SaMuRaI

[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." [S]amurai Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." -Nietzsche "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." -Frederich N. "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" -Plato "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" -President Roosevelt "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" -Mother Teresa "The fool wonders, the wise asks" -Benjamin Disraeli "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" -Spiderman 3 "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

Saturday, September 24, 2005 *'Long absence's consequences'* 2day I went bac to santa again.. Aft a long period of absence abt 2 wks.. Haha.. Den dis absence of cos incur the wrath of santa la.. Haha.. Den take da phy mock test.. I rank 6th if I'm nt wrong.. Den santa say nt bad.. But I-Z is juz right behind my tail.. Argh.. Santa says I'm da worst of all da first batch of students.. Haiz.. Am I destinated 2 be a failure of all times? I dunno.. Dis wk haf been very terrible.. I've been a sick chicken 4 1 wk.. Haiz.. Wad happen 2 me? A failure again.. But anw, dis wk oso v fruitful la.. Our WR is finally finished n completed!! Yea! Hee.. In fact gt nth 2 say oso.. Juz tt went 2 watch movie again.. Watched "The Longest Yard". It's a film of the convicts wif a burnin desire 2 win.. It let me remind of fighting spirit tt each of us possesses.. It juz tak sth or som incident to ignite the fighting spirit in us.. Yea! ^.^v Well, gt som other things 2 do liao.. Haha.. So it wil juz end here.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:37 pm Saturday, September 17, 2005 *'Relax?'* 2day is a most relaxin n slacking day 4 me.. Gosh.. Den I muz work damn hard le lorz.. Work hard 4 my promos!! Muz get promoted!! Okiez.. Anw, let me recount wad harpen 2day.. Haha.. Let us start frm morning den.. Or shld I add sth frm ytd as well? Haha.. Okiez.. Den lets start frm ytd.. Ytd was pretty fun la.. Da fun part com frm som of the mornin activities, but mostly aft 5.. Haha.. Cos I gg China on las 2 wks of nov ma.. Den we haf 2 raise funds for our trips ma.. Okiez.. Den we decided 2 sell tea eggs n sausages.. Den ytd evening we did tt la.. Cookin da eggs was quite fun la.. Haha.. Da smell was damn nice lorz.. [we re-cookin da eggs again on mon] Den I was sort of da main cook la.. Haha.. So I cooked da eggs, sort of barbequed teh sausages.. Den we sell dem la.. We made a profit of $30.80.. Wad a load at our first selling experience!! Yay!! Den we had to clean up da whole place aft da party or rather da mooncake fest celebration.. Went til abt 1030pm den we finish.. Haha.. Den in da end, I've 2 pang seh my bro 4 a movie.. Haiz.. Den 2day wok up quite early.. Abt 0630am.. Den I juz took my tim n drag den drag til 0730am den I gt out.. Den I realise I was lat.. We promise 2 mit each other at 8 @ Toa Payoh MRT station.. Den wen I gt dere, only mart was dere waitin, n rottin.. Listenin 2 his zen.. Haha.. Den another 1 came, but Jake stil did nt com.. Den we called him, den we found out he 4gt clean of it.. Piangz.. Den nvm, we stil go on, cos he ask us 2.. Lolz.. We gt da stupid HSK exam.. Den we juz went up n tak our exam la.. But I noe it wun b 2 gd de la.. If can get a lv 6 out of teh 8 lvs, muz b contented liao.. Haha.. Den aft tt, we went 2 haf lunch la.. Den I went wif Jak, n one of my the other fren 2 Marina arcade n play Initial D. I spent abt 18 bucks dere.. God! Juz dun believe it lorz.. Den anw, I advanced 2 a new map called Chi Cheng.. A map full of sharp corners, but den was able 2 overcom it gradually over time.. I oso bought a new car 4 my fren, so he owe me 4 bucks due to all da customization tt he wans.. Hehe.. Den no money liao.. So we went driftin.. Den we cam 2 Superbowl.. Den of cos we play bowling la.. Den at bowling, much of my MI memories were triggered.. Dese r som of da memories tt I tink I haf n recalled n generated lots of confused feelings.. During bowling, I found out my skills of bowling did nt fade, stil haf da standard dere.. Haha.. But I found out my usual style of bowling has gone away.. My kneeling down style is gone.. But i juz dunno y but i juz fel tt tse is sitting dere n seein how I bowl.. Lik wad we did wen we pon sch tt day.. Den it was sort of confused la.. I kip wondering y such images kip popin in2 my head.. I wonder y.. Sb pls enlighten me.. Pls dun worry, my love for u wil nv change.. Juz lik wad my blog music says.. "Nothing's gonna change my luv 4 ya.. u alr noe how much I luv u.. " I dunno y dis images pop in2 my memories, mayb it's due to sub consiousness or it's cos I'm sentimental? I dunno.. Den we board da train bac.. Den I was damn sick lorz.. Fever + Flu.. Enuf 2 kill me, but I'm nt dead yet of course.. Haha.. Now stil sick.. Now being crushed down by work.. Haiz.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:50 pm Saturday, September 10, 2005 *'My day..'* 2day played Initial D.. Haha.. Bought Nissan Skyline GTR (BNR32).. God damn it.. So fast n shiok lorz.. For dos ppl playin RX-8 n wanna race me in miao yi, u r gonna get a hell out of me.. 2day tried out yiu shui.. I'm improving bit by bit.. I finally can almost reach finish da race.. Song bo.. Mayb nex tim I wil finish ba.. But nt wif much gd timing.. But I wil try!! Muz dare dare step brake.. Haha.. But I overdo it til I damn slow.. Haha.. Den went 2 sch 2 do tt dunno wad stupid HSK thingy.. So useless lorz.. But I haf 2 attend d test on nex sat (17/9).. So might as well attend it lorz.. Den went 2 do work.. Din accomplish much la.. den went 2 haf lunch den go n play Initial D.. Haha.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:02 pm Wednesday, September 07, 2005 *'Complaints'* I duno wad da hell gonna b lik dis yr.. Dis hol 2 me is total rotting lorz.. Though I say I chiong tutorials, but den I only chiong som, but nt finished or accomplished dem.. All half way completed.. Haiz.. Den now gt som headache lorz.. I oso dun understand wads so hard to organize somethings.. Y cun ppl b more active n haf more initiative in dem 2 actually cooperate wif da organiser.. Piangz.. Lik da badminton thing.. Took lik wad.. 3 days 2 settle until juz now den settle.. Haiz.. Dos in dis cateogry nt sian, I sian liao lorz.. Cun stand it at all.. I rrly cun stand it.. So hard to organise sth, juz lik a simple thing lik badminton can drag n drag.. Drag n drag.. Nt sian meh? Cos u all r nt da 1s organising it.. So u dun feel it.. Cun u guys b more considerate? Nex thing is the most prominient, the rubber timing issue.. I juz dun understand is rubber timin so fun 2 play it? Yes though it's elastic, there is a limit to its elasticity.. It wil snap de.. So cun u all dun play rubber timing? In dis case I gues dere is no limit 2 its elasticity ma.. U all can drag all da way tt each preferred.. But did u guys spare a thought or consideration 2 dos hu arrive juz on d dot? Fancy drag all da way u lik.. I dun c da link.. Rubber timing is considered as being lik wad 10-15 min lat w/o even informing d waiting party.. Some even serious cases drag to an extent of 20 mins! I now is all burdened up wif pressure n everything.. Promos r coming, yet I haven even study 4 it.. My maths, phy, chem, chinese all lik left 2 stand dere alone..My 4As all standin alone in the rain w/o me covering them up.. Nt even takin gd care of dem.. It looks lik me letting dem rot for all I care.. Haiz.. Wad da hell am I doin? Went to donate blood 2day.. Dos nurses dere all jok n nt serious at all.. No showin of unhappiness or any glum faces shown.. We shld follow dem, n nt show any faces 2 others.. But anw, went 2 donate blood ma.. Cos nth 2 do? Mayb..But 2day I had my chinese test lorz.. Quite ok la.. Thanks 2 my chinese tutor la.. Haha.. Last min craming.. Did help a little but nt much la.. Lesson learnt is muz learn b4 hand, den muz b attentive in class la.. Haha.. Cos da qns asked 2day were all asked in da class.. Haha.. But in da end, I can stil say I wun do well 4 da test.. I oso dunno wad 2 say.. But juz wanna say I freakin out soon, may nt break down so soon.. But verysoon.. I nv tell u dis, or mayb wen u read dis, u wil noe.. But I dun wan u to b worried 4 me, so I din tell u.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:57 pm Monday, September 05, 2005 *'Things I found interesting'* 2day went out wif my bro 2 watch movie.. Lolz.. We watched One More Chance.. A pretty gd show, n oso a pretthy realistic story.. No dramatic actions, juz a typical story tt is happenin al ard us, juz tt we may nt noe of it.. But rrly la.. I pity dos ex-convicts.. Haiz.. But wads d most impt lesson learnt? Dun commit crimes la.. N b nice 2 others.. Juz ask hu dun commit crimes or wrongs? 1 statement stil imprint in my mind is "I'm sentenced to 10 years of jail by judge, but society sentenced me to death" I surfed d net n found sth rather interestin.. So I gues I might as well post it here: HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL: 1. The guy will try to make you laugh. 2. He'll flirt with you when he can. 3. He might try to show off around you. 4. He'll help you out, if you ask for it. 5. He'll stick up for you when you need it most. 6. He'll be friendly to you and all your friends. 7. He might call you for no reason. 8. He might make fun of you, in a joking way. 9. He'll tell you that you did good, even if you did horrible. 10. He'll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face. HOW TO TELL IF A GIRL LIKES A GUY: 1. The girl will laugh at all your jokes. 2. She'll stare at you with a smile on her face. 3. She'll ask you who you like, continuously. 4. She might try to make you jealous. 5. She'll beg that you do everything for her. 6. She might start talking to your friends. 7. She'll talk to you about different varieties of guys. 8. She'll always seem to be talking about how nice you are. 9. She'll always be flirting with every other guy except you. 10. She'll always ask what to do in a bad situation ATTITUDE TOWARDS LOVE: 1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house.There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but very boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderfulsights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your significant other's house, shortor long? The road represents your attitude towards falling in love. Short road--you fall in love quickly and easily. Long road--you take your time and do not fall in love easily. On the way you see two rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend of any one color or two color combination. What number of white and/or red do you pick? The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have the family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do? This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. Like to get the person yourself--you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately. Asked the family member to get your significant other--you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed? The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Roses on the bed--you like to see him/her a lot. Roses by the windowsill--you are alright with not seeing him/her much. Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up, you go into his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, do you prefer him/her to be awake or asleep? This represents your attitude towards his/herpersonality. Prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the way s/he is. Prefer the person to be awake--you expect theperson tochange for you. Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain or more interesting road? The road to home tells how long you stay in lovewith someone. Longer road--you will tend to stay inlove for a long time. Short road--you fall out of love easily. I dunno abt this.. Mayb u can try it out? Or notice dis ard ur frens.. Lolz.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 6:54 pm Sunday, September 04, 2005 *'U tell me..'* Damn sian lorz.. A new wk is beginning n it all implies tt I gt a new load of work 2 do.. Promos r gettin nearer.. Gettin more n more scared.. I oso dunno y lorz.. Everytim gt major exam I sure screw 1.. Gues I muz train myself 2 go under stress training.. This means tt I muz get speed n accuracy under time pressure.. Haiz.. Can sb teach me how 2 get tt? Haiz.. Ytd gt a god damn f-ing bombing.. Cos me n my bro gt a hug quarrel.. Den I'm so god damn stressed up le lorz.. Den haf 2 patch up under continuous forcing frm parents.. Kaoz.. Dun lik a bit.. It's makin me damn mad.. Wad 4 patch up? Isn't beta dis way? Juz kip daoing.. U dun tok I dun tok.. Den no quarrels wil b triggered wad.. Correct? But anw ytd was my mum's b-dae.. Cldn't care much anw.. 2day gt barred frm gg out.. Y? Cos me showin attitude.. I damn buay song wad.. Force me 2 patch up.. In d end, I haf 2 wash n clean crabs 4 lunch.. So in da end, juz stayed at hm n download musics lorz.. Haiz.. Juz dun understan lorz.. I wanna shout out loud, but no place 2 shout.. Wanna tok 2 her abt my probs, I dun dare.. Cos I dun wan her 2 noe n let her worry ba.. Haiz.. Rrly dunno wad 2 say.. My GP private tutor ask me a qn: "Where u plan 2 go during dis hol?" Me reply: "Gg to a city of tutorials. Buildings n buildings of it" My GP tutor: "Den u muz mak gd use of dis wk. Work hard. Get a B4 for GP k?" Ppl haf high expectation of me.. I juz dunno y.. Does my face tel u I can do wel? Y ppl always wan 2 haf high hopes on me? I dun understand.. My face gt tt msg sayin "I can do well" mah? Haiz.. Teachers all say I gt gr8 potential within me, so by pinning high hopes on me is ok.. Cos dey noe I wun let dem now.. But actual fact is I wil.. Y ppl wld rather b blinded 2 d truth by their own belief? Haiz.. How many ppl haf I let down? I haf underperformed many times.. My sub tutors, santa.. A lot more.. Haiz.. Am I a born failure? I sometimes wish I can analyse myself.. I wld rrly wan 2 noe wad am I born 4.. Wad purpose am I here or achievements I wil achieve? Can sb tell me? Ppl tel me nt 2 think so much, but den y r ppl expectin much frm me? U c da link? I cun noe tt much, yet ppl r expectin much frm me.. Am I born 2 b a slave 4 others? Wad kind of life am I living? Living 4 myself or 4 others? Sb pls answer me.. Haiz.. So wad kind of days am I gg to live? I'm gonna break down soon.. Wld u always b dere 2 support me? Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:15 pm Saturday, September 03, 2005 *'Wadeva..'* Long time no see me in my blog since last entry.. Dis is my first september entry? Haha.. I've been lik tryin 2 squeeze time out to study? Haha.. Project work is still manageable n my group is coping well.. 2 days ago is Teachers' day rite? Haha.. I went back 2 my sec sch.. I went back to my sec sch, but dos teachers I lik all haf been transferred.. Only left wif dos I nt rrly lik.. But afterall, they r still ur teachers wad.. So might as well visit dem, den act u r showing gratitude 2 them.. Haha.. Juz finish my I&R.. Haha.. But dun even noe if I did it d rite way a nt.. I've sent it over 2 my tutor's mail box.. Hope she can correct my error.. Hehe.. Well, it's morning.. Haha.. No nid slp alr.. Haha.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 2:40 am

Saturday, September 24, 2005

'Long absence's consequences'

2day I went bac to santa again.. Aft a long period of absence abt 2 wks.. Haha.. Den dis absence of cos incur the wrath of santa la.. Haha.. Den take da phy mock test.. I rank 6th if I'm nt wrong.. Den santa say nt bad.. But I-Z is juz right behind my tail.. Argh.. Santa says I'm da worst of all da first batch of students.. Haiz.. Am I destinated 2 be a failure of all times? I dunno..

Dis wk haf been very terrible.. I've been a sick chicken 4 1 wk.. Haiz.. Wad happen 2 me? A failure again.. But anw, dis wk oso v fruitful la.. Our WR is finally finished n completed!! Yea! Hee.. In fact gt nth 2 say oso.. Juz tt went 2 watch movie again.. Watched "The Longest Yard". It's a film of the convicts wif a burnin desire 2 win.. It let me remind of fighting spirit tt each of us possesses.. It juz tak sth or som incident to ignite the fighting spirit in us.. Yea! ^.^v

Well, gt som other things 2 do liao.. Haha.. So it wil juz end here..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:37 pm

Saturday, September 17, 2005

'Relax?'

2day is a most relaxin n slacking day 4 me.. Gosh.. Den I muz work damn hard le lorz.. Work hard 4 my promos!! Muz get promoted!! Okiez.. Anw, let me recount wad harpen 2day.. Haha.. Let us start frm morning den.. Or shld I add sth frm ytd as well? Haha.. Okiez.. Den lets start frm ytd..

Ytd was pretty fun la.. Da fun part com frm som of the mornin activities, but mostly aft 5.. Haha.. Cos I gg China on las 2 wks of nov ma.. Den we haf 2 raise funds for our trips ma.. Okiez.. Den we decided 2 sell tea eggs n sausages.. Den ytd evening we did tt la.. Cookin da eggs was quite fun la.. Haha.. Da smell was damn nice lorz.. [we re-cookin da eggs again on mon] Den I was sort of da main cook la.. Haha.. So I cooked da eggs, sort of barbequed teh sausages.. Den we sell dem la.. We made a profit of $30.80.. Wad a load at our first selling experience!! Yay!! Den we had to clean up da whole place aft da party or rather da mooncake fest celebration.. Went til abt 1030pm den we finish.. Haha.. Den in da end, I've 2 pang seh my bro 4 a movie.. Haiz..

Den 2day wok up quite early.. Abt 0630am.. Den I juz took my tim n drag den drag til 0730am den I gt out.. Den I realise I was lat.. We promise 2 mit each other at 8 @ Toa Payoh MRT station.. Den wen I gt dere, only mart was dere waitin, n rottin.. Listenin 2 his zen.. Haha.. Den another 1 came, but Jake stil did nt com.. Den we called him, den we found out he 4gt clean of it.. Piangz.. Den nvm, we stil go on, cos he ask us 2.. Lolz.. We gt da stupid HSK exam.. Den we juz went up n tak our exam la.. But I noe it wun b 2 gd de la.. If can get a lv 6 out of teh 8 lvs, muz b contented liao.. Haha.. Den aft tt, we went 2 haf lunch la..

Den I went wif Jak, n one of my the other fren 2 Marina arcade n play Initial D. I spent abt 18 bucks dere.. God! Juz dun believe it lorz.. Den anw, I advanced 2 a new map called Chi Cheng.. A map full of sharp corners, but den was able 2 overcom it gradually over time.. I oso bought a new car 4 my fren, so he owe me 4 bucks due to all da customization tt he wans.. Hehe.. Den no money liao.. So we went driftin.. Den we cam 2 Superbowl.. Den of cos we play bowling la.. Den at bowling, much of my MI memories were triggered.. Dese r som of da memories tt I tink I haf n recalled n generated lots of confused feelings..

During bowling, I found out my skills of bowling did nt fade, stil haf da standard dere.. Haha.. But I found out my usual style of bowling has gone away.. My kneeling down style is gone.. But i juz dunno y but i juz fel tt tse is sitting dere n seein how I bowl.. Lik wad we did wen we pon sch tt day.. Den it was sort of confused la.. I kip wondering y such images kip popin in2 my head.. I wonder y.. Sb pls enlighten me.. Pls dun worry, my love for u wil nv change.. Juz lik wad my blog music says.. "Nothing's gonna change my luv 4 ya.. u alr noe how much I luv u.. " I dunno y dis images pop in2 my memories, mayb it's due to sub consiousness or it's cos I'm sentimental? I dunno..

Den we board da train bac.. Den I was damn sick lorz.. Fever + Flu.. Enuf 2 kill me, but I'm nt dead yet of course.. Haha.. Now stil sick.. Now being crushed down by work.. Haiz..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:50 pm

Saturday, September 10, 2005

'My day..'

2day played Initial D.. Haha.. Bought Nissan Skyline GTR (BNR32).. God damn it.. So fast n shiok lorz.. For dos ppl playin RX-8 n wanna race me in miao yi, u r gonna get a hell out of me.. 2day tried out yiu shui.. I'm improving bit by bit.. I finally can almost reach finish da race.. Song bo.. Mayb nex tim I wil finish ba.. But nt wif much gd timing.. But I wil try!! Muz dare dare step brake.. Haha.. But I overdo it til I damn slow.. Haha..

Den went 2 sch 2 do tt dunno wad stupid HSK thingy.. So useless lorz.. But I haf 2 attend d test on nex sat (17/9).. So might as well attend it lorz.. Den went 2 do work.. Din accomplish much la.. den went 2 haf lunch den go n play Initial D.. Haha..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:02 pm

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

'Complaints'

I duno wad da hell gonna b lik dis yr.. Dis hol 2 me is total rotting lorz.. Though I say I chiong tutorials, but den I only chiong som, but nt finished or accomplished dem.. All half way completed.. Haiz.. Den now gt som headache lorz..

I oso dun understand wads so hard to organize somethings.. Y cun ppl b more active n haf more initiative in dem 2 actually cooperate wif da organiser.. Piangz.. Lik da badminton thing.. Took lik wad.. 3 days 2 settle until juz now den settle.. Haiz.. Dos in dis cateogry nt sian, I sian liao lorz.. Cun stand it at all.. I rrly cun stand it.. So hard to organise sth, juz lik a simple thing lik badminton can drag n drag.. Drag n drag.. Nt sian meh? Cos u all r nt da 1s organising it.. So u dun feel it.. Cun u guys b more considerate?

Nex thing is the most prominient, the rubber timing issue.. I juz dun understand is rubber timin so fun 2 play it? Yes though it's elastic, there is a limit to its elasticity.. It wil snap de.. So cun u all dun play rubber timing? In dis case I gues dere is no limit 2 its elasticity ma.. U all can drag all da way tt each preferred.. But did u guys spare a thought or consideration 2 dos hu arrive juz on d dot? Fancy drag all da way u lik.. I dun c da link.. Rubber timing is considered as being lik wad 10-15 min lat w/o even informing d waiting party.. Some even serious cases drag to an extent of 20 mins!

I now is all burdened up wif pressure n everything.. Promos r coming, yet I haven even study 4 it.. My maths, phy, chem, chinese all lik left 2 stand dere alone..My 4As all standin alone in the rain w/o me covering them up.. Nt even takin gd care of dem.. It looks lik me letting dem rot for all I care.. Haiz.. Wad da hell am I doin?

Went to donate blood 2day.. Dos nurses dere all jok n nt serious at all.. No showin of unhappiness or any glum faces shown.. We shld follow dem, n nt show any faces 2 others.. But anw, went 2 donate blood ma.. Cos nth 2 do? Mayb..But 2day I had my chinese test lorz.. Quite ok la.. Thanks 2 my chinese tutor la.. Haha.. Last min craming.. Did help a little but nt much la.. Lesson learnt is muz learn b4 hand, den muz b attentive in class la.. Haha.. Cos da qns asked 2day were all asked in da class.. Haha.. But in da end, I can stil say I wun do well 4 da test..

I oso dunno wad 2 say.. But juz wanna say I freakin out soon, may nt break down so soon.. But verysoon.. I nv tell u dis, or mayb wen u read dis, u wil noe.. But I dun wan u to b worried 4 me, so I din tell u..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:57 pm

Monday, September 05, 2005

'Things I found interesting'

2day went out wif my bro 2 watch movie.. Lolz.. We watched One More Chance.. A pretty gd show, n oso a pretthy realistic story.. No dramatic actions, juz a typical story tt is happenin al ard us, juz tt we may nt noe of it.. But rrly la.. I pity dos ex-convicts.. Haiz.. But wads d most impt lesson learnt? Dun commit crimes la.. N b nice 2 others.. Juz ask hu dun commit crimes or wrongs? 1 statement stil imprint in my mind is "I'm sentenced to 10 years of jail by judge, but society sentenced me to death"

I surfed d net n found sth rather interestin.. So I gues I might as well post it here:

HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL:
1. The guy will try to make you laugh.
2. He'll flirt with you when he can.
3. He might try to show off around you.
4. He'll help you out, if you ask for it.
5. He'll stick up for you when you need it most.
6. He'll be friendly to you and all your friends.
7. He might call you for no reason.
8. He might make fun of you, in a joking way.
9. He'll tell you that you did good, even if you did horrible.
10. He'll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face.

HOW TO TELL IF A GIRL LIKES A GUY:
1. The girl will laugh at all your jokes.
2. She'll stare at you with a smile on her face.
3. She'll ask you who you like, continuously.
4. She might try to make you jealous.
5. She'll beg that you do everything for her.
6. She might start talking to your friends.
7. She'll talk to you about different varieties of guys.
8. She'll always seem to be talking about how nice you are.
9. She'll always be flirting with every other guy except you.
10. She'll always ask what to do in a bad situation

ATTITUDE TOWARDS LOVE:
1. You are walking to your boy/girlfriend's house.There are two roads to get there. One is a straight path to take you there quickly, but very boring. The other is significantly longer but is full of wonderfulsights and interesting things. Which one do you take to get to your significant other's house, shortor long?

The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.
Short road--you fall in love quickly and easily.
Long road--you take your time and do not fall in love easily.

On the way you see two rose bushes. One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend of any one color or two color combination. What number of white and/or red do you pick?

The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return.

You finally get to their house. A family member answers the door. You can have the family member get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do?

This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems.
Like to get the person yourself--you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.
Asked the family member to get your significant other--you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves.

You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?

The placement of the roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend.
Roses on the bed--you like to see him/her a lot.
Roses by the windowsill--you are alright with not seeing him/her much.

Later, it's time for bed. You and your boy/girlfriend sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up, you go into his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, do you prefer him/her to be awake or asleep?

This represents your attitude towards his/herpersonality.
Prefer the person to be asleep--you love the person as the way s/he is.
Prefer the person to be awake--you expect theperson tochange for you.

Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain or more interesting road?

The road to home tells how long you stay in lovewith someone.
Longer road--you will tend to stay inlove for a long time.
Short road--you fall out of love easily.

I dunno abt this.. Mayb u can try it out? Or notice dis ard ur frens.. Lolz..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 6:54 pm

Sunday, September 04, 2005

'U tell me..'

Damn sian lorz.. A new wk is beginning n it all implies tt I gt a new load of work 2 do.. Promos r gettin nearer.. Gettin more n more scared.. I oso dunno y lorz.. Everytim gt major exam I sure screw 1.. Gues I muz train myself 2 go under stress training.. This means tt I muz get speed n accuracy under time pressure.. Haiz.. Can sb teach me how 2 get tt? Haiz..

Ytd gt a god damn f-ing bombing.. Cos me n my bro gt a hug quarrel.. Den I'm so god damn stressed up le lorz.. Den haf 2 patch up under continuous forcing frm parents.. Kaoz.. Dun lik a bit.. It's makin me damn mad.. Wad 4 patch up? Isn't beta dis way? Juz kip daoing.. U dun tok I dun tok.. Den no quarrels wil b triggered wad.. Correct? But anw ytd was my mum's b-dae.. Cldn't care much anw..

2day gt barred frm gg out.. Y? Cos me showin attitude.. I damn buay song wad.. Force me 2 patch up.. In d end, I haf 2 wash n clean crabs 4 lunch.. So in da end, juz stayed at hm n download musics lorz.. Haiz.. Juz dun understan lorz.. I wanna shout out loud, but no place 2 shout.. Wanna tok 2 her abt my probs, I dun dare.. Cos I dun wan her 2 noe n let her worry ba.. Haiz.. Rrly dunno wad 2 say..

My GP private tutor ask me a qn: "Where u plan 2 go during dis hol?"
Me reply: "Gg to a city of tutorials. Buildings n buildings of it"
My GP tutor: "Den u muz mak gd use of dis wk. Work hard. Get a B4 for GP k?"
Ppl haf high expectation of me.. I juz dunno y.. Does my face tel u I can do wel? Y ppl always wan 2 haf high hopes on me? I dun understand.. My face gt tt msg sayin "I can do well" mah? Haiz.. Teachers all say I gt gr8 potential within me, so by pinning high hopes on me is ok.. Cos dey noe I wun let dem now.. But actual fact is I wil.. Y ppl wld rather b blinded 2 d truth by their own belief? Haiz.. How many ppl haf I let down? I haf underperformed many times.. My sub tutors, santa.. A lot more.. Haiz.. Am I a born failure?

I sometimes wish I can analyse myself.. I wld rrly wan 2 noe wad am I born 4.. Wad purpose am I here or achievements I wil achieve? Can sb tell me? Ppl tel me nt 2 think so much, but den y r ppl expectin much frm me? U c da link? I cun noe tt much, yet ppl r expectin much frm me.. Am I born 2 b a slave 4 others? Wad kind of life am I living? Living 4 myself or 4 others? Sb pls answer me..

Haiz.. So wad kind of days am I gg to live? I'm gonna break down soon.. Wld u always b dere 2 support me?

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:15 pm

Saturday, September 03, 2005

'Wadeva..'

Long time no see me in my blog since last entry.. Dis is my first september entry? Haha.. I've been lik tryin 2 squeeze time out to study? Haha.. Project work is still manageable n my group is coping well.. 2 days ago is Teachers' day rite? Haha.. I went back 2 my sec sch..

I went back to my sec sch, but dos teachers I lik all haf been transferred.. Only left wif dos I nt rrly lik.. But afterall, they r still ur teachers wad.. So might as well visit dem, den act u r showing gratitude 2 them.. Haha..

Juz finish my I&R.. Haha.. But dun even noe if I did it d rite way a nt.. I've sent it over 2 my tutor's mail box.. Hope she can correct my error.. Hehe.. Well, it's morning.. Haha.. No nid slp alr.. Haha..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 2:40 am