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"A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot."
"The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless."
"To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself."
"Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles."
"Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it."
Writer : Xiaofeixia
Age : Since 1988
Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher
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"Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man."
-Nietzsche
"He who has enough why can bear almost any how."
-Frederich N.
"Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing"
-Plato
"Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them"
-President Roosevelt
"Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless"
-Mother Teresa
"The fool wonders, the wise asks"
-Benjamin Disraeli
"Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?"
"Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?"
"Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway."
"You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?"
"Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way."
"The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you."
"You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant."
"You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours."
"Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?"
"Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance"
"If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know"
"Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something"
"What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence."
"You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?"
"We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice"
-Spiderman 3
"Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen"
"Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"
Friday, July 29, 2005
'Camp @ Raffles Marina; Natural Leader vs Trained Leader'
Heyo guys.. Me back again.. Aft a long dissapearing act 4 1 wk.. Miss my entry?[ppl shake head?] Juz came back frm adventure training camp.. Wa.. Adventure sia? But guys.. Let me tell u tt it's nth lorz.. But it's nt lame nor fun.. But pretty ok 4 a standard adventure training camp but more tilted 2wards da fun holiday camp.. But it is oso lik a leadership camp, but nt dos kind I attended de.. But den again, dis camp at least gd la.. Making me 2 tak a COMPULSORY break frm my studies.. Hee.. Here I go 4 da listing 4 da camp..
Day 1 (25/7):
I arrived in sch wif lots of things n bags.. In fact only 1 large bag, 1 medium bag, 1 slp-ing bag n shoe bag.. Haha.. In total gt 4 bags! So I brought many bags! [lame!] Den we assembled at da bball court 4 som briefing.. Den aft tt, we sit dere til abt 9 wen i actually reported @ 0700 as it requested 0715.. Den off we go 2 Raffles Marina.. Wen we reach dere, we wer lik pretty harpy.. Den we wer very enthu abt dis n tt.. We den went 2 pitch our tents.. It's kind of assembling kind.. No challenge lorz.. Som more it's so damn hot n stuffy.. Our group of boys were given 2 tents.. Both r 6-men tent.. So I was in charge of da 5 men grp including me la.. Den we quickly assembled our tents 4 a place 2 slp in n put our things.. Aft tt, we went 2 haf our lunch.. Aft lunch we went to do archery.. Here I did sth pretty wrong.. Here it goes..
Before we go 4 archery, we wer briefed on how to do archery.. N all da safety rules 2 follow.. Den we wer told tt each bow's glass fibre cost 200 bucks.. Den it's damn costly if we break dos glass fibre.. Yea.. 200 bucks.. No small amt hor.. Den we proceed 2 do our archery.. I as usual make myself as da last archer.. We wer given 3 chances to shoot our arrows.. Den first time, I went up n shot all 3, all wer out of range, nt even any where near da target board.. Den dey say it was a practice round, den second round is up..
Dis time is 4 compeition wif another grp.. Den I was lik stoning dere la.. Den all other grp members tried their best, but only 1 managed 2 get it near bull's eye.. Den it was Jake's n my turn to b archers.. Den we both shoot our arrows, den we all hit same place la.. Out of da target board.. Den second arrow was asked to b fired.. Others fired liao.. All went smoothly.. Den I was stil pulling da bow.. I also dunno where da hell did I find tt much strength, da bow juz SNAP at my ear.. I was stunned.. Da arrow din fly out but I was damn scared.. Cos I actually broke a bow.. God! Den I passed back da bow to da trainers.. In fact wen I broke da bow, da ppl dere all 'ahh' at da sam time.. Dey juz cldn't believe tt sb actually broke a bow.. But anw, I was too distracted 2 shoot well, so I picked up another bow n shoot.. I gt it nearer to da target board, Jake gt it on da blue 1..
Wen came 2 da third arrow, I juz aim n pulled da bow.. Shoot it n I gt it on da blue 1.. Den Jake I oso dunno wad happen, his arrow went hey-wire.. Din hit da target board, but we stil lose 2 the other grp la.. But nvm, we stil gt da third round of shooting ballons down.. But lots of ballons wer destroyed n burst due 2 carelessness.. So we wer left wif 4 balloons 2 shoot la.. D other grp is wif 5 balloons 2 shoot la..
Den we nid 2 tak up 10 arrows wif only 10 archers wif only 1 chance to shoot.. Den again, I was da last archer n trust me tt feeling is nv nice.. So my team went up 1 by 1.. Den shoot down 3 other ballons, den only left me da last archer 2 shoot down da last ballon.. Whoosh.. Tt feeling is so pressurised.. Cos it's da last, it's damn crucial.. All team's hope r pinned on u.. But nonetheless, I tried my best 2 concentrate n aimed.. Den off da arrow go, den 'pop'.. Ballon is shot, den screams frm my team mates went all da way up.. Gosh I feel so glorified.. But den in da end we stil lost cos we alr lose 2 da team by 1 ballon cos we wer 1 short.. But nvm la.. We stil gain quite a bit of experience.. Haha..
Den we went rafting.. It was a rather stupid thing 2 do I feel la.. But anw, by team work, we manage to finish.. Den dis is da place where da ugly side of me show up.. I actually command ppl 2 do dis n tt.. den I had oso failed to coax my men in2 doin things wif enthusiasim.. I mean I actually hollered at ppl to follow da instructions.. I was so guilty tt I actually wished to say sry 2 dem for hollering at dem.. But I juz dun dare 2 say..Den follow by night activity which is da Animal Call..
In dis game, we were all blindfolded.. My grp was assigned to b donkey.. So yea.. Went "hee-haw.. hee-haw" all da way 2 find our grp members as we were all scattered all over.. Feeling damn stupid.. But anw, it was ok la.. Cos the objective of the game is to make us realise the importance of communication among a team.. Be it leaders among leaders or leader to his/ her men or even communication among the team members itself.. Den dis make me realise tt comunication is so impt among a team.. In fact dis importance is further stressed on day 4..
Den aft dis game, we went to wash up.. They actually gave 1 hr 2 bath.. Muahaha.. So much time to bath.. Den gt 1 guy took damn long to bath la.. Tink took abt 30 min.. Nv noe y he tak so long.. Den we went 2 haf our reflection timing.. We juz expressed wad had actually happened to our trainer.. Our trainer din say much, but encouraged us 2 push on as dis is only da first day.. Den we had our supper, den we went 2 slp..
Day 2 (26/7):
It started 2 drizzle at 3 in da morning.. I noe cos I was slp-ing outside.. Cos more cooler.. Den I went back 2 tent n inform others tt it was raining.. Den we started to battle da leakage we wer facing.. We fought 4 1 hr den aft we abandon da tent cos it started 2 flood.. We went 2 slp in da carpark.. Den other guys den streamed in2 da car park 1 by 1.. I den went back 2 check on our tent.. Gosh, tents wer all moving ard, som wer even flying.. Dun b-lif rite? But it rrly flies.. Our tent had collapsed but din fly cos we put our things in da middle of da tent.. I den went bac 2 ask Jake 2 help me in rescuing our bag n placing tent bac to upright position..
We tried to upright da tent but was unsucessful aft a few attempts, so I decide to open up da tent n rescue all da bags n put them in da Command Post. Our bags wer all drenched, but we water-proofed all our belongings, so da contents inside wer safe.. But everybody wer at low spirits.. Da boys wer more badly hit cos all da boys left their belongings in da tents, but da gals all shifted to da Command Post b4 gg 2 other places n slp.. But wen morning is up,we went on rotting wif da wet weather programs.. Den wen it stopped raining, we had our outdoor cooking..
B4 we haf our outdoor cooking we follow a wet weather program designed by the organisation.. We prepare our campfire nite show.. Den da guys were all sian half den juz play along as a follower, n din rrly participate it.. Den we played Cha-red or sth lik tt.. Den tt's da tim wen we c so many funny actions frm our grp.. All sorts funny actions were displayed.. Haha.. Both grp had expressed gr8 sense of enthusiasim in tryin to decipher wada hell r we tryin to tok abt thru our actions.. Haha.. Den our trainer went M.I.A., den our grp a bit unhappy.. Wen she appear, we dunno if it's happy or nt.. But we juz follow her lorz..
We went to Commad Post n tak da things 4 outdoor cooking.. We were provided eggs, seasonings, potatoes, rice.. No instant noodles.. Den we went 2 do outdoor cooking.. Den we were further bein provided wif slices of chicken, den my grp barbequed it.. I now teach ya how 2 barbeque it.. Wrap the chicken in oil smeared aluminium foil.. Den let it burn over da fire.. heat it approximately 4 abt 5-7 mins.. Den tak it out.. Wrap it wif another layer of oil-smeared aluminium foil, n heat it again 4 another 5-7 mins.. Den hey hey, u gt ur BBQ chicken.. Try it, it's damn nice.. Den aft tt, we went back to the base camp again.
At base camp, we ppl complained tt we r hungry cos juz now din eat much cos we din get much time n chance 2 cook cos we wasted a long time in starting da fire.. Nt many grps r able 2 cook due to lack of fire.. Count my grp 2 b lucky 2 b able to cook n barbeque a chicken slice.. At da base camp, we re-construct da fallen tents.. Den we mak our tents 2 b ready, den we put our things inside.. Den wen night came, sth unpleasant hapened. We were all being re-organised in our tents.. Den we gt seperated.. Damn unhappy abt it.. Wad makes me even more unhappy, is da thing tt da instructor say 2 da guys.. Cos we were damn tired due 2 lack of slp, we wer moving quite slowly..
He said "I was being called a maggot by my encik, my seargent. I'm very sure I'm beta den anyone of u combined here.. I dunno wad happen 2 all of u if u all go in2 army lik tt.. U all will nv freak out until u hear tt 2 letters.. N S.."
Den he stared at us.. Manz.. NS only wad.. Wad's dere 2 b freaked abt? If u r being called a maggot, n wad wld us b called. Let me tell ya, we wil b at least a hse-fly.. A beta evolution den urs.. Den any way we went bac 2 slp, so as to get ready 4 da nex day..
Day 3 (27/7):
Da first activity was belayin n rock climbing.. I was climbing da rock wall while Mart belay me.. Actually I had requested tt Johnny hu's abt my sam weight to belay me, da trainer said 'NO'.. N it proves 2 b a disastrous mistake.. I lose my grip, n I went falling.. N mart flew up abt da sam level where I can almost see eye 2 eye.. But luckily other ppl were holding on 2 him, if nt he will rrly go flying.. feel damn embarrassed lorz.. Piangz.. Den we went 2 haf our lunch.. Aft lunch, we went to rock climbing again..
Dis time, I belayed 2 ppl.. Both r pretty heavy weights.. Den wen it's my turn 2 climb, I no strength.. Aft a few attempts, I rrly cun tak it, den I asked 2 b lowered down.. Den retard guy Alan tried 2 climb again.. He failed of cos.. Wen he tried 2 fall, I ask him nt 2.. Nt cos I wanna him 2 climb on n encourage him, but juz let him hang in dere.. Making a fool of himself.. But in da end, juz let him down la.. While up dere, I directed him here n dere.. Den a trainer was standing dere n den commented 'a gd leader is here'. I rrly dunno wad 2 say.. An act only ma.. Haiz.. Dunno if it's right of me 2 do tt lorz..
However, in dis rock climbing lots of things haf surfaced. Leadership qualities among our grp is all shown, n true colors of our team spirit is shown. It's sort of preety gd.. So lots of things r gained frm dis event.. Den same thing happen again lorz.. Went 2 slp.. But b4 gg 2 slp, we planned 4 our land expedition.. everything seemed 2 b perfectly fine.. Den we went 2 slp.. Cos we gt a sea n land expedition combined 2gether.. Gonna b tiring, so we slept early..
Day 4 (28/7):
This is da day of 2 expedition of land n sea.. We went 2 sea expedition first den go for land expedition. So let's tok abt da sea expedition first..
Sea Expedition:
We went kayaking.. Den we went to carry all da equipments we nid 4 kayaking.. We went for bouyancy test first.. We wore da bouyancy vests b4 entering da water.. Den aft we wade in2 abt knee-deep water.. Den we asked to sit down.. Den eveybody passed da test, den we proceed wif kayaking.. We practise kayaking 4 a while den we started our expedition.. We kayaked til lik 2 da second link, den we stopped.. Den we com back.. We had a little race, den it was lik a tie la.. B4 gg bac, we wer asked 2 do a few things.. Da guys wer asked 2 stand at da rough choppy sea inside our kayak.. Den count 2 20 den sit down 1 by 1.. Den follow by da gals singing ABC song, den oso sit down 1 by 1..
Toking abt standing on da kayak, it relates 2 tt retard guy again.. He was damn afraid.. While standing up, his legs kip shaking, n den oso closing his eyes.. Dotz.. He had always boasted how unafraid he is.. But c wad happens? A bit of contradictory rite? In fact wad I feel is a direct 100% contradictory.. In fact hor, wad's dere to b afraid abt? Juz stand, n hold tight.. Nth 2 b afraid wad.. Gt vest wad.. Rrly dunno lorz.. Den we rowed back la.. Haha..
Land Expedition:
Our destination was Jurong Point. Our starting off is at Raffles Marina itself.. Den everything went smoothly til da return journey.. Cos we made a serious mistake.. Let me toked abt it..
When we reached Jurong Point, we examined da map again.. I examined da map with another leader cos our grp gt 2 expedition leaders.. Den we found out a rd which is Jalan Ahmad Ibrahim or sth lik tt.. We walked along den we calculated tt, da tim we nid is juz rite.. But den we din expected tt we cannot cross a roundabout.. So we bo bian had 2 go thru da Industrial Gul Circle.. den we had extended da amt or length of road we tak.. While gg thru, lots of us had 2 overcome our fatigue n cont 2 walk on..
On da way back, our morale was low.. Everybody all feel lik giving up.. As a leader behind,I tried n encouraged dem on.. Cheer dem on, n push dem on.. Everybody were on da verge of collapsing, esp da gals wer very tired.. I held on their hands n support dem.. Cos it's a way of me showing encouragement 2 them.. No hanky panky business here.. Ppl wer beginin to fall, however I pushed them on.. I feel a bit guilty..
I juz rang out "C'mon guys! U guys had alr covered at least 40+km.. Be proud of it! U had achieved it! see it as an achievement nt a false step taken! Walk on wif pride! C'mon! Rest is juz a few steps away! C'mon ppl! C'mon!" I gues it was damn harsh on dem.. Haiz.. I mean my men r tired, none other ways r available but motivating dem by rewards is da only way.. Den we gt back 2 haf our dinner..
Den wen I gt da free time, I begin reflect on da way Ziliang led da grp.. He's hiding things frm da grp.. Wich dis I greatly oppose 2 it.. Den da way he led an expedition is lik total wrong lorz.. He led w/o a compass, wich is damn risky of gg in2 being lost.. N dis was wad rrly happen.. But haiz.. Since it's over liao, den shan't think abt it anymore.. We shld be proud tt we actually covered 30+km.. C'mon b proud of it.. Yea!
As recorded in my diary in da camp, I wrote:
Land expedition is nt so gd but nt as bad as 1 I had b4. But at least I cld c how ppl perservere on and how 2 b a gd leader. Gd leader are oso required 2 calculate risks and b confident of one's ability since you r leading.. But how 2 b confident when u r nt sure at all, n all ur men r low moralised? Haf 2 think sia..
sea expedition was fun. First time kayaking, but luckily din capsize, if nt sure lots of problems..
Legs r damn tired n aching frm yesterday's belaying n 2day's expedition. But juz enjoy it lo! Haha.."
We den had our campfire.. Actually hor.. Dis is da part I dun lik it at all lorz.. But ppl say campfire is da 1 tt ppl had always wanted to attend.. If nt, u might as well dun attend dis camp.. But den I feel tt I dun rrly lik noisy places aft all.. But enjoyed myself oso.. Haha.. I rrly dunno wad 2 say lorz.. But den da trainers made da campfire enjoyable la.. haha.. Den aft tt, we had a debrief, den went to slp..
Day 5 (29/7):
I slept til 7 in da morning.. Den pretty ok la.. We did area cleaning up.. Den did a human wording of Yishun Junior College.. Den we did it la.. Aft tt, we had som photo takin sessions.. Aft it, we went back 2 YJ.. B4 boarding da bus, we learnt a cheer in Navojo language.. A lang used by an American tribe.. Den we board da bus, b4 boarding I shook my trainer's hand n say thx 2 her. Den she said "You r a gd leader." I smiled back, n boarded da bus. On bus, we were jking n everything, n came up wif lots of crappy things such as claps for Ms tan, Mr Chung, Mr Wong.. Haha..
Den I went toking wif others in YJ til abt 1+.. Den went 2 haf lunch wif Jake at BK.. At dere we discuss sth, or in fact mostly abt da camp.. How we did it? How do u assess dis camp? Blah blah.. Den we went hm.. Here am I blogging abt da past 5 days.. Den sth juz struck me.. What is a gd leader? How do we define a gd leader? How does a gd leader lead his or her men?
Den I gt hm.. Washed up and do my usual unpacking.. Den all my clothes all gave da chlorine-lik smell.. Damn choking manz.. Cun tak it anw.. Dump all my clothes inside da washing machine den put pretty much detergent den wash it.. Den I went 2 check n reply all da mails.. Den I juz lik check myself.. Hey! I've b-com darker le! Yea! I'm more tanned.. Cos I was out in da sun almost everyday n oso my skin all kena 'burn'.. Haha..
I rrly dunno wad 2 say.. I mean I led 2 times, all critized by Jake.. Den I found out my leadership policies are direct contradictions to his.. I've checked wif my dad, den I finally noe sth.. My leadership is actually a rojak of everything.. I created a style of leadership of my own.. Perhaps tt's y my leadership policies clashes with lots of ppl.. Cos I've attended lots of leadership camps, learning different style of leaderships.. Den my main type focuses on military style cos of NCC.. Den wif som side track wif the other leadership camps such as dos I picked up in JC leadership camp n oso the ones I picked up frm sec 3 BURST Leadership camp.. Perhaps tt's y I become pretty military orientated wen com in2 leading ppl.. Cos I had always a mis conception tt my men r da cadets.. Perhaps I wil try 2 change.. But wad's a gd leader?
My dad says a gd leader muz haf a pretty good relationship. A leader muz be able to understand his or her subordinates, which in turn will be able to earn respect frm dem. A leader shld b considerate n able to read the body language of his or her men. A leader muz oso be able to pass clear instructions so as to prevent any conflicts due to unclear instructions diseminated. He or she muz oso set a gd example thru the good personality. Good personality includes honesty within the leader, fairness in leading men, n able to distinguish the right from the wrong. The leader muz oso b able to motivate his or men so as to encourage them to challenge their limit w/o dem realising it.. A leader muz nt be too emotional, emotional as in nt cryin if one of the men fell n injured, or panic wen anything happens out of a sudden.. This was wad I gt frm my dad.. Den I dunno how many had I met or rather how much had I offended.. Mayb Jake can tell? So am I still considered a gd leader?
I now wld lik 2 touch sth rather sensitive. Natural leader versus a trained leader, hu's stronger? I attended one course, they say tt dere is no such thing such as hu's a stronger leader with regards to if he or she is natural or trained. But frm my experience n exposure to the leaders' world, I think I can get som signs as 2 reply bac, n how 2 distinguish a trained 1 n a natural leader.. A trained leader tend to lack in confidence in leading his or her own men, n only com up to lead wen asked to,n oso rather techincal in leading, so if u ask me is dis gd or bad, I cldn't say anything but juz say it depends how the leader leads his or her grp.. A natural leader is very easy 2 distinguish frm the trained leaders..A natural leader wil always tend to lead or guide ppl how to lead, n take the directions wen da grp goes in2 a panicky situation or any unfavorable situation n oso wil always try n learn frm others aft each leading cos most of the tim, they lead according 2 their basic instincts..
Den I oso learn a new song frm the camp "You are my sunshine" There r 2 versions of You r my sunshine, both r listed below..
You r my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
You make me happy
when the skies are grey
you nv noe dear how much I luv u..
Pls dun tak my sunshine away.. [original]
You r my sun-sun-sun-sunshine,
my only sun-sun-sun-sunshine.
You make me ha-ha-ha-happy
when the skies are grey-grey-grey-grey-grey..
You nv noe dear how much I luv u..
Pls dun tak my sunshine away..[Remix]
There is oso another song called the Banana Song, it goes:
Peeping thru the window
wad will ppl say?
If u wan to jiak4 king2 jio3,
do da proper way..
Mit me tonite by the moonlight
Mit me tonite all alone
I haf sth 2 show u
sth tt is yelow n long
1 banana 2 banana 3 banana 4 banana
hey!
5 banana 6 banana and
many many more
I've learnt quite a lot frm dis camp.. Dis camp 2 me was a bit sian 4 me.. But there r new things tt I've learnt frm dis camp.. Things of leadership tt I nv noe, n oso letting me noe tt dere r new scenarios concerning leading your men.. Lik wad expedition had taught me well.. I wil now try n improve da things abt leadership n how to do well abt it.. Dis camp had been a pretty gd break 4 me.. A break away frm my studies.. Now is gonna mak me refreshed, n start my study expedition.. A much longer n mental taxation one.. Nex mon gt chem block test.. Argh.. How da hell am I gonna do it.. Damn stressed..
How haf U been in Ur camp? U had always been on my mind.. I heard wen it rained, som of da campers dere slpet in at least 6-inch deep of water.. I'm so worried abt Ur health.. U had always been on my mind.. But juz dunno how 2 say it 2 ya, wen I c U.. Hope tt U r fine, n had enjoyed Ur camp nt taking in consideration of the raining incident..
"Reflect on what you have done is the best way to improve oneself"
Day 1 (25/7):
I arrived in sch wif lots of things n bags.. In fact only 1 large bag, 1 medium bag, 1 slp-ing bag n shoe bag.. Haha.. In total gt 4 bags! So I brought many bags! [lame!] Den we assembled at da bball court 4 som briefing.. Den aft tt, we sit dere til abt 9 wen i actually reported @ 0700 as it requested 0715.. Den off we go 2 Raffles Marina.. Wen we reach dere, we wer lik pretty harpy.. Den we wer very enthu abt dis n tt.. We den went 2 pitch our tents.. It's kind of assembling kind.. No challenge lorz.. Som more it's so damn hot n stuffy.. Our group of boys were given 2 tents.. Both r 6-men tent.. So I was in charge of da 5 men grp including me la.. Den we quickly assembled our tents 4 a place 2 slp in n put our things.. Aft tt, we went 2 haf our lunch.. Aft lunch we went to do archery.. Here I did sth pretty wrong.. Here it goes..
Before we go 4 archery, we wer briefed on how to do archery.. N all da safety rules 2 follow.. Den we wer told tt each bow's glass fibre cost 200 bucks.. Den it's damn costly if we break dos glass fibre.. Yea.. 200 bucks.. No small amt hor.. Den we proceed 2 do our archery.. I as usual make myself as da last archer.. We wer given 3 chances to shoot our arrows.. Den first time, I went up n shot all 3, all wer out of range, nt even any where near da target board.. Den dey say it was a practice round, den second round is up..
Dis time is 4 compeition wif another grp.. Den I was lik stoning dere la.. Den all other grp members tried their best, but only 1 managed 2 get it near bull's eye.. Den it was Jake's n my turn to b archers.. Den we both shoot our arrows, den we all hit same place la.. Out of da target board.. Den second arrow was asked to b fired.. Others fired liao.. All went smoothly.. Den I was stil pulling da bow.. I also dunno where da hell did I find tt much strength, da bow juz SNAP at my ear.. I was stunned.. Da arrow din fly out but I was damn scared.. Cos I actually broke a bow.. God! Den I passed back da bow to da trainers.. In fact wen I broke da bow, da ppl dere all 'ahh' at da sam time.. Dey juz cldn't believe tt sb actually broke a bow.. But anw, I was too distracted 2 shoot well, so I picked up another bow n shoot.. I gt it nearer to da target board, Jake gt it on da blue 1..
Wen came 2 da third arrow, I juz aim n pulled da bow.. Shoot it n I gt it on da blue 1.. Den Jake I oso dunno wad happen, his arrow went hey-wire.. Din hit da target board, but we stil lose 2 the other grp la.. But nvm, we stil gt da third round of shooting ballons down.. But lots of ballons wer destroyed n burst due 2 carelessness.. So we wer left wif 4 balloons 2 shoot la.. D other grp is wif 5 balloons 2 shoot la..
Den we nid 2 tak up 10 arrows wif only 10 archers wif only 1 chance to shoot.. Den again, I was da last archer n trust me tt feeling is nv nice.. So my team went up 1 by 1.. Den shoot down 3 other ballons, den only left me da last archer 2 shoot down da last ballon.. Whoosh.. Tt feeling is so pressurised.. Cos it's da last, it's damn crucial.. All team's hope r pinned on u.. But nonetheless, I tried my best 2 concentrate n aimed.. Den off da arrow go, den 'pop'.. Ballon is shot, den screams frm my team mates went all da way up.. Gosh I feel so glorified.. But den in da end we stil lost cos we alr lose 2 da team by 1 ballon cos we wer 1 short.. But nvm la.. We stil gain quite a bit of experience.. Haha..
Den we went rafting.. It was a rather stupid thing 2 do I feel la.. But anw, by team work, we manage to finish.. Den dis is da place where da ugly side of me show up.. I actually command ppl 2 do dis n tt.. den I had oso failed to coax my men in2 doin things wif enthusiasim.. I mean I actually hollered at ppl to follow da instructions.. I was so guilty tt I actually wished to say sry 2 dem for hollering at dem.. But I juz dun dare 2 say..Den follow by night activity which is da Animal Call..
In dis game, we were all blindfolded.. My grp was assigned to b donkey.. So yea.. Went "hee-haw.. hee-haw" all da way 2 find our grp members as we were all scattered all over.. Feeling damn stupid.. But anw, it was ok la.. Cos the objective of the game is to make us realise the importance of communication among a team.. Be it leaders among leaders or leader to his/ her men or even communication among the team members itself.. Den dis make me realise tt comunication is so impt among a team.. In fact dis importance is further stressed on day 4..
Den aft dis game, we went to wash up.. They actually gave 1 hr 2 bath.. Muahaha.. So much time to bath.. Den gt 1 guy took damn long to bath la.. Tink took abt 30 min.. Nv noe y he tak so long.. Den we went 2 haf our reflection timing.. We juz expressed wad had actually happened to our trainer.. Our trainer din say much, but encouraged us 2 push on as dis is only da first day.. Den we had our supper, den we went 2 slp..
Day 2 (26/7):
It started 2 drizzle at 3 in da morning.. I noe cos I was slp-ing outside.. Cos more cooler.. Den I went back 2 tent n inform others tt it was raining.. Den we started to battle da leakage we wer facing.. We fought 4 1 hr den aft we abandon da tent cos it started 2 flood.. We went 2 slp in da carpark.. Den other guys den streamed in2 da car park 1 by 1.. I den went back 2 check on our tent.. Gosh, tents wer all moving ard, som wer even flying.. Dun b-lif rite? But it rrly flies.. Our tent had collapsed but din fly cos we put our things in da middle of da tent.. I den went bac 2 ask Jake 2 help me in rescuing our bag n placing tent bac to upright position..
We tried to upright da tent but was unsucessful aft a few attempts, so I decide to open up da tent n rescue all da bags n put them in da Command Post. Our bags wer all drenched, but we water-proofed all our belongings, so da contents inside wer safe.. But everybody wer at low spirits.. Da boys wer more badly hit cos all da boys left their belongings in da tents, but da gals all shifted to da Command Post b4 gg 2 other places n slp.. But wen morning is up,we went on rotting wif da wet weather programs.. Den wen it stopped raining, we had our outdoor cooking..
B4 we haf our outdoor cooking we follow a wet weather program designed by the organisation.. We prepare our campfire nite show.. Den da guys were all sian half den juz play along as a follower, n din rrly participate it.. Den we played Cha-red or sth lik tt.. Den tt's da tim wen we c so many funny actions frm our grp.. All sorts funny actions were displayed.. Haha.. Both grp had expressed gr8 sense of enthusiasim in tryin to decipher wada hell r we tryin to tok abt thru our actions.. Haha.. Den our trainer went M.I.A., den our grp a bit unhappy.. Wen she appear, we dunno if it's happy or nt.. But we juz follow her lorz..
We went to Commad Post n tak da things 4 outdoor cooking.. We were provided eggs, seasonings, potatoes, rice.. No instant noodles.. Den we went 2 do outdoor cooking.. Den we were further bein provided wif slices of chicken, den my grp barbequed it.. I now teach ya how 2 barbeque it.. Wrap the chicken in oil smeared aluminium foil.. Den let it burn over da fire.. heat it approximately 4 abt 5-7 mins.. Den tak it out.. Wrap it wif another layer of oil-smeared aluminium foil, n heat it again 4 another 5-7 mins.. Den hey hey, u gt ur BBQ chicken.. Try it, it's damn nice.. Den aft tt, we went back to the base camp again.
At base camp, we ppl complained tt we r hungry cos juz now din eat much cos we din get much time n chance 2 cook cos we wasted a long time in starting da fire.. Nt many grps r able 2 cook due to lack of fire.. Count my grp 2 b lucky 2 b able to cook n barbeque a chicken slice.. At da base camp, we re-construct da fallen tents.. Den we mak our tents 2 b ready, den we put our things inside.. Den wen night came, sth unpleasant hapened. We were all being re-organised in our tents.. Den we gt seperated.. Damn unhappy abt it.. Wad makes me even more unhappy, is da thing tt da instructor say 2 da guys.. Cos we were damn tired due 2 lack of slp, we wer moving quite slowly..
He said "I was being called a maggot by my encik, my seargent. I'm very sure I'm beta den anyone of u combined here.. I dunno wad happen 2 all of u if u all go in2 army lik tt.. U all will nv freak out until u hear tt 2 letters.. N S.."
Den he stared at us.. Manz.. NS only wad.. Wad's dere 2 b freaked abt? If u r being called a maggot, n wad wld us b called. Let me tell ya, we wil b at least a hse-fly.. A beta evolution den urs.. Den any way we went bac 2 slp, so as to get ready 4 da nex day..
Day 3 (27/7):
Da first activity was belayin n rock climbing.. I was climbing da rock wall while Mart belay me.. Actually I had requested tt Johnny hu's abt my sam weight to belay me, da trainer said 'NO'.. N it proves 2 b a disastrous mistake.. I lose my grip, n I went falling.. N mart flew up abt da sam level where I can almost see eye 2 eye.. But luckily other ppl were holding on 2 him, if nt he will rrly go flying.. feel damn embarrassed lorz.. Piangz.. Den we went 2 haf our lunch.. Aft lunch, we went to rock climbing again..
Dis time, I belayed 2 ppl.. Both r pretty heavy weights.. Den wen it's my turn 2 climb, I no strength.. Aft a few attempts, I rrly cun tak it, den I asked 2 b lowered down.. Den retard guy Alan tried 2 climb again.. He failed of cos.. Wen he tried 2 fall, I ask him nt 2.. Nt cos I wanna him 2 climb on n encourage him, but juz let him hang in dere.. Making a fool of himself.. But in da end, juz let him down la.. While up dere, I directed him here n dere.. Den a trainer was standing dere n den commented 'a gd leader is here'. I rrly dunno wad 2 say.. An act only ma.. Haiz.. Dunno if it's right of me 2 do tt lorz..
However, in dis rock climbing lots of things haf surfaced. Leadership qualities among our grp is all shown, n true colors of our team spirit is shown. It's sort of preety gd.. So lots of things r gained frm dis event.. Den same thing happen again lorz.. Went 2 slp.. But b4 gg 2 slp, we planned 4 our land expedition.. everything seemed 2 b perfectly fine.. Den we went 2 slp.. Cos we gt a sea n land expedition combined 2gether.. Gonna b tiring, so we slept early..
Day 4 (28/7):
This is da day of 2 expedition of land n sea.. We went 2 sea expedition first den go for land expedition. So let's tok abt da sea expedition first..
Sea Expedition:
We went kayaking.. Den we went to carry all da equipments we nid 4 kayaking.. We went for bouyancy test first.. We wore da bouyancy vests b4 entering da water.. Den aft we wade in2 abt knee-deep water.. Den we asked to sit down.. Den eveybody passed da test, den we proceed wif kayaking.. We practise kayaking 4 a while den we started our expedition.. We kayaked til lik 2 da second link, den we stopped.. Den we com back.. We had a little race, den it was lik a tie la.. B4 gg bac, we wer asked 2 do a few things.. Da guys wer asked 2 stand at da rough choppy sea inside our kayak.. Den count 2 20 den sit down 1 by 1.. Den follow by da gals singing ABC song, den oso sit down 1 by 1..
Toking abt standing on da kayak, it relates 2 tt retard guy again.. He was damn afraid.. While standing up, his legs kip shaking, n den oso closing his eyes.. Dotz.. He had always boasted how unafraid he is.. But c wad happens? A bit of contradictory rite? In fact wad I feel is a direct 100% contradictory.. In fact hor, wad's dere to b afraid abt? Juz stand, n hold tight.. Nth 2 b afraid wad.. Gt vest wad.. Rrly dunno lorz.. Den we rowed back la.. Haha..
Land Expedition:
Our destination was Jurong Point. Our starting off is at Raffles Marina itself.. Den everything went smoothly til da return journey.. Cos we made a serious mistake.. Let me toked abt it..
When we reached Jurong Point, we examined da map again.. I examined da map with another leader cos our grp gt 2 expedition leaders.. Den we found out a rd which is Jalan Ahmad Ibrahim or sth lik tt.. We walked along den we calculated tt, da tim we nid is juz rite.. But den we din expected tt we cannot cross a roundabout.. So we bo bian had 2 go thru da Industrial Gul Circle.. den we had extended da amt or length of road we tak.. While gg thru, lots of us had 2 overcome our fatigue n cont 2 walk on..
On da way back, our morale was low.. Everybody all feel lik giving up.. As a leader behind,I tried n encouraged dem on.. Cheer dem on, n push dem on.. Everybody were on da verge of collapsing, esp da gals wer very tired.. I held on their hands n support dem.. Cos it's a way of me showing encouragement 2 them.. No hanky panky business here.. Ppl wer beginin to fall, however I pushed them on.. I feel a bit guilty..
I juz rang out "C'mon guys! U guys had alr covered at least 40+km.. Be proud of it! U had achieved it! see it as an achievement nt a false step taken! Walk on wif pride! C'mon! Rest is juz a few steps away! C'mon ppl! C'mon!" I gues it was damn harsh on dem.. Haiz.. I mean my men r tired, none other ways r available but motivating dem by rewards is da only way.. Den we gt back 2 haf our dinner..
Den wen I gt da free time, I begin reflect on da way Ziliang led da grp.. He's hiding things frm da grp.. Wich dis I greatly oppose 2 it.. Den da way he led an expedition is lik total wrong lorz.. He led w/o a compass, wich is damn risky of gg in2 being lost.. N dis was wad rrly happen.. But haiz.. Since it's over liao, den shan't think abt it anymore.. We shld be proud tt we actually covered 30+km.. C'mon b proud of it.. Yea!
As recorded in my diary in da camp, I wrote:
Land expedition is nt so gd but nt as bad as 1 I had b4. But at least I cld c how ppl perservere on and how 2 b a gd leader. Gd leader are oso required 2 calculate risks and b confident of one's ability since you r leading.. But how 2 b confident when u r nt sure at all, n all ur men r low moralised? Haf 2 think sia..
sea expedition was fun. First time kayaking, but luckily din capsize, if nt sure lots of problems..
Legs r damn tired n aching frm yesterday's belaying n 2day's expedition. But juz enjoy it lo! Haha.."
We den had our campfire.. Actually hor.. Dis is da part I dun lik it at all lorz.. But ppl say campfire is da 1 tt ppl had always wanted to attend.. If nt, u might as well dun attend dis camp.. But den I feel tt I dun rrly lik noisy places aft all.. But enjoyed myself oso.. Haha.. I rrly dunno wad 2 say lorz.. But den da trainers made da campfire enjoyable la.. haha.. Den aft tt, we had a debrief, den went to slp..
Day 5 (29/7):
I slept til 7 in da morning.. Den pretty ok la.. We did area cleaning up.. Den did a human wording of Yishun Junior College.. Den we did it la.. Aft tt, we had som photo takin sessions.. Aft it, we went back 2 YJ.. B4 boarding da bus, we learnt a cheer in Navojo language.. A lang used by an American tribe.. Den we board da bus, b4 boarding I shook my trainer's hand n say thx 2 her. Den she said "You r a gd leader." I smiled back, n boarded da bus. On bus, we were jking n everything, n came up wif lots of crappy things such as claps for Ms tan, Mr Chung, Mr Wong.. Haha..
Den I went toking wif others in YJ til abt 1+.. Den went 2 haf lunch wif Jake at BK.. At dere we discuss sth, or in fact mostly abt da camp.. How we did it? How do u assess dis camp? Blah blah.. Den we went hm.. Here am I blogging abt da past 5 days.. Den sth juz struck me.. What is a gd leader? How do we define a gd leader? How does a gd leader lead his or her men?
Den I gt hm.. Washed up and do my usual unpacking.. Den all my clothes all gave da chlorine-lik smell.. Damn choking manz.. Cun tak it anw.. Dump all my clothes inside da washing machine den put pretty much detergent den wash it.. Den I went 2 check n reply all da mails.. Den I juz lik check myself.. Hey! I've b-com darker le! Yea! I'm more tanned.. Cos I was out in da sun almost everyday n oso my skin all kena 'burn'.. Haha..
I rrly dunno wad 2 say.. I mean I led 2 times, all critized by Jake.. Den I found out my leadership policies are direct contradictions to his.. I've checked wif my dad, den I finally noe sth.. My leadership is actually a rojak of everything.. I created a style of leadership of my own.. Perhaps tt's y my leadership policies clashes with lots of ppl.. Cos I've attended lots of leadership camps, learning different style of leaderships.. Den my main type focuses on military style cos of NCC.. Den wif som side track wif the other leadership camps such as dos I picked up in JC leadership camp n oso the ones I picked up frm sec 3 BURST Leadership camp.. Perhaps tt's y I become pretty military orientated wen com in2 leading ppl.. Cos I had always a mis conception tt my men r da cadets.. Perhaps I wil try 2 change.. But wad's a gd leader?
My dad says a gd leader muz haf a pretty good relationship. A leader muz be able to understand his or her subordinates, which in turn will be able to earn respect frm dem. A leader shld b considerate n able to read the body language of his or her men. A leader muz oso be able to pass clear instructions so as to prevent any conflicts due to unclear instructions diseminated. He or she muz oso set a gd example thru the good personality. Good personality includes honesty within the leader, fairness in leading men, n able to distinguish the right from the wrong. The leader muz oso b able to motivate his or men so as to encourage them to challenge their limit w/o dem realising it.. A leader muz nt be too emotional, emotional as in nt cryin if one of the men fell n injured, or panic wen anything happens out of a sudden.. This was wad I gt frm my dad.. Den I dunno how many had I met or rather how much had I offended.. Mayb Jake can tell? So am I still considered a gd leader?
I now wld lik 2 touch sth rather sensitive. Natural leader versus a trained leader, hu's stronger? I attended one course, they say tt dere is no such thing such as hu's a stronger leader with regards to if he or she is natural or trained. But frm my experience n exposure to the leaders' world, I think I can get som signs as 2 reply bac, n how 2 distinguish a trained 1 n a natural leader.. A trained leader tend to lack in confidence in leading his or her own men, n only com up to lead wen asked to,n oso rather techincal in leading, so if u ask me is dis gd or bad, I cldn't say anything but juz say it depends how the leader leads his or her grp.. A natural leader is very easy 2 distinguish frm the trained leaders..A natural leader wil always tend to lead or guide ppl how to lead, n take the directions wen da grp goes in2 a panicky situation or any unfavorable situation n oso wil always try n learn frm others aft each leading cos most of the tim, they lead according 2 their basic instincts..
Den I oso learn a new song frm the camp "You are my sunshine" There r 2 versions of You r my sunshine, both r listed below..
You r my sunshine,
my only sunshine.
You make me happy
when the skies are grey
you nv noe dear how much I luv u..
Pls dun tak my sunshine away.. [original]
You r my sun-sun-sun-sunshine,
my only sun-sun-sun-sunshine.
You make me ha-ha-ha-happy
when the skies are grey-grey-grey-grey-grey..
You nv noe dear how much I luv u..
Pls dun tak my sunshine away..[Remix]
There is oso another song called the Banana Song, it goes:
Peeping thru the window
wad will ppl say?
If u wan to jiak4 king2 jio3,
do da proper way..
Mit me tonite by the moonlight
Mit me tonite all alone
I haf sth 2 show u
sth tt is yelow n long
1 banana 2 banana 3 banana 4 banana
hey!
5 banana 6 banana and
many many more
I've learnt quite a lot frm dis camp.. Dis camp 2 me was a bit sian 4 me.. But there r new things tt I've learnt frm dis camp.. Things of leadership tt I nv noe, n oso letting me noe tt dere r new scenarios concerning leading your men.. Lik wad expedition had taught me well.. I wil now try n improve da things abt leadership n how to do well abt it.. Dis camp had been a pretty gd break 4 me.. A break away frm my studies.. Now is gonna mak me refreshed, n start my study expedition.. A much longer n mental taxation one.. Nex mon gt chem block test.. Argh.. How da hell am I gonna do it.. Damn stressed..
How haf U been in Ur camp? U had always been on my mind.. I heard wen it rained, som of da campers dere slpet in at least 6-inch deep of water.. I'm so worried abt Ur health.. U had always been on my mind.. But juz dunno how 2 say it 2 ya, wen I c U.. Hope tt U r fine, n had enjoyed Ur camp nt taking in consideration of the raining incident..
"Reflect on what you have done is the best way to improve oneself"
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:55 pm
Sunday, July 24, 2005
'Blogger attacked, General Laws of Xiaofeixia'
Is dere any prob being a blogger? Y r ppl attacking da bloggers? Lik a fellow blogger Xiaxue had been attacked.. Her entries and accounts all had been hacked in.. Den suffered quite a bit of losses.. Her 500+ entries were lost n her frenster account oso gone.. Poof! Den all dissapear liao.. Kinda sad 4 her.. I mean wads wrong being a blogger? Style of writing is da 1 we find ourselves.. Y come up wif an accusation tt she was impersonating? A bit unreasonable.. I feel la.. It's rather pure coincidental tt we haf da sam writing style.. Blog is where we express our thoughts wad.. We put up a tagging box is oso 4 ya 2 exchange views wif us wad.. U can say u agree or nt agree.. We din force u 2 agree wif wad we say.. C'mon ppl use ur brains la!
Tml is tt I'm gg off 4 a camp at Raffles Marina.. I hope it's a fun-filled camp as they promised.. *kip my fingers crossed* Things are alr packed.. Den only left da routine things tt haven been kept.. Now is da time I gonna slack n den scared out of my wits due to height phobia.. Dotz.. I rrly dun wish 2 climb anything.. Sea expedition is rowin of canoes.. Den land expedition I oso dunno wada hell is tt la.. But juz follow as well la.. Wad 2 do? Den dey say we slp in America 8 men sized camp.. I mean how big can it be.. Perhaps can lik contain 10 to 12 of Asian ppl? I dunno.. But I gues I wld hope 2 slp outside.. Cos outside nt so much blood-taxer aka mosquitos.. I gues I wld do fine as well cos nt much mosquito wld wan my blood la.. Cos last tim I donate lik siao.. Den dis tim shld b no le lorz.. Cos I dunno if it's true or nt la, but if u r seasoned mosquito blood donor, u wil develop anti-mosquito blood element within ur blood.. Haha..
2day muz slp early so tml can play damn hardcore.. But den.. Nex mon gt Chemistry block test.. Piangz.. Damn stressed up.. Argh.. Y cun let us tone down aft da camp den haf tests? Haiz.. Rrly dunno wad do lorz.. Gues I cun do much anw.. Juz tak each one on lorz.. Tackling 1 at a time.. I gues I can list out my laws here..
General Laws of Xiaofeixia:
1. Nv speak of things tt r sensitive 2 others as they will cause hurt to others
2. Nv discuss anything abt da exam aft taking da exam for it will pressurise u
3. Nv pull a long face in front of others, put on a happy face always, spread happiness among ppl
4. Do things with things tt benefit others but nt urself only, showing the noble self
5. Analyse things and bear all consequences for the decision u make for dis is we r meant 2 b
6. Lend a listening ear 2 dos hu nid it, nv complain but listen n respond 4 u will learn frm them.
7. Results of the tasks done always tends to be opposite of others, usually out of trend with normal.
8. Based on own judgement, n do things wif consultation frm others 4 opinion cos it wil enhance ur relations wif ppl cos u show their views matter
9. Humans r most emotional, try n bear wif their indesiciveness, for they kip dragging wen things r 2 be done..
Dese r da laws I had come up wif via all da observations made.. Den dese laws cld be used to explain certain behavior of mine lik wad is stated in Law 7 n others as well.. Dese laws cld be twisted n turned.. But it's by me nt by u of coz.. Haha..
Tml U n I r gg off 2 camps le.. Did ya tak Ur medicine along? Rmb 2 tak Ur meals regularly.. Dun tink 2 much, enjoy urself.. Ur health is ultimate concern of mine in my heart.. :'(
"I woke up crying cos I dreamt U were lonely n fighting 4 urself singly. Yet me cldn't help, but feeling hopeless.."
Tml is tt I'm gg off 4 a camp at Raffles Marina.. I hope it's a fun-filled camp as they promised.. *kip my fingers crossed* Things are alr packed.. Den only left da routine things tt haven been kept.. Now is da time I gonna slack n den scared out of my wits due to height phobia.. Dotz.. I rrly dun wish 2 climb anything.. Sea expedition is rowin of canoes.. Den land expedition I oso dunno wada hell is tt la.. But juz follow as well la.. Wad 2 do? Den dey say we slp in America 8 men sized camp.. I mean how big can it be.. Perhaps can lik contain 10 to 12 of Asian ppl? I dunno.. But I gues I wld hope 2 slp outside.. Cos outside nt so much blood-taxer aka mosquitos.. I gues I wld do fine as well cos nt much mosquito wld wan my blood la.. Cos last tim I donate lik siao.. Den dis tim shld b no le lorz.. Cos I dunno if it's true or nt la, but if u r seasoned mosquito blood donor, u wil develop anti-mosquito blood element within ur blood.. Haha..
2day muz slp early so tml can play damn hardcore.. But den.. Nex mon gt Chemistry block test.. Piangz.. Damn stressed up.. Argh.. Y cun let us tone down aft da camp den haf tests? Haiz.. Rrly dunno wad do lorz.. Gues I cun do much anw.. Juz tak each one on lorz.. Tackling 1 at a time.. I gues I can list out my laws here..
General Laws of Xiaofeixia:
1. Nv speak of things tt r sensitive 2 others as they will cause hurt to others
2. Nv discuss anything abt da exam aft taking da exam for it will pressurise u
3. Nv pull a long face in front of others, put on a happy face always, spread happiness among ppl
4. Do things with things tt benefit others but nt urself only, showing the noble self
5. Analyse things and bear all consequences for the decision u make for dis is we r meant 2 b
6. Lend a listening ear 2 dos hu nid it, nv complain but listen n respond 4 u will learn frm them.
7. Results of the tasks done always tends to be opposite of others, usually out of trend with normal.
8. Based on own judgement, n do things wif consultation frm others 4 opinion cos it wil enhance ur relations wif ppl cos u show their views matter
9. Humans r most emotional, try n bear wif their indesiciveness, for they kip dragging wen things r 2 be done..
Dese r da laws I had come up wif via all da observations made.. Den dese laws cld be used to explain certain behavior of mine lik wad is stated in Law 7 n others as well.. Dese laws cld be twisted n turned.. But it's by me nt by u of coz.. Haha..
Tml U n I r gg off 2 camps le.. Did ya tak Ur medicine along? Rmb 2 tak Ur meals regularly.. Dun tink 2 much, enjoy urself.. Ur health is ultimate concern of mine in my heart.. :'(
"I woke up crying cos I dreamt U were lonely n fighting 4 urself singly. Yet me cldn't help, but feeling hopeless.."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:10 pm
Saturday, July 23, 2005
'2day is a -_-" day..'
2day went 4 da Maths and Science quiz.. Den I was sort of lik da tour guide 4 da grp of the Admiralty Secondary students.. It was so damn freak ass lorz.. Dun wish 2 say anything.. But juz wanna say tt the thing did run as smothly as planned..
I was given da post of ambassador.. Den task was to lead the students n teachers 2 where dey are suppose 2 be la.. Den I juz lead students to the place of examination, den lead da teachers ard 4 a college tour.. Den aft da tour, lead them bac to their students.. Den it's free n ez time la.. Den I went back 2 da conference room 2 eat la.. Wif my fellow collegue.. We sat dere eating frm 1030 to 1100.. Wa.. Den is lik damn full.. Haha.. Den we skipped luch la..
We went bac to our students n led them to see da quiz compeitition la.. Den as expected, Nan Chiau won dos rounds n emerge as champions.. Den aft tt, we did som clearing up den I went hm la.. Den damn tired, slept frm 2 to 4, den woke up. I went to buy da necessities 4 da camp, cam back ard 5. Den went back 2 slp til 730.. I oso dunno y.. Now feeling sleepy.. *yawn* N oso feeling damn sick oso la.. Gg 2 camp dis comin mon..
Haiz.. Wen can I b free n ez? Haiz.. U seemed stressed.. But I'm here, y dun U wan 2 share Ur stress wif me?
I was given da post of ambassador.. Den task was to lead the students n teachers 2 where dey are suppose 2 be la.. Den I juz lead students to the place of examination, den lead da teachers ard 4 a college tour.. Den aft da tour, lead them bac to their students.. Den it's free n ez time la.. Den I went back 2 da conference room 2 eat la.. Wif my fellow collegue.. We sat dere eating frm 1030 to 1100.. Wa.. Den is lik damn full.. Haha.. Den we skipped luch la..
We went bac to our students n led them to see da quiz compeitition la.. Den as expected, Nan Chiau won dos rounds n emerge as champions.. Den aft tt, we did som clearing up den I went hm la.. Den damn tired, slept frm 2 to 4, den woke up. I went to buy da necessities 4 da camp, cam back ard 5. Den went back 2 slp til 730.. I oso dunno y.. Now feeling sleepy.. *yawn* N oso feeling damn sick oso la.. Gg 2 camp dis comin mon..
Haiz.. Wen can I b free n ez? Haiz.. U seemed stressed.. But I'm here, y dun U wan 2 share Ur stress wif me?
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:54 pm
'Y is dere so much things?'
Now I'm finally sitting down n writing a entry.. I had juz give a change 2 my blog skin again.. Hope at least it will suit me, I guess? Haha.. 2day or rather yesterday, which was 3 hrs ago, I den gt out of sch 2 eat my dinner wif my brothers.. Haha.. Cos we wer rehearshing 4 da official occasion wich is ltr at abt 8am.. Haha.. Den til rather lat la.. Lik 10+? Latest I've been in sch excluding da camp I attended in sch..
Dese few days is typically wonderful 2 me.. Nt cos I've gt fantastic things to say abt, but rather da guy I dun lik is nt wif us.. N tt leaves my ears damn peaceful.. Haha.. Thank GOD manz.. He's damn noisy.. Keep imitating teachers, den nt lik oso.. Wad 4? Som more damn stupid, gt caught by teacher while imitating him.. Haf u seen such an i_ _ _ _ _ b4? Rrly dun understand lorz.. But problems r rrly surfacing.. All involvin my frens n esp my brothers..
My 3rd bro is so insistent on dropping 1 sub wich is Chinese.. Den it is lik I hope he wun drop la.. Unless circumstances forces him 2 do so.. Since my first bro has alr dropped chem, dere is nth I cld do oso.. But hope he stil can get his dream ambition.. All da best.. Den now 2 of my frens wanna drop phy.. Rather sad 2 hear tt they wanna drop phy.. Quite sad 2 hera, but if they cun cope, wad's da use of asking them to retin dis sub n cause misery 2 other subjects? Don't u agree? Haiz.. Y has it b-com lik tt?
Yesterday (22/07), I went 2 track n field meet.. Den I was given da task of time-keeper.. Piangz.. Now I realise da impt-ance of human error.. I always had a slow reaction timing.. Den lik most of da time, click slower den others.. But anw, it was a pretty gd experience la.. Haha.. Enjoyed myself.. [wad's dere 2 enjoy abt?] But it's rrly cool 2 see ppl running at high speeds, n oso dos intense competition amongst all.. Haha..
Den aft da track n field thingy, I went 4 da rehersal la.. Den aft tt went 2 haf dinner wif my brothers.. Den we sat down n tok hell out of anything.. Haha.. Den we went hm at abt 11+? Haha.. Den now here I am writing dis entry aft all da activities.. Dis is da second entry of da blog wich is written in da early morning.. Lol..
I went past Ur hse 2day.. Saw Ur lights wer off.. So din wana call/sms U 2 ask how r U? I gues it's nth ba.. Cos I gt a strange feeling.. While wif U, I feel nth; but w/o Ur presence, I feel awkward n sad.. I dunno y.. Haiz.. Perhaps dis is is love 4 ya? I dunno..
"Things are set to be there. But it is your own ability and responsibility to get it."
Dese few days is typically wonderful 2 me.. Nt cos I've gt fantastic things to say abt, but rather da guy I dun lik is nt wif us.. N tt leaves my ears damn peaceful.. Haha.. Thank GOD manz.. He's damn noisy.. Keep imitating teachers, den nt lik oso.. Wad 4? Som more damn stupid, gt caught by teacher while imitating him.. Haf u seen such an i_ _ _ _ _ b4? Rrly dun understand lorz.. But problems r rrly surfacing.. All involvin my frens n esp my brothers..
My 3rd bro is so insistent on dropping 1 sub wich is Chinese.. Den it is lik I hope he wun drop la.. Unless circumstances forces him 2 do so.. Since my first bro has alr dropped chem, dere is nth I cld do oso.. But hope he stil can get his dream ambition.. All da best.. Den now 2 of my frens wanna drop phy.. Rather sad 2 hear tt they wanna drop phy.. Quite sad 2 hera, but if they cun cope, wad's da use of asking them to retin dis sub n cause misery 2 other subjects? Don't u agree? Haiz.. Y has it b-com lik tt?
Yesterday (22/07), I went 2 track n field meet.. Den I was given da task of time-keeper.. Piangz.. Now I realise da impt-ance of human error.. I always had a slow reaction timing.. Den lik most of da time, click slower den others.. But anw, it was a pretty gd experience la.. Haha.. Enjoyed myself.. [wad's dere 2 enjoy abt?] But it's rrly cool 2 see ppl running at high speeds, n oso dos intense competition amongst all.. Haha..
Den aft da track n field thingy, I went 4 da rehersal la.. Den aft tt went 2 haf dinner wif my brothers.. Den we sat down n tok hell out of anything.. Haha.. Den we went hm at abt 11+? Haha.. Den now here I am writing dis entry aft all da activities.. Dis is da second entry of da blog wich is written in da early morning.. Lol..
I went past Ur hse 2day.. Saw Ur lights wer off.. So din wana call/sms U 2 ask how r U? I gues it's nth ba.. Cos I gt a strange feeling.. While wif U, I feel nth; but w/o Ur presence, I feel awkward n sad.. I dunno y.. Haiz.. Perhaps dis is is love 4 ya? I dunno..
"Things are set to be there. But it is your own ability and responsibility to get it."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 2:35 am
Thursday, July 21, 2005
'Project Work.. Versus.. Racing'
Whee.. My project grp is gg damn fast manz.. We now at crafting our first draft of Written Report.. Haha.. Da accelerator is back.. Now at higher speed.. Haha.. Horse power of at least 800.. Haha.. Running at high speed.. Haha.. @ 310km per hr.. Muahaha.. So grps juz wil trail behind us.. Smelling the sand! Tasting da mud.. Muahaha.. oopps.. Shld nt b so proud.. Muz be humble.. We muz help each other.. K?
Actually hor.. It all boils down 2 Ivan's soooo detailed PI proposal.. Haha.. By then, the speed we travelling is at 190+? Den wen I tak over, I step on da accelerator even harder.. Gt 2 da speed of 200+.. Den we gt da first to get approval for our GPP.. Den we r oso da first grp to conduct da surveys.. But den 4 da welfare of da grp, I slammed on the brakes, comin 2 a complete stop. Den tt's wen mart's grp came n tak over me!! Haha.. Den I slammed da brakes cos I wanna my members 2 study 4 their tests.. But in da end prove 2 b a drastic mistake la.. None of us lik do well 4 da tests? Den nvm, mart's grp stuck at tabulation.. Den my grp was again taken back by Ivan..
Under da hands of Ivan, we again accelerate til high speed.. Now at 310.. Muahaha.. We completed tabulation.. All 200 surveys r in.. Den we now first grp to finish da planning of da draft of WR.. Soon, nex wk we gg 2 Raffles Marina.. Den Ivan planned to chiong finish da WR.. Haha.. Den all grps come back.. We r damn ahead.. Muahaha.. But let's see if Ivanz can produce dis magic.. I tink he can..
Dere is sth I wanna noe.. Hu r dos ppl hu com 2 my blog n anyhow do da quiz!? Wa lao.. Yesh.. Dis is dere 4 ya 2 tak.. But can u juz kindly leave ur name dere? Piangz.. I rrly wan 2 noe hu u r.. N oso tell me how u gt link here.. Haiz.. Do me dis favor pls...
Stress is comin up.. How r U lately? U r gg 4 a camp, do tak care 4 Urself k? Muz tak ur medicine at da rite intervals k? Though I wil nt b wif U, but I wil stil care 4 U..
"You complete me. You had me at 'Hello' "
Actually hor.. It all boils down 2 Ivan's soooo detailed PI proposal.. Haha.. By then, the speed we travelling is at 190+? Den wen I tak over, I step on da accelerator even harder.. Gt 2 da speed of 200+.. Den we gt da first to get approval for our GPP.. Den we r oso da first grp to conduct da surveys.. But den 4 da welfare of da grp, I slammed on the brakes, comin 2 a complete stop. Den tt's wen mart's grp came n tak over me!! Haha.. Den I slammed da brakes cos I wanna my members 2 study 4 their tests.. But in da end prove 2 b a drastic mistake la.. None of us lik do well 4 da tests? Den nvm, mart's grp stuck at tabulation.. Den my grp was again taken back by Ivan..
Under da hands of Ivan, we again accelerate til high speed.. Now at 310.. Muahaha.. We completed tabulation.. All 200 surveys r in.. Den we now first grp to finish da planning of da draft of WR.. Soon, nex wk we gg 2 Raffles Marina.. Den Ivan planned to chiong finish da WR.. Haha.. Den all grps come back.. We r damn ahead.. Muahaha.. But let's see if Ivanz can produce dis magic.. I tink he can..
Dere is sth I wanna noe.. Hu r dos ppl hu com 2 my blog n anyhow do da quiz!? Wa lao.. Yesh.. Dis is dere 4 ya 2 tak.. But can u juz kindly leave ur name dere? Piangz.. I rrly wan 2 noe hu u r.. N oso tell me how u gt link here.. Haiz.. Do me dis favor pls...
Stress is comin up.. How r U lately? U r gg 4 a camp, do tak care 4 Urself k? Muz tak ur medicine at da rite intervals k? Though I wil nt b wif U, but I wil stil care 4 U..
"You complete me. You had me at 'Hello' "
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:20 pm
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
'JC life.. Problems.. N problems.. Rest?'
EOM drafts.. WR draft 1.. Argh.. Wad happen? Stress comin up.. Som more nex nex mon gt chem block test.. Chemistry.. Argh.. My chemical bonding sux eh.. Cos I miss da whole lecture on it.. Haiz..
Nvm.. Gues tt's wad make JC life exciting ba.. Cos we R RACING AGAIST TIME.. =_=" Haha.. I'm getting lamer n lamer as da entries go on.. Haha.. Wad can u do? It's my blog! Muahaha.. Sianz ar.. Nex wk gt da adventure camp thingy.. Haiz.. Problems r oso escalating ard me.. My brothers, my frens n many other aspects la..
1 of my bro (1st) alr dropped chem, n u noe hu is it la.. Den now another bro of mine (3rd) wanna drop Chinese aft dis yr.. Haiz.. Y muz drop?! Cun juz lik mak do wif 4 den hang on 2 it ma? I mean less playin of maple n arcade.. Den lik a bit more time in studying den lik wasting time n money or gaming.. I mean lik once in 2 wks is a bit lik fierce le lorz.. In my opinion, I feel maybe once in a month wld do lorz.. Den mayb if gt time, catch a movie to relax la.. Much better den wastin money at arcade tiring urself out due to da strong opponent u mit.. Dis is wad I feel la.. Cos watchin movie lik spending $9 at max.. Som more can relax.. But in arcade, u can lik spend til lik $20 b4 u noe it.. Som more will b damn tiring aft dos games u play esp dos racing kind.. Gues rather harsh 2wards arcade.. I mean dis is wad I feel la..
One of my close fren, Johnny, is oso considering on dropping a sub.. He's considering if he's dropping phy or chem.. Frm career pt of view, I feel he shld drop chem.. If he wanna go engineering.. Cos in all other aspects of engineering other den life sciences, biological n chemical engineering, all require pre-requisit of physics n maths.. But wad I can only say is tt it all boils down 2 self interest.. If u r interested in chem.. Hold on 2 it.. If nt drop it, den embark on objective learning.. Meaning u r nt studyin 4 ur own self interest but for career options.. This is wad I cld say if u wanna drop sub la.. psst.. I'm phy rep so I hope u dun drop phy..
2nite, I oso dunno wad's wrong, but I seem 2 b able to waste my time lik siao.. Goin ard frenster n add testimonials 4 frens.. Haha.. Den I went back to finish up my EOM Draft 4.. Haha.. Finally finished.. Den another mission wld be da fact 2 finsh my chapt 9 tutorials on trigo.. Haha.. But first n foremost, I WANNA READ FINISH MY HARRY POTTER N THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!! Haha..
Tt book is damn nice.. Hu wans to borrow it frm me? I can lend it 2 ya aft I finish.. Haha.. Perhaps at da last wk of July, I shld b able 2 finish.. Hehee.. Nth more yet 2 say but som sad thingys or rather sam old things 2 say again at da end of da blog..
How r U? U seem 2 haf cheered up a lot.. I feel happy 4 ya.. How's Ur health? How did da doctor say? Did ya tak Ur medicine regularly n on-time? Though it's stressful, dun neglect Ur health. I do rrly rrly hope U r ok.. If U c me fall, dun fret cos I wld juz say dis 2 U:
"People leap and hope to God they can fly. Because otherwise, we may just drop like a rock wondering the whole way down "Why in the hell did I jump?" But here I am,(name of the gal), falling and there is only one person that makes me feel like I can fly. that's you. Asking me if I like you. It's no, because I love you"
Nvm.. Gues tt's wad make JC life exciting ba.. Cos we R RACING AGAIST TIME.. =_=" Haha.. I'm getting lamer n lamer as da entries go on.. Haha.. Wad can u do? It's my blog! Muahaha.. Sianz ar.. Nex wk gt da adventure camp thingy.. Haiz.. Problems r oso escalating ard me.. My brothers, my frens n many other aspects la..
1 of my bro (1st) alr dropped chem, n u noe hu is it la.. Den now another bro of mine (3rd) wanna drop Chinese aft dis yr.. Haiz.. Y muz drop?! Cun juz lik mak do wif 4 den hang on 2 it ma? I mean less playin of maple n arcade.. Den lik a bit more time in studying den lik wasting time n money or gaming.. I mean lik once in 2 wks is a bit lik fierce le lorz.. In my opinion, I feel maybe once in a month wld do lorz.. Den mayb if gt time, catch a movie to relax la.. Much better den wastin money at arcade tiring urself out due to da strong opponent u mit.. Dis is wad I feel la.. Cos watchin movie lik spending $9 at max.. Som more can relax.. But in arcade, u can lik spend til lik $20 b4 u noe it.. Som more will b damn tiring aft dos games u play esp dos racing kind.. Gues rather harsh 2wards arcade.. I mean dis is wad I feel la..
One of my close fren, Johnny, is oso considering on dropping a sub.. He's considering if he's dropping phy or chem.. Frm career pt of view, I feel he shld drop chem.. If he wanna go engineering.. Cos in all other aspects of engineering other den life sciences, biological n chemical engineering, all require pre-requisit of physics n maths.. But wad I can only say is tt it all boils down 2 self interest.. If u r interested in chem.. Hold on 2 it.. If nt drop it, den embark on objective learning.. Meaning u r nt studyin 4 ur own self interest but for career options.. This is wad I cld say if u wanna drop sub la.. psst.. I'm phy rep so I hope u dun drop phy..
2nite, I oso dunno wad's wrong, but I seem 2 b able to waste my time lik siao.. Goin ard frenster n add testimonials 4 frens.. Haha.. Den I went back to finish up my EOM Draft 4.. Haha.. Finally finished.. Den another mission wld be da fact 2 finsh my chapt 9 tutorials on trigo.. Haha.. But first n foremost, I WANNA READ FINISH MY HARRY POTTER N THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!! Haha..
Tt book is damn nice.. Hu wans to borrow it frm me? I can lend it 2 ya aft I finish.. Haha.. Perhaps at da last wk of July, I shld b able 2 finish.. Hehee.. Nth more yet 2 say but som sad thingys or rather sam old things 2 say again at da end of da blog..
How r U? U seem 2 haf cheered up a lot.. I feel happy 4 ya.. How's Ur health? How did da doctor say? Did ya tak Ur medicine regularly n on-time? Though it's stressful, dun neglect Ur health. I do rrly rrly hope U r ok.. If U c me fall, dun fret cos I wld juz say dis 2 U:
"People leap and hope to God they can fly. Because otherwise, we may just drop like a rock wondering the whole way down "Why in the hell did I jump?" But here I am,(name of the gal), falling and there is only one person that makes me feel like I can fly. that's you. Asking me if I like you. It's no, because I love you"
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:16 pm
Sunday, July 17, 2005
'I asked.. I went.. I planned..'
"2day is sunday.. Tml is mon.. N den tml is A-level CL-AO listening compre exam.."
"Listening only ma.." *stone*
"Listening A level.. U gt it u arse?!"
"orh" Den I went back n cont 2 read my Harry Potter bk..
It's lik pretty gd bk.. Haha.. Gues mayb I shld say abt yesterday's activities.. It was lik pretty gd 4 yesterday..
Yesterday, me n my long-lost bro frm IJC went 2 watch movie.. We watch Fantastic 4.. Haha.. Pretty gd movie n action-packed.. At da sam tim, I oso dunno y.. Always sam style.. Include a lover story.. n everytime, it's always da gal hu initiated da move 2 get close n in2 da r/s wif da man.. Gosh.. I dunno if it applies here in Singapore or any other r/s tt is gg to blossom within my range of knowledge of frens.. Mayb wad's da thing tt we r 2 learn? I oso dunno.. Haha..
Seem stressed.. N I'm rrly v stressed.. I oso wish 2 relax as I've told others.. But according 2 my laws, it's oso gd tt if I include tt in.. Haha.. According 2 my 3rd law, I gues I haf lots of time 2 chill out n de-stress.. Lol. Perhaps by having a happy mask, it wil affect one's mood as well.. Since I'm putting up a happy face, I c no link 2 b unhappy abt.. Being happy, u share da joy tt others share.. Den u will 4get abt da stress n unhappiness u haf.. Dun u agree? In fact, in other words, it's all on psychological effect.. If u block out all da stress u hafin, u wil b more harpy.. i gues, n I've conducted a test, n it suceeded.. Gues ppl wil b happy n nt so stressed if dey think tt they r nt stressed at all.. Try it..
2day back at my base camp, I finally noe tt I've 2 stop all my current playin activities.. So much tt I dunno.. In fact nt stop la.. Muz increase da tim I gonna study, den decrease da money n time used 2 play arcade.. So sry bros, tt I've 2 pang seh u all n study.. I gues arcade is rrly nt 4 me ba.. I tink I wanna do well ba.. Nt think 2 do well.. I wanna do well.. My chem ar.. Wa lao.. I rrly dunno wad 2 le la.. Gt an oyster.. But my passion 4 chem is nt gg to die.. Or rather my passion for sciences n maths is nt gg to die nor fade.. Cos wen I grow up, I gues I wld wanna b a scientist ba.. Mayb on research field de..
2day I asked a qn to my tutor.
Me: "Do u encourage inter racial r/s?"
Tutor: "Generally, I dun encourage la.. Cos it's rather troublesome de la.."
Me: "Okie.."
Tutor: "Y u ask dis out of a sudden?"
Me: "No la.. Cos I r/s councillor ma.. Den com across dis case ma.. juz asking 4 opinion.."
Tutor: "Haha.. Ok. u beta nt b da 1 hor.. If nt ur dad wil rrly go bengz.."
I oso dunno y I ask dis out of a blue.. But dun worry, it's nt me.. Cos I normally stand on da fact tt it's always beta if u get a spouse or partner of ur sam race la.. I dunno if it's racist or wad la.. But I gues it's always one's preference.. Perhaps u haf a diff view frm me.. Can share wif me?
Nth more to say but juz say:
"If God allows, I would have sold my soul to make you happy"
"Listening only ma.." *stone*
"Listening A level.. U gt it u arse?!"
"orh" Den I went back n cont 2 read my Harry Potter bk..
It's lik pretty gd bk.. Haha.. Gues mayb I shld say abt yesterday's activities.. It was lik pretty gd 4 yesterday..
Yesterday, me n my long-lost bro frm IJC went 2 watch movie.. We watch Fantastic 4.. Haha.. Pretty gd movie n action-packed.. At da sam tim, I oso dunno y.. Always sam style.. Include a lover story.. n everytime, it's always da gal hu initiated da move 2 get close n in2 da r/s wif da man.. Gosh.. I dunno if it applies here in Singapore or any other r/s tt is gg to blossom within my range of knowledge of frens.. Mayb wad's da thing tt we r 2 learn? I oso dunno.. Haha..
Seem stressed.. N I'm rrly v stressed.. I oso wish 2 relax as I've told others.. But according 2 my laws, it's oso gd tt if I include tt in.. Haha.. According 2 my 3rd law, I gues I haf lots of time 2 chill out n de-stress.. Lol. Perhaps by having a happy mask, it wil affect one's mood as well.. Since I'm putting up a happy face, I c no link 2 b unhappy abt.. Being happy, u share da joy tt others share.. Den u will 4get abt da stress n unhappiness u haf.. Dun u agree? In fact, in other words, it's all on psychological effect.. If u block out all da stress u hafin, u wil b more harpy.. i gues, n I've conducted a test, n it suceeded.. Gues ppl wil b happy n nt so stressed if dey think tt they r nt stressed at all.. Try it..
2day back at my base camp, I finally noe tt I've 2 stop all my current playin activities.. So much tt I dunno.. In fact nt stop la.. Muz increase da tim I gonna study, den decrease da money n time used 2 play arcade.. So sry bros, tt I've 2 pang seh u all n study.. I gues arcade is rrly nt 4 me ba.. I tink I wanna do well ba.. Nt think 2 do well.. I wanna do well.. My chem ar.. Wa lao.. I rrly dunno wad 2 le la.. Gt an oyster.. But my passion 4 chem is nt gg to die.. Or rather my passion for sciences n maths is nt gg to die nor fade.. Cos wen I grow up, I gues I wld wanna b a scientist ba.. Mayb on research field de..
2day I asked a qn to my tutor.
Me: "Do u encourage inter racial r/s?"
Tutor: "Generally, I dun encourage la.. Cos it's rather troublesome de la.."
Me: "Okie.."
Tutor: "Y u ask dis out of a sudden?"
Me: "No la.. Cos I r/s councillor ma.. Den com across dis case ma.. juz asking 4 opinion.."
Tutor: "Haha.. Ok. u beta nt b da 1 hor.. If nt ur dad wil rrly go bengz.."
I oso dunno y I ask dis out of a blue.. But dun worry, it's nt me.. Cos I normally stand on da fact tt it's always beta if u get a spouse or partner of ur sam race la.. I dunno if it's racist or wad la.. But I gues it's always one's preference.. Perhaps u haf a diff view frm me.. Can share wif me?
Nth more to say but juz say:
"If God allows, I would have sold my soul to make you happy"
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:46 pm
Friday, July 15, 2005
'Environment, a mentos addict'
Days r getting greyer n greyer.. I juz kip getting screwed all over.. By sunjects' scores n work stress.. JC life is nt dull nor stressful but is da presure frm da surroundings.. Pressure frm frens, n environment ard me.. Den project work we r oso facing lik hell.. Den now nt slpin well 4 2 to 3 days is lik normal liao.. Den dis few days relyin on mentos oso la.. Den gues I'm now on drugs le la.. Nt dos hardcore 1s la.. Mentos la..
Piror to mentos ranking, I now found out a new combination. In order nt 2 suffer frm insomnia due to much glucose frm da swet, the best combination is Barley mint wif Ice mint. K, barley mint 2 me is full of glucose la.. Den lik aft 1 bar of mentos regarless if it's ice or barley mint, everything juz flow smoothly.. I oso dunno y.. Cld be due 2 my sec 4 eating mentos habit ba.. Last tim damn hiong la.. 1 day at least 3 bars, n varying from tadpole killer no.1 to no. 3. *gosh many tadpoles muz haf been killed, sob* But now in JC oso no where beta la.. Even more damn fierce.. Lik 4 bars per day? Cos now seems 2 b addicted liao.. A day without mentos wld be lik a day without hp for dos modern students la.. Do u noe da pain n toughness dificulty gg thru without mentos? I tink I cld relate it rather well wif da concept of nt hafin hp for a day..
2day went for project planning.. Den it was rather ok la.. We actually came out wif a design for our vending machine for our project.. Den it was ok la.. We juz lik plan n tok cock la.. But we juz com 2 a conclusion tt we shld wait til further more technical stuffs on vending machines r being finalised, den do we go n design.. So wad can u say in da end? We com bac 2 square 1.. No work done nor displacement is done.. Haha.. But we are gg on Written Report draft outline now la.. Now we r slowing down la.. Cos I made a mistake during da holidays..
In terms of racing.. Our grp race wif mart's grp la.. Den b4 da holidays, my grp was lik da first 2 b approved in everything.. GPP, survey, timetable. Blah blah.. Den due 2 da damn block tests, I slammed da brakes n let my members study 4 da tests.. Den mart's grp catch up le la.. Den now we r on par under Ivan's leadership.. Haha.. Den on 25 July tt wk, most of da grp wld b delayed, but den Ivan nid nt go da camp.. So our grp gonna finish da WR outline.. Muahaha..
Yet again, I saw U nt as cheerful as b4.. I rrly wish 2 noe if U r happy or nt.. Though I c a guy treating U tenderly, I rrly wish tt da guy is me.. But den again, I cld juz stand by a corner n wish U all da best.. Is Ur health ok?
Lastly I cld juz do nth but say dis:
"Love somebody does nt mean owning tt person, but wish all da best for tt person"
Piror to mentos ranking, I now found out a new combination. In order nt 2 suffer frm insomnia due to much glucose frm da swet, the best combination is Barley mint wif Ice mint. K, barley mint 2 me is full of glucose la.. Den lik aft 1 bar of mentos regarless if it's ice or barley mint, everything juz flow smoothly.. I oso dunno y.. Cld be due 2 my sec 4 eating mentos habit ba.. Last tim damn hiong la.. 1 day at least 3 bars, n varying from tadpole killer no.1 to no. 3. *gosh many tadpoles muz haf been killed, sob* But now in JC oso no where beta la.. Even more damn fierce.. Lik 4 bars per day? Cos now seems 2 b addicted liao.. A day without mentos wld be lik a day without hp for dos modern students la.. Do u noe da pain n toughness dificulty gg thru without mentos? I tink I cld relate it rather well wif da concept of nt hafin hp for a day..
2day went for project planning.. Den it was rather ok la.. We actually came out wif a design for our vending machine for our project.. Den it was ok la.. We juz lik plan n tok cock la.. But we juz com 2 a conclusion tt we shld wait til further more technical stuffs on vending machines r being finalised, den do we go n design.. So wad can u say in da end? We com bac 2 square 1.. No work done nor displacement is done.. Haha.. But we are gg on Written Report draft outline now la.. Now we r slowing down la.. Cos I made a mistake during da holidays..
In terms of racing.. Our grp race wif mart's grp la.. Den b4 da holidays, my grp was lik da first 2 b approved in everything.. GPP, survey, timetable. Blah blah.. Den due 2 da damn block tests, I slammed da brakes n let my members study 4 da tests.. Den mart's grp catch up le la.. Den now we r on par under Ivan's leadership.. Haha.. Den on 25 July tt wk, most of da grp wld b delayed, but den Ivan nid nt go da camp.. So our grp gonna finish da WR outline.. Muahaha..
Yet again, I saw U nt as cheerful as b4.. I rrly wish 2 noe if U r happy or nt.. Though I c a guy treating U tenderly, I rrly wish tt da guy is me.. But den again, I cld juz stand by a corner n wish U all da best.. Is Ur health ok?
Lastly I cld juz do nth but say dis:
"Love somebody does nt mean owning tt person, but wish all da best for tt person"
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:10 pm
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
'Damn stress.. Crying soon..'
I 2day was a stoner.. Lik in da past.. I dun feel lik doin anything.. I saw U sitting dere stoning.. I rrly wan 2 noe wad U r thinking.. Can U share wif me? Cos it's heartbrokening 2 c U lik tt.. It's lik a knife plunging deep in2 me.. Can U feel da pain gg thru me? Mayb U noe or mayb U dunno.. But I wish 2 let U noe.. But 'how' is da key prob here..
Once, I heard frm a gd female fren of mine. She said tt gals lik guys hu r str 4ward.. Hate dem 2 b old granny dragging things along.. This enlightens me a lot.. But do u rrly lik tt? I was once told off 4 being too str 4ward.. Haiz.. Rrly damn stressed n confused *sob* U r a gal hu is full of leadership qualities, open, take initiatives at all time, hardly haf any temper.. Gues tt's y I fall 4 u ba.. But U r always surrounded by Ur frens.. How can I go closer 2 ya? I now gt a contradictory nature of mine now.. Wen I c U, I wil try n avoid Ur gaze.. But yet I wish I cld go closer 2 ya.. I dunno wad has happened.. But I rrly wan 2 noe.. Juz dunno wad 2 say 2 ya.. Juz all cun com out of my mouth.. Juz all wun com out.. Haiz..
Things r startin 2 fall apart.. My 3rd bro's Project S is beginning 2 tear apart, gg to break liao.. Haiz.. Y haf things start 2 tear apart wen dey on alr on da track? I juz dun understand.. Mayb I shld rrly tak som time out aft my promos 2 understand human beings as a whole n in detail.. It doesn't imply tt I'm nt a human, but I gues it's tim tt we do sit down n understand ourselves even more.. Den now Jake's Project A haven been done.. I dunno wad is Project A is.. Unless he wans 2 tell me.. Den even my whole gang of bros r now facing conflicts within our grp.. Juz dunno how 2 face it la..
2day I had my chinese oral exam.. Ez? Nt tt ez.. Diff? Nt tt diff.. Cos I rrly dunno wada hell am I sayin n crapping.. But juz pour out wadever I noe.. Haiz.. Cos of oral, I had 2 miss lessons.. Haiz.. Rrly dun wish 2.. But bo bian.. Den now I'm facing a dilemma..
A guy whom I dun rrly lik is kip hanging close 2 my gang of bros.. Den now getting as if he is 1 of us.. But I rrly dunno whether 2 regard him as bro a nt.. Haiz.. I mean he's lik damn popular wif all da negative thingy.. I dun rrly lik him.. Tell me wad 2 do.. Accept him as my bro is a no-way option..
Now all I cld do is juz start 2 mug.. N hope my promo can pass.. Mayb I wil try 2 get a S paper? Hope only hor.. *sob*
"I wanna get close yet wanting to remain distant wif u.. I rrly dunno wad 2 do but juz bottle it up.."
Once, I heard frm a gd female fren of mine. She said tt gals lik guys hu r str 4ward.. Hate dem 2 b old granny dragging things along.. This enlightens me a lot.. But do u rrly lik tt? I was once told off 4 being too str 4ward.. Haiz.. Rrly damn stressed n confused *sob* U r a gal hu is full of leadership qualities, open, take initiatives at all time, hardly haf any temper.. Gues tt's y I fall 4 u ba.. But U r always surrounded by Ur frens.. How can I go closer 2 ya? I now gt a contradictory nature of mine now.. Wen I c U, I wil try n avoid Ur gaze.. But yet I wish I cld go closer 2 ya.. I dunno wad has happened.. But I rrly wan 2 noe.. Juz dunno wad 2 say 2 ya.. Juz all cun com out of my mouth.. Juz all wun com out.. Haiz..
Things r startin 2 fall apart.. My 3rd bro's Project S is beginning 2 tear apart, gg to break liao.. Haiz.. Y haf things start 2 tear apart wen dey on alr on da track? I juz dun understand.. Mayb I shld rrly tak som time out aft my promos 2 understand human beings as a whole n in detail.. It doesn't imply tt I'm nt a human, but I gues it's tim tt we do sit down n understand ourselves even more.. Den now Jake's Project A haven been done.. I dunno wad is Project A is.. Unless he wans 2 tell me.. Den even my whole gang of bros r now facing conflicts within our grp.. Juz dunno how 2 face it la..
2day I had my chinese oral exam.. Ez? Nt tt ez.. Diff? Nt tt diff.. Cos I rrly dunno wada hell am I sayin n crapping.. But juz pour out wadever I noe.. Haiz.. Cos of oral, I had 2 miss lessons.. Haiz.. Rrly dun wish 2.. But bo bian.. Den now I'm facing a dilemma..
A guy whom I dun rrly lik is kip hanging close 2 my gang of bros.. Den now getting as if he is 1 of us.. But I rrly dunno whether 2 regard him as bro a nt.. Haiz.. I mean he's lik damn popular wif all da negative thingy.. I dun rrly lik him.. Tell me wad 2 do.. Accept him as my bro is a no-way option..
Now all I cld do is juz start 2 mug.. N hope my promo can pass.. Mayb I wil try 2 get a S paper? Hope only hor.. *sob*
"I wanna get close yet wanting to remain distant wif u.. I rrly dunno wad 2 do but juz bottle it up.."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:25 pm
Saturday, July 09, 2005
'Damn Me'
HOT HOT! Damn HOT! I juz dun feel lik doin anything.. 2day went 2 study n play la.. But den again so damn f-ed up la.. Okie, let's start frm da morning.. Mornin went to Sun Plaza arcade n train my racing skill la.. But den again, it sux la.. I oso dunno y I bother 2 spend money to train my racing skills.. Okie let's tok abt it..
I went 2 play at SP arcade, playin Wangan Midnight.. A pretty new game in racing la.. Den all cars run at speeds of 270+km/h.. Den all running at highway wif all lorries n vans.. Den juz bang in2 dem den all slowed 2 50+km/h.. Den all lose la.. Den I was driving along da highway competin wif da computer wif da option of "refuse vs". Den gt 1 arsehole came over, n switch da option to "accept vs".. Den 1 whole gang of 3 ppl juz came in n com n challenge me la.. Den me as a beginner sure lose de wad.. Haiz.. Den as expected, I lose cos I made quite a lot of mistakes la.. Haiz..
Den in da aftnon, aft stoning in arcade 4 at least 4hrs, I went to 1 of my brothers' hse n do work.. But weather 2 hot, so juz studied lik 5 pgs on chemical bonding.. But din study much either den begin 2 crap.. Ya.. So my day ends lik tt lorz.. I noe it sux la.. But wad 2 do in such given sucky weather?
Haiz.. Rrly nth 2 do, but stress meter is gg up! Argh..
I went 2 play at SP arcade, playin Wangan Midnight.. A pretty new game in racing la.. Den all cars run at speeds of 270+km/h.. Den all running at highway wif all lorries n vans.. Den juz bang in2 dem den all slowed 2 50+km/h.. Den all lose la.. Den I was driving along da highway competin wif da computer wif da option of "refuse vs". Den gt 1 arsehole came over, n switch da option to "accept vs".. Den 1 whole gang of 3 ppl juz came in n com n challenge me la.. Den me as a beginner sure lose de wad.. Haiz.. Den as expected, I lose cos I made quite a lot of mistakes la.. Haiz..
Den in da aftnon, aft stoning in arcade 4 at least 4hrs, I went to 1 of my brothers' hse n do work.. But weather 2 hot, so juz studied lik 5 pgs on chemical bonding.. But din study much either den begin 2 crap.. Ya.. So my day ends lik tt lorz.. I noe it sux la.. But wad 2 do in such given sucky weather?
Haiz.. Rrly nth 2 do, but stress meter is gg up! Argh..
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:18 pm
Friday, July 08, 2005
'Remembering..'
2day is dunno wad day la.. Screwed up day? Happy day? Sad day? In fact hor, da word 2 describe 2day is cannot b found anywhere.. Cos it's full of complicated feelings n v hard 2 say da rite word.. Haiz..
2day was pure stoning la.. I oso dunno y.. I dunno wad da heck is gg on 2day.. At phy lab, da practical I oso dunno wad da hell I was doin la.. But I noe I was doin som spring thingy.. Den was stoning la.. Den went 4 chinese lesson.. Den was oso stoning dere, den time travel again.. Haiz.. Dun even wada hell is wif me.. Kip time-travelling.. Haiz.. Den went 4 chem tutorial.. Damn shit I muz say.. Wad chemical bonding, lone pair, expanded octet.. Dotz.. Piangz.. Rrly dunno lorz.. But juz memorize it anw.. Haiz.. Den now stoning here blogging.. Cos I rrly dun haf any more images abt wad happened ltr aft tt..
Now tt I oso haf no idea wad am I doin at dis moment.. But soon I woke up aft PE, we stayed back 4 project work.. We tabulated the answers den only tabulated 3 qns.. Den we stayed til quite lat la.. Frm 5 to abt 630.. Haha.. Den we juz went hm.. Den my brothers along wif nadia went hm n out of da college.. Den since nadia n me stay near YJ, so juz walk hm 2gether la, cos it's on da sam way wad.. Den Jake, dunno wads wrong wif him den say:" Sb hor.. Very obvious leh.." Wa lao! It's rrly impossible de lorz.. Rrly impossible.. Cos no feelings! Sry nadia if u r reading dis entry, I hope u dun mind. Som more, if u wanna put it in a crude way, I can say tt a swan n nv b wif a toad 2gether.. U gt wad I mean?
I rrly gt sb in my heart le.. Though she din sweep me off my feet, but she did it considerably.. I rrly cun say hu she is, but dos hu noe, kip quiet! I had becomed dunno wada hell am I now.. A guy wif wad qualities, i oso dunno wad qualities I haf.. I've been getting shocks aft shocks.. Dos gals whom I fancy b4, n showed dem care n concern once b4, had dos kind of "missing-u" tone.. Haiz.. Am I tt gd? Or I think too far.. Mayb I had rrly think too far liao.. Dun care la.. Thinking back I'm a relationship councellor, shldn't I practise wad I usu says 2 my clients? Haha..
Den now I gonna say abt my results.. My maths, phy, chinese gt Elephant den my chem gt an Oyster.. Haiz.. It seems lik I dun do well.. But again, others din pass so many as me la, I gues I shld b happy? I dunno.. Mayb u shld say.. *oops, Law 1 is violated* Haiz.. Wen I gt bac my maths, I shld haf lik gotten a Cat instead of Elephant; phy shld haf oso gt a Cat instead of Elephant.. In fact all boils down 2 1 word "careless". Haiz.. Den again, I was lik sad lorz.. But I was damn nt happy wif my physics paper.. All my structured gt above ave, all scoring at least a 7.. But in da end, I flunk my MCQ.. N tt's dragged me down to Elephant.. Haiz.. Gues I shldn't b dwelling here but move on ba.. Move on manz!
I gues I had lik crapped too much here le.. Haha.. Den 2wards da end I gues I juz put in a quote I rmb in Batman Begins:
"Why do we fall? Cos we nid to noe how to pick ourselves up frm the fall"
2day was pure stoning la.. I oso dunno y.. I dunno wad da heck is gg on 2day.. At phy lab, da practical I oso dunno wad da hell I was doin la.. But I noe I was doin som spring thingy.. Den was stoning la.. Den went 4 chinese lesson.. Den was oso stoning dere, den time travel again.. Haiz.. Dun even wada hell is wif me.. Kip time-travelling.. Haiz.. Den went 4 chem tutorial.. Damn shit I muz say.. Wad chemical bonding, lone pair, expanded octet.. Dotz.. Piangz.. Rrly dunno lorz.. But juz memorize it anw.. Haiz.. Den now stoning here blogging.. Cos I rrly dun haf any more images abt wad happened ltr aft tt..
Now tt I oso haf no idea wad am I doin at dis moment.. But soon I woke up aft PE, we stayed back 4 project work.. We tabulated the answers den only tabulated 3 qns.. Den we stayed til quite lat la.. Frm 5 to abt 630.. Haha.. Den we juz went hm.. Den my brothers along wif nadia went hm n out of da college.. Den since nadia n me stay near YJ, so juz walk hm 2gether la, cos it's on da sam way wad.. Den Jake, dunno wads wrong wif him den say:" Sb hor.. Very obvious leh.." Wa lao! It's rrly impossible de lorz.. Rrly impossible.. Cos no feelings! Sry nadia if u r reading dis entry, I hope u dun mind. Som more, if u wanna put it in a crude way, I can say tt a swan n nv b wif a toad 2gether.. U gt wad I mean?
I rrly gt sb in my heart le.. Though she din sweep me off my feet, but she did it considerably.. I rrly cun say hu she is, but dos hu noe, kip quiet! I had becomed dunno wada hell am I now.. A guy wif wad qualities, i oso dunno wad qualities I haf.. I've been getting shocks aft shocks.. Dos gals whom I fancy b4, n showed dem care n concern once b4, had dos kind of "missing-u" tone.. Haiz.. Am I tt gd? Or I think too far.. Mayb I had rrly think too far liao.. Dun care la.. Thinking back I'm a relationship councellor, shldn't I practise wad I usu says 2 my clients? Haha..
Den now I gonna say abt my results.. My maths, phy, chinese gt Elephant den my chem gt an Oyster.. Haiz.. It seems lik I dun do well.. But again, others din pass so many as me la, I gues I shld b happy? I dunno.. Mayb u shld say.. *oops, Law 1 is violated* Haiz.. Wen I gt bac my maths, I shld haf lik gotten a Cat instead of Elephant; phy shld haf oso gt a Cat instead of Elephant.. In fact all boils down 2 1 word "careless". Haiz.. Den again, I was lik sad lorz.. But I was damn nt happy wif my physics paper.. All my structured gt above ave, all scoring at least a 7.. But in da end, I flunk my MCQ.. N tt's dragged me down to Elephant.. Haiz.. Gues I shldn't b dwelling here but move on ba.. Move on manz!
I gues I had lik crapped too much here le.. Haha.. Den 2wards da end I gues I juz put in a quote I rmb in Batman Begins:
"Why do we fall? Cos we nid to noe how to pick ourselves up frm the fall"
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:40 pm
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
'Laws n Rules of xiaofeixia'
Days r comin to me wif an AXE. *roll in2 a ball in fear* Tml get bac my tests liao.. GP!! Argh! Sure fail de.. Damn scared! Haiz.. I dunno wad 2 do liao.. Haiz.. Mayb it's time 4 me 2 go off le ba.. 2day was singing Ocean's version of "Gu Dan Bei Pan Qiu".. Mayb I was sad? I oso dunno.. But juz feel a sudden lost cos a sudden change of environment.. Cos of sth tt happen, a sch arrangement wich I dun lik it.. Dun wish 2 say it, n Jake I noe u noe it, juz dun say it out.. Cos I dun wan anybody 2 noe..
2day damn cocked up la.. Was stoning my day away.. Den I oso dunno wad la.. Juz feel lik crying.. But I juz cock my way out, n obey my laws of cheering ppl up.. Haha.. Mayb I shld juz find 1 day n redefine all my laws.. Shld u dunno wad r my laws, mayb I juz list dem out here.. Den dese laws r named aft my name of course, dey r called "XiaoFeiXia's self Governing Laws" Da laws r stated as below:
XiaoFeiXia's self Governing Laws
1. Nv speak of things tt r sensitive 2 others
2. Nv discuss anything abt da exam aft taking da exam
3. Nv pull a long face in front of others, put on a happy face always
4. Do things with things tt benefit others but nt urself only
5. Lend a listening ear 2 dos hu nid it, nv complain but listen n respond.
6. Based on own judgement, n do things wif consultation frm others 4 opinion
7. Humans r most emotional, try n bear wif their indesiciveness
These r governing laws of my own la.. I dunno y dese laws r created but it juz work amazingly well 4 me.. Mayb it seems nonsense 2 ya.. but 2 me, err.. It's juz nth.. Sth tt I juz created 2 control myself ba.. As 2 others n my frens, I took up relationship counsellor.. Dere r som laws tt I set up 4 myself oso.. I dun tink I shld say law, but rules? Den juz name it as "XiaoFeiXia's Rules Of Counselling"
XiaoFeiXia's Rules Of Counselling
1. Listen n respond
2. Nv force ur client 2 tak ur solution unless ur client is rrly beyond hope
3. Only guide ur client, nv try or even attempt to change ur client's view
4. Always remember tt ur solution is only suggested, nt quality, so nv force
All dese laws n rules had followed me lik 1 yr.. Den did play quite a significant role in my growing up, n som oso pulled me out of my december depression.. Haha.. Dese laws n rules r set to prevent me frm falling deeper n oso guide me to a beta height ba? I dunno.. Mayb ba.. Den now recalling back in sch, I juz rrly wan 2 noe sth.. Is Maple Story tt fun 2 play?
In sch 2day, my brothers all playing Maple Story den 2 of dem r addicted 2 it.. Den gt 1 say use it 2 waste time.. If u rrly wanna waste time, u shld use dos time n chiong tutorials or mayb study chem instead of playing.. Haiz.. Rrly duuno wad had happened.. I'm so sry if da tone used here is a bit heavy.. But dis is wad I feel la.. Wad's so fun abt killing snails n mushrooms? I dun get it lorz.. No link I muz say.. But 1 of my bro using 56k 2 play dis game.. Piangz.. His bill rrly gonna b damn heavy.. Dunno wad actually happen liao lorz.. Wad haf happened 2 dis world? Haiz.. It's gg topsy turvy wif respect 2 me..
I oso dunno wad 2 say but juz end wif dis quote ba.. Dunno said by hu, but I think it's worthwhile 4 me to remember n juz recalled juz now:
"It doesn't matter who you are beneath, but it is what ur actions really says about you."
2day damn cocked up la.. Was stoning my day away.. Den I oso dunno wad la.. Juz feel lik crying.. But I juz cock my way out, n obey my laws of cheering ppl up.. Haha.. Mayb I shld juz find 1 day n redefine all my laws.. Shld u dunno wad r my laws, mayb I juz list dem out here.. Den dese laws r named aft my name of course, dey r called "XiaoFeiXia's self Governing Laws" Da laws r stated as below:
XiaoFeiXia's self Governing Laws
1. Nv speak of things tt r sensitive 2 others
2. Nv discuss anything abt da exam aft taking da exam
3. Nv pull a long face in front of others, put on a happy face always
4. Do things with things tt benefit others but nt urself only
5. Lend a listening ear 2 dos hu nid it, nv complain but listen n respond.
6. Based on own judgement, n do things wif consultation frm others 4 opinion
7. Humans r most emotional, try n bear wif their indesiciveness
These r governing laws of my own la.. I dunno y dese laws r created but it juz work amazingly well 4 me.. Mayb it seems nonsense 2 ya.. but 2 me, err.. It's juz nth.. Sth tt I juz created 2 control myself ba.. As 2 others n my frens, I took up relationship counsellor.. Dere r som laws tt I set up 4 myself oso.. I dun tink I shld say law, but rules? Den juz name it as "XiaoFeiXia's Rules Of Counselling"
XiaoFeiXia's Rules Of Counselling
1. Listen n respond
2. Nv force ur client 2 tak ur solution unless ur client is rrly beyond hope
3. Only guide ur client, nv try or even attempt to change ur client's view
4. Always remember tt ur solution is only suggested, nt quality, so nv force
All dese laws n rules had followed me lik 1 yr.. Den did play quite a significant role in my growing up, n som oso pulled me out of my december depression.. Haha.. Dese laws n rules r set to prevent me frm falling deeper n oso guide me to a beta height ba? I dunno.. Mayb ba.. Den now recalling back in sch, I juz rrly wan 2 noe sth.. Is Maple Story tt fun 2 play?
In sch 2day, my brothers all playing Maple Story den 2 of dem r addicted 2 it.. Den gt 1 say use it 2 waste time.. If u rrly wanna waste time, u shld use dos time n chiong tutorials or mayb study chem instead of playing.. Haiz.. Rrly duuno wad had happened.. I'm so sry if da tone used here is a bit heavy.. But dis is wad I feel la.. Wad's so fun abt killing snails n mushrooms? I dun get it lorz.. No link I muz say.. But 1 of my bro using 56k 2 play dis game.. Piangz.. His bill rrly gonna b damn heavy.. Dunno wad actually happen liao lorz.. Wad haf happened 2 dis world? Haiz.. It's gg topsy turvy wif respect 2 me..
I oso dunno wad 2 say but juz end wif dis quote ba.. Dunno said by hu, but I think it's worthwhile 4 me to remember n juz recalled juz now:
"It doesn't matter who you are beneath, but it is what ur actions really says about you."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:40 pm
Sunday, July 03, 2005
'Mentos anyone?'
No doubt tt da exam is finished.. But my mind is full of 'wad if's.. Cos dis is a full time flunk of everything.. I can flunk my phy, my maths which r pretty strong areas at present.. Piangz.. Wad had actually happened? I oso dunno, mayb was all da stoning I've done during da revision.. But reviewing my last entry on 30/6.. It was kinda a bit wierd tt I can actually trace bac til so backward til wen I was in sec 3.. It's kind of unbelievable 2 me.. Rrly..
During exams, I gt insomnia.. Nt cos I drank coffee, n 4 ur info, I nv drink a single drop of coffee during exam period.. I was kept all while awak by mentos.. Ppl had always tried to kip themselves awak by drinking stronger n stronger coffee.. But now, i'm kept awak by dis, mentos.. -.-" Rrly leh.. I oso dunno wad happen.. During 'O's, I oso ate dis amt of mentos, but oso stil slp as early as b4.. Den now, stil using bac da sam old method, gt insomnia.. Piangz.. Dunno lorz.. But mayb I shld do mentos ranking up here:
Mentos 2 kip u awake wrt ranking:
1. Mentos Barley Mint
2. Mentos Ice Mint
3. Mentos Cool Chews Extra Mint
4. Mentos Cool Chews Cool Mint
5. Mentos Cool Chews Lime Mint
6. Mentos Strong Mint
7. Mentos Mint
8. Mentos Spearmint
9. Mentos Grape
For dos flavours I nv mentioned is cos they r either no effect or I din try dem.. Or mayb u can feedback to me abt som other flavours tt u tried n it kept u awake..
For the nex ranking, it concerns da guys. As u guys noe dere is thing saying abt mentos tt its mint flavours lowers 'tadpoles' count. So I'm here to rank dem as according to me la.. Nt cos I done da 'tadpoles' test, but its rate of lowering is dependent on da amt of mint inside.. So it's gonna b ranked..
Killers of 'tadpoles':
1. Mentos Cool Chews Extra Mint
2. Mentos Strong Mint
3. Mentos Barley Mint/ Ice Mint/ Mint
4. Mentos Cool Chews Cool Mint
5. Mentos Cool Chews Lime Mint
Dese r da killers so far la.. Cos they kip u awak within 2 hrs.. So it's damn hiong.. But for da current flavour, barley, it kips u all way til night yet nt wanting 2 slp.. Nt cos its mint content but da amt of glucose inside.. Haha..
So, if u r a gal readin dis entry, so sry if dis had offended u.. So sry abt tt.. Here's a quote I found by James Baldwin:
"People who treat other people as less than human must not be surprised when the bread they have cast on the waters comes floating back to them, poisoned."
During exams, I gt insomnia.. Nt cos I drank coffee, n 4 ur info, I nv drink a single drop of coffee during exam period.. I was kept all while awak by mentos.. Ppl had always tried to kip themselves awak by drinking stronger n stronger coffee.. But now, i'm kept awak by dis, mentos.. -.-" Rrly leh.. I oso dunno wad happen.. During 'O's, I oso ate dis amt of mentos, but oso stil slp as early as b4.. Den now, stil using bac da sam old method, gt insomnia.. Piangz.. Dunno lorz.. But mayb I shld do mentos ranking up here:
Mentos 2 kip u awake wrt ranking:
1. Mentos Barley Mint
2. Mentos Ice Mint
3. Mentos Cool Chews Extra Mint
4. Mentos Cool Chews Cool Mint
5. Mentos Cool Chews Lime Mint
6. Mentos Strong Mint
7. Mentos Mint
8. Mentos Spearmint
9. Mentos Grape
For dos flavours I nv mentioned is cos they r either no effect or I din try dem.. Or mayb u can feedback to me abt som other flavours tt u tried n it kept u awake..
For the nex ranking, it concerns da guys. As u guys noe dere is thing saying abt mentos tt its mint flavours lowers 'tadpoles' count. So I'm here to rank dem as according to me la.. Nt cos I done da 'tadpoles' test, but its rate of lowering is dependent on da amt of mint inside.. So it's gonna b ranked..
Killers of 'tadpoles':
1. Mentos Cool Chews Extra Mint
2. Mentos Strong Mint
3. Mentos Barley Mint/ Ice Mint/ Mint
4. Mentos Cool Chews Cool Mint
5. Mentos Cool Chews Lime Mint
Dese r da killers so far la.. Cos they kip u awak within 2 hrs.. So it's damn hiong.. But for da current flavour, barley, it kips u all way til night yet nt wanting 2 slp.. Nt cos its mint content but da amt of glucose inside.. Haha..
So, if u r a gal readin dis entry, so sry if dis had offended u.. So sry abt tt.. Here's a quote I found by James Baldwin:
"People who treat other people as less than human must not be surprised when the bread they have cast on the waters comes floating back to them, poisoned."
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:55 am