me to light.. Haha.. If u really wan to noe, u can listen to "Hero", "When You say Nothing At All", "I Swear". if u can get the real meaning behind all dis songs, den i can tell u, u can generally follow ur heart. If u can do wad the lyrics of "I swear", I wil congratulate you..
Wow! I've been writing dis entry 4 1 hr.. haha.. here it goes 4 my quote 4 the blog by Bertrand Russell: "No man who believes that all is for the best in this suffering world can keep his ethical values unimpaired, since he is always having to find excuses for pain and misery."
Okie, juz gt hm frm sch.. Cos now bathed n eat liao la.. haha.. Gt some bit to blog abt.. Okie let me start frm academic first..
Dere r som tests lately n frequently.. Maths test on AP.. Hey, n tt topic sux manz.. Juz hate it lorz.. Wish tt topic wld nt b inside dis Maths.. Wa lao.. I stil prefer other topics lik partial fraction, inequalities, mayb even binomial theorem so far.. Haha.. But dere is an AP test tt i tink sure flunk de lorz.. So difficult.. Manz.. Den dere goes my hope of securing an A.. haha.. Den we go on 2 Physics.. manz.. The test 2day.. Shld i say tt 4-letter word strat wif the f n ends wif k? or shld I say the 9 letter word starting wif f n ends wif c? (fantastic?) haha.. It's lucky tt my teacher cancel out the graph questions, if nt I sure kena chopped lik siao.. Haha.. Until none of my remains is seen.. Haha.. Manz.. I juz hate dos graphs of kinematics.. Haha.. But wad 2 do? Bo bian, but juz remain as a strong fighter(i hope) n fight on.. Haha.. Den chem test comin soon on 2/5/2005.. Haha.. Pretty fast huh? Haha.. Gues i haf to mug 4 chem liao.. Manz.. Hate redox titration.. Haha..
Den let me tok abt non-academic stuffs.. I now feel so confused.. I'm now facing an injured shoulder n oso a decision if i shld scram out of rugby.. Haha.. I now oso wanna take up wushu cos i wanna beat sb in2 a pulp.. Dun ask me hu, 4 dos hu r frm 132, u noe hu i'm referring 2.. Haha.. Den som more mayb if i join wushu, i can juz be more fit, rather den kena injured most of d time? Haha.. Den I oso dunno wad to do lorz.. Sianz.. haha.. Shld touch on some sensitive stuffs? Haha.. Inside of me says no, but my hands r itching to tye some.. Haha.. How contradicting it is.. Haha..
Okie gues I juz touch on the same old topic of love? Haha.. I noe it is rather tiring n boring to read all the same topic most of the time in my blog.. haha.. Pls bear wif me? [coz it's my blog, u dude]
Love is a feeling tt a privileged one could haf, it's nt an entitlement.. Haha.. Coz sb posted me a qn. "Shld i go stead @ dis age @ dis time?" My ans 2 u is juz a smile n nth more cos deep in ur heart, u haf already decided to go in2 a relation. wadever u r asking now, is juz to seek psychological support.. Nth much le.. Dis type of qn is so simple manz.. Nex time post me a harder one la.. Like a pentagon love? [I've waiting 4 tt so tt i can go 4 my glory retirement] I noe now i sound lik dos newspaper column of wad "Aunt Aggie", blah blah.. But den it's subjective to any other kind.. U can choose to ignore ur instincts or even go wif ur feelings.. but normally if i were posted dis kind of qn of "Shld i follow my heart or nt? Cos I dun really trust my own gut feelings.." My ans 2 u wil b "U haf to find som trust in ur feelings. I wld generally encourage u 2 follow ur heart cos it is wad u lik." I noe all dis sound very nagging, but my brush wif tse has som how brought me to light.. Haha.. If u really wan to noe, u can listen to "Hero", "When You say Nothing At All", "I Swear". if u can get the real meaning behind all dis songs, den i can tell u, u can generally follow ur heart. If u can do wad the lyrics of "I swear", I wil congratulate you..
Wow! I've been writing dis entry 4 1 hr.. haha.. here it goes 4 my quote 4 the blog by Bertrand Russell: "No man who believes that all is for the best in this suffering world can keep his ethical values unimpaired, since he is always having to find excuses for pain and misery."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:45 pm
Sunday, April 17, 2005
'Rugby Asshole..'
Yesterday was a f-ed up day 4 me.. Cos I juz dun mingle wel wif my seniors..
Den yesterday coach was training how 2 play a proper match wif rugging n everything.. Ruggin means u push the opponent away wif ur companion wif ur shoulder.. Den u muz secure d possession of d ball.. Cos 1 of ur team mate is down on the floor.. U muz step over him.. N push the opponent away wif ur shoulder.. Den dis arsehole was lying on the floor.. it was total chaos.. Den I accidentally step on him.. Den he kao-peh saying y I step on him.. Den I juz say I try my best 2 step over u, but den, all ppl coming in all directions.. pressing my legs bac..den accidentally step on him wad.. he juz keep kao-pehing.. Den in d end, I kena scolding by coach.. Sianz.. Den while we wer practising, i collided wif 1 of d first team, den i sprain my shoulder.. haha.. Den som more dis guy oso kao-peh me y I nv go training.. Hu u tink he is? Team capt? C'mon man, he's juz a small tiny fry.. Even the team capt din kao-peh me.. Or even d teachers din kao-peh me.. He kao-peh me 4 wad? Tryin to act big shot.. Juz feel lik tell him str n say: "Fuck off manz! U wanna b a team capt den say so.. nid nt haf to holler @ me all d time.. Even if u wan, u DUN haf the qualification 2 b 1!"
Den dun worry so much lahx.. i wun b seeing any doc cos it's so troublesome.. haha.. Juz dun wanna see any doc.. Let it rot.. Y shld I care? If circumstances forces me 2 drop rugby, I wil juz drop it wif no strings attached.. Drop den drop lorz.. As if i do care tt much.. Juz only 4 trainigs, den i kena so many injuries.. Mayb it's nt my cup of tea.. Gues I nex yr, I drop rugby, or mayb drop it during July or August.. haha..
I found dis quote by Bertrand Russell: "Ethics is in origin the art of recommending to others the sacrifices required for cooperation with oneself."
Den yesterday coach was training how 2 play a proper match wif rugging n everything.. Ruggin means u push the opponent away wif ur companion wif ur shoulder.. Den u muz secure d possession of d ball.. Cos 1 of ur team mate is down on the floor.. U muz step over him.. N push the opponent away wif ur shoulder.. Den dis arsehole was lying on the floor.. it was total chaos.. Den I accidentally step on him.. Den he kao-peh saying y I step on him.. Den I juz say I try my best 2 step over u, but den, all ppl coming in all directions.. pressing my legs bac..den accidentally step on him wad.. he juz keep kao-pehing.. Den in d end, I kena scolding by coach.. Sianz.. Den while we wer practising, i collided wif 1 of d first team, den i sprain my shoulder.. haha.. Den som more dis guy oso kao-peh me y I nv go training.. Hu u tink he is? Team capt? C'mon man, he's juz a small tiny fry.. Even the team capt din kao-peh me.. Or even d teachers din kao-peh me.. He kao-peh me 4 wad? Tryin to act big shot.. Juz feel lik tell him str n say: "Fuck off manz! U wanna b a team capt den say so.. nid nt haf to holler @ me all d time.. Even if u wan, u DUN haf the qualification 2 b 1!"
Den dun worry so much lahx.. i wun b seeing any doc cos it's so troublesome.. haha.. Juz dun wanna see any doc.. Let it rot.. Y shld I care? If circumstances forces me 2 drop rugby, I wil juz drop it wif no strings attached.. Drop den drop lorz.. As if i do care tt much.. Juz only 4 trainigs, den i kena so many injuries.. Mayb it's nt my cup of tea.. Gues I nex yr, I drop rugby, or mayb drop it during July or August.. haha..
I found dis quote by Bertrand Russell: "Ethics is in origin the art of recommending to others the sacrifices required for cooperation with oneself."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:00 pm
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
'Cause Of Depression'
Hi guys.. I'm juz so depress agin.. Y am i keep in depress mood?! Haiz.. Dis time is nt cos of gals.. but mayb due 2 my acute acute sense of sensitivity.. I juz dunno wad happen lo.. juz becom so moody out of a sudden.. anw, i juz list out teh activities 2day.. Okie, i went for my class outing 2day.. Let me start frm morning[duh! unless u wan frm nite]..
When I reach Chinatown, I rotted wif my frens at the station.. Juz to wait 4 som fren hu acted VIP meaning coming late lorz, n r really VIPs[very idiotic pigs].. But anw we juz went to Chinatown Heritage Centre.. We went inside dere to learn more abt d past.. So was a fruitful trip larz.. Gained a lot.. Den we proceeded to go 2 d Hindi temple in Chinatown.. I oso learnt a lot in d temple.. Wad diety rep wad.. So learnt alot.. but wads the focus is the bonding within our class..
Anw, I shal tok abt our class bonding.. Our class can say to b the fastest bonded class.. meaning we r juz as close as dos hu were here in the first 3 mths.. In fact we were all bonded within 2 days, where other classes were stil grappling wif tt.. We even now haf a Royal Class family.. Haha.. even my CT, Ms tan, could nt believe we r bonded tt fast..
But anw, 2day's outing, I made a mistake.. I shldn't haf displayed my leadership quality, shld haf juz keep quiet.. Den anw, we r juz very bonded n close so i juz speak up.. cos dey wer arguing over if we shld go Little India.. Den i juz speak up, den we go Little India.. haiz.. i juz dunno how others feel abt me lorz.. again.. My acute acute sense of sensitivity..
Den we went 2 Little India 2 haf our lunch a Muslim restaurant.. I had chicken rice of Muslim.. it was a little spicy.. Den I muz b grateful tt I din had my allergy activated.. Very lucky lorz.. So aft luch, we board train to go bac.. som 2 college while som went hm.. I went 2 causeway..
At causeway, i went 2 catch d movie The Pacifier.. it was a cool show, wif funny acts in between.. I catch it wif my bro.. It was ok lahx.. I had my day ended wif me writing dis entry.. Den now is raining.. Very cool.. Easy n cool to fall asleep manz.. But i cun slp cos I gt tutorials to catch up.. Sianz.. Haha..
I nid to find out the cause of my depression.. Haiz.. But i juz cun find it! WTF.. Is it my work load? Or is it abt the gal? Or it's juz stress tt a JC person muz face? Sb pls tag at my tagbox n ans dis qn.. I nid ur ans.. Pls.. *plead*
I found dis quote by Baruch Spinoza:
When I reach Chinatown, I rotted wif my frens at the station.. Juz to wait 4 som fren hu acted VIP meaning coming late lorz, n r really VIPs[very idiotic pigs].. But anw we juz went to Chinatown Heritage Centre.. We went inside dere to learn more abt d past.. So was a fruitful trip larz.. Gained a lot.. Den we proceeded to go 2 d Hindi temple in Chinatown.. I oso learnt a lot in d temple.. Wad diety rep wad.. So learnt alot.. but wads the focus is the bonding within our class..
Anw, I shal tok abt our class bonding.. Our class can say to b the fastest bonded class.. meaning we r juz as close as dos hu were here in the first 3 mths.. In fact we were all bonded within 2 days, where other classes were stil grappling wif tt.. We even now haf a Royal Class family.. Haha.. even my CT, Ms tan, could nt believe we r bonded tt fast..
But anw, 2day's outing, I made a mistake.. I shldn't haf displayed my leadership quality, shld haf juz keep quiet.. Den anw, we r juz very bonded n close so i juz speak up.. cos dey wer arguing over if we shld go Little India.. Den i juz speak up, den we go Little India.. haiz.. i juz dunno how others feel abt me lorz.. again.. My acute acute sense of sensitivity..
Den we went 2 Little India 2 haf our lunch a Muslim restaurant.. I had chicken rice of Muslim.. it was a little spicy.. Den I muz b grateful tt I din had my allergy activated.. Very lucky lorz.. So aft luch, we board train to go bac.. som 2 college while som went hm.. I went 2 causeway..
At causeway, i went 2 catch d movie The Pacifier.. it was a cool show, wif funny acts in between.. I catch it wif my bro.. It was ok lahx.. I had my day ended wif me writing dis entry.. Den now is raining.. Very cool.. Easy n cool to fall asleep manz.. But i cun slp cos I gt tutorials to catch up.. Sianz.. Haha..
I nid to find out the cause of my depression.. Haiz.. But i juz cun find it! WTF.. Is it my work load? Or is it abt the gal? Or it's juz stress tt a JC person muz face? Sb pls tag at my tagbox n ans dis qn.. I nid ur ans.. Pls.. *plead*
I found dis quote by Baruch Spinoza:
"Philosophy has no end in view save truth; faith looks for nothing but obedience and piety."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:40 pm