SaMuRaI

[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." [S]amurai Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." -Nietzsche "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." -Frederich N. "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" -Plato "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" -President Roosevelt "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" -Mother Teresa "The fool wonders, the wise asks" -Benjamin Disraeli "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" -Spiderman 3 "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

Wednesday, June 27, 2007 *'Class Gathering + Pre-Course Thots'* It's ben a long tim since I updated my blog.. Haha.. Was awy 4 quite somtim cz pay is in my hand, n I went round spending it.. Nw is no money again.. Haha.. So I turn 2 blogging.. Lolz.. So I ues I wil jz pck up frm where I drop? Bt I duno where I drop oso.. Haha.. Cz it's fre.. Lolz.. Okiez, let me tok at da clas gathering on da 16/6/2007.. It wasn't rrly som big event, it was jz a normal gathering, wif les den I tink 10 ppl.. So shld it stil b termed as a class gathering? Out of a class of near 25.. So hw? We jz sort of tok cock a lotla.. 4 guys, jz all abt da NS stufs, hw dey tio tekan, or hw slac is deir BMT.. Den me is da mst "lao jiao" of BMT, so jz chip in n tok a bit oso.. t da longer I tok, I fel mor awkward.. Cz dere r gals dere, n mst do not understand wad da hell we r al tokin abt unles dey haf close male frens 2 share wif dem.. I duno la.. Jz fel damn awkward.. Cz I've read mst blogs on gatherings wif NS guys.. One thing tt nvr run away is da Army Days in Tekong.. Dis is da topic tt "sians" others as well.. Esp gals.. Den we proceed 2 haf our diner at da wanton noodle stall.. Acty gt nth special lorz, jz dun understand y muz charge til lik $4 a plate.. It's quite f-ing ex lorz.. Den after tt, we go 2 play pool.. Den while poolng, I went 2 transfer som data.. Den after tt, I went 2 play pool.. I gt "clear table" abt three times in a row.. Mayb I was too tired tt day.. Cz I c da trend as mor disadvantaged I am, da beta I fare.. Haha.. Den I pity da team hu were against me at tt tim.. I dun mean 2 b so ruthless.. Bt it's within my ability 2 clear da ball, so I clr it.. Bt it was a gd gam anw.. However, I stil cldnt win another person.. Bt I learn a lot frm him.. It was mor of a pool trng session 4 me.. So my pooling skills mayb is som where near my cousin's? I duno, cz he's da Pool Club Captain.. Haha.. His skills is geting sharper n sharper each day.. Lolz.. We played pool abt 3hrs.. It's stil short 2 me lorz.. 2 short manz.. Haha.. After pooling, we plan 2 go 2 da beancurd or soya bean drink shop.. 4gt wada hel is it.. Jz went dere n gostan bac.. Mak my fet damn shag.. Haha.. Den we went 2 TCC.. We ordered som deserts n coffee.. I ordered a Vanilla Moncha.. It was stated as "All Time Favourite".. Bt I tink it sux.. Wif da addition of da vanilla ice-cream, it jz mak da moncha 2 lose it's strong n unique coffee taste.. Den we jz sit down dere n tok cock.. Den I help my fren 2 mod his psp 2 a higher version.. Den tok som foto.. As usu I look damn frek in it.. Den it began 2 pour.. Out of a sudden, n we wer caght off gard.. Den as we wer bz sorting out hu's wif hu 4 da umbrella, I jz arranged dem.. Den I left 2 wif ubrella 4 demselves.. Cz I was 2 big-sized, n if I wer 2 go in, I wld b makin dem drenched as well.. So wen each pair is settled, I send out pair by pair.. Til I'm da last man behind.. Haha.. Den I jz walked in da rain.. Side by side wif others.. While ppl lok at me y m I strolling n t runing despite da shortage of umbrella.. Haha.. Well, cz I was wanting 2 b drenched, walking in da rain is my all time favourite.. I jz want da feling of rain hitting on my face, 2 clr da head.. N it was fun.. I sort wans 2 mak sure tt da gals in da gathering is nt drenched.. So I jz gaf up umbrellas 2 dem, cz gals once wet wld CK.. Embarrasing 4 dem as well.. Haha.. So jz mak sure dey r nt wet.. Den we jz half walk half run.. While I stroll much of da way.. Haha.. Da felin is quite nice anw.. So enjoy da walk in da rain.. Bt only if da walk cld b me wif her.. Haha.. It wld b heaven manz.. Haha.. I was all wet wen I went in2 da station.. It was cold, bt I lik da cold feling.. Cz it has been a long tim since I go 2 a cold country.. Bt ppl ard al shot strange glances at me.. Wad's wrong wif a wet person, worth lokin at meh? Den dey kip askin if I nid tissue or nt, bt I jz kip refusing.. Jz so sry if I declined ur kind offer.. It supposedly ended well 4 him, cz I at lest gt 2 do sth tt I lik.. Haha.. It was a gd day 4 me da lest.. Haha.. Basically 4 da last last wk.. Haha.. Nth much acty.. Den abt da las wk, I jz cldnt recal wad I did las wk.. Bt basically it was pure rotting.. N I jz rmb I went pooling.. Den spend lots of money 2 buy 2 bags n becomina Zinc member.. Bt da card is supposed 2 due nxt wk wen I'm on course.. Haha.. So jz wait lorz.. N I jz cldnt recall much le.. Den dis wk is da las slack wk tt I cn haf b4 my course starts.. Cz once da course starts, dun tink I gt tim 2 blog.. Or even haf da mental strength 2 blog.. Haiz.. Jz perservere on.. A samurai is't born strong, bt muz b trained 2 strong.. Den ytd I shifted my bunk frm 1 end of da building 2 another end.. Den I gt da best spot of da bunk.. Lolz.. It's da best position.. Beta den da 1 I used 2 haf b4 I shifted.. Haha.. Pity tt da course is gg 2 start soon.. Nt gg 2 haf much tim 2 enjoy it.. Haha.. Abt da random entry on life, I gues it's one of da mst meaningful stuf I ever wrote.. So did u appreciate it? Lolz.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:28 pm Sunday, June 10, 2007 *'Strange Random'* Dis wek quite a bit sianz.. Bt den every wk has always ben dis way isn't it? My full engineer course is comin in 2nd July.. Heard my instructor is da mst xiong among al others instructors.. A hearsay tt he wil mak dos hu fail SOC 2 run until he see his great grandma or great grandpa dere waving at da SOC runner.. Tink by tt tim is sure die n gone case.. Jz pray hard I wil b able 2 pas my course smoothly n peacefully.. Haha.. I oso duno wad 2 say or do oso.. Bt mayb jz blog lorz.. Haha.. I duno wad 2 say oso.. Bt den tinking abt it, I fel haven rrly gt hold of any grip of myself.. I've been lazing ard, dragging my tim, jz hoping tt my tim wil com, n I wil do wad I m supposed 2 do.. Bt den tinking abt it, wldnt I b a walking corpse? Den I wld b a damn perso 2 walk on dis earth.. Bt hu gifs a damn abt me walking on Earth.. Recently, I gues I gues woke up a bit alr.. I did my passing of tim reading n doin som of my uni course.. Bt den again, I've gt 2 firm my Physics base cz afterall my course is Physics-based.. Haha.. Nw my hearing gt problem.. Haiz.. Duno wad 2 do oso.. If I rrly go n see da Medical Officer, I wld b deemd as CK.. Buden if I duno go, wad hapens if sth rrly hapens cz of my hearing problem? Haiz.. Jz wonder if hearing problem is rrly dere, wld I b downgraded? Haha.. Life's a gift as others say.. Life's something we should treasure.. Life's love and care for others.. Life's about doing things you wish to accomplish.. Life's about meaningful stuffs you do for those around you.. Life's about helping others and yourself.. Life's about hardship and determination.. Here's the catch.. Life's in your hand.. You are the master of your own style of life.. You are the captian of your own ship of life.. You are solely responsible for each and every of your decisions.. You are to bear with the full consequences.. Should you be crossing rough seas of difficulty, blame not others but yourself.. You choose it and travel to it.. For those who wasted their life over small things.. It's high time to wake up now.. Do not dwell on the past.. For it's history and it will never be reversed.. Your job is not to let the bad history repeat.. Your job is to learn from the past and avoid the wrongs.. Your job is also to allow the repetition of good history.. You should be forward looking with the history as stepping stones.. Live your life to the fullest. Waste not a second in dwelling the past.. For it will never be rewritten or reversed back in time.. So treasure every second and minute of it.. Make it to be a legend.. A legend of famous tales.. Not a list of notorious things.. You would want glory.. Do it from a way where you would be respected by others.. And not hated by others.. These few weeks som of da entry wil seems strange n like no link 2 any of the posts, n sumtims within da posts' sentences itself.. It doesnt make any sense oso.. So jz read n dun care abt it.. Da link may com in a few posts.. Jz lik a puzzle.. Jz tt even its own creator doesn't now hw the end picture would be looking like.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:00 pm Sunday, June 03, 2007 *'Reflection Week'* Well, I duno bt den thru out dese few days of rest n som reflection.. So dis wk is rather a reflection n thinking wk.. It was nt so much of an enjoyment week.. As in I din go out a lot, bt I did went out, bt it was jz pure walking ard n reflecting upon sth.. As in where did I roam? It's more of sub-urban area.. I den found out sth.. Gonna share 1 of da things I discovered abt myself.. I surprsingly find out tt I acty gt a mood indicator.. So here it goes.. The mood indicator is split in2 3 components.. The 3 components are eating style, spending money, n of cz face color la.. And each of these components stand alone.. N r independent variables.. Haha.. Bt dis is indeed true.. So here it goes.. Eating Style Angry: Eat a lot, and dun care if the food is nice, and spend around $10 to $15 at one shot Sad: Eat damn little, or dun eat at all Stressed: Eat a lot, bt eat over a long span of time and money.. Ard whole day, jz kip eating.. Happy: Eat a lot, bt do mind a lot if da food is nice.. So if the food sux, wil turn to other places n find Spending Style Angry: Spend a lot at one shot.. Range frm $50 to $120 Sad: Go home str.. Wun b spending any money.. Cz no mood.. Stressed: Spend a lot at one shot.. Bt mostly r dvds frm 1 shop.. Range frm $100 to $150 per shop I go Happy: Go hm n play com le lorz.. Face Color Angry: All damn black.. Nt a single trace of smile Sad: Expressionless Stressed: Black bt wif little trace of smile Happy: Happy la.. Ah bo black meh? Bt den abof all, dis is jz sharing info.. Bt generally, b4 gg out wif anybody, I wld jz gently remind da person wad mood m I in 2day.. Den reference to da color of my face.. So tt da perso wldnt gt a shock wen he or she sees me.. Bt dere r times wen I dun tel.. Cz usu is no mood 2 tel, or u r quite familiar wif me, n I tink u shld noe wad mood m I in wen u c my color.. I finally jz tink of sth.. Bt I jz duno y.. I jz gt mood swings.. N it is said 2 b a characteristic of a female.. Bt den I ask ard, al da female frens I noe if dey spend dis much.. Dey say only go shoping ard, bt mstly jz window shoping.. Bt none spend as much as me.. Somor 4 me, da relapse is lik fortnightly.. Sumtimes twice in a wk.. Haiz.. Jz v confused over it.. Bt I tink I muz learn 2 control it well, n muster it wel.. Mayb it's high tim tt me shld go refine n understand da true meaning of being a Samurai.. Bt den I wil try even harder 2 master da art of da sword n mst importantly, da way of da Dark Samurai.. It has slumped down n I wan 2 pick it up again.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:54 pm Friday, June 01, 2007 *'Random - Love / Relationship'* It's gg 2 b a pure random tim entry again.. No targeting or wadsoeva.. If u tink u r being featured in dis blog, den congrats.. Congrats 4 wad, I duno.. Loving somebody isn't that hard.. Reciprocating love isn't hard at all.. But why is falling in love so god damn hard? The answer lies within the individual themselves.. Having one side caring too much, To another side, it seems authoritative.. Then it will result in quarrels.. Even over the death of an ant.. However, if one side is too easy going. To another side, it seems too insecure.. This would result is mistrust.. Eventually to break up.. But it will not be one of those big timed quarrels.. Another type is a sedimental type.. Not the relationship itself.. But it's the parties involved in it.. This is what I termed as "Invisible Triangle Love" One of the party can't put down his or her ex-lover.. Sometimes he or she would still keep in contact with each other.. Message each other frequently.. As if both are still in a relationship.. But the fact is both of them are not in it.. They are already in each of their seperate world and way.. What's worse is that such thing happen during a new courtship.. While wooing or dating a new partner.. He or she still message to each other (ex-lover).. Is this a way to happen in love or relationship? The fact is love or relationship is selfish by nature.. Each and everyone wants to keep each other by their side.. They would go to great lengths to keep each other.. Some address each other by sweet terms.. Others wear couple thingy.. While some would make vows and promises to eah other.. However, most of time, these vows and promises are broken.. Isn't this clear that love itself is selfish? Though it is not wrong to love somebody.. But it doesn't give you the authority to control the other party.. Do it like flying kite.. Let go and hold it at appropriate time.. If not, conflicts would occur.. And then the string will break.. Break ups.. What hurts the party is the emotional part.. Rather than the physical.. The memories you made in each other.. Regardless of what mood is it.. Afterall, it's da foot steps that both of you left in each other.. It can't be erased.. As it will take a long time.. Depending on the sedimental value of the memory.. Or how cold is the person after break up.. Usually time would heal and erase and cuts and bruises, tracks of memories as well.. People often ask what is love.. They often say just go into a relationship and answer is there.. However, I prefer another saying.. Love is dependent on all kinds of factors.. Sometimes, the factors seem so negligible yet they play a significant role.. Love is sweet at first.. Bitter in the middle.. Everlasting sweetness at the end.. People usually give up at the bitter stage.. As it's too much too be taken by them.. What is love? A variety of answers.. Exact answers? One has to find out oneself.. Seperation and patching up.. A frequent happening in a relationship.. Happiness and sadness.. Part and parcel of relations.. Passing through the bustling place the sorrow and joy To be disconsolate and to be with you to roams about intimately Roaming through a wild green hill and mountain tops Having your dream to accompany the flower fragrance I'm soaring this life because your devoted love equilvalent to the world unparalleled Shadow of the sword is just a passing over the water This life is perfect because your devoted love equilvalent to the world unparalleled... If you also had intimately roam about It's difficult to forget the appearance even if it changes drastically.. It will only be forget with difficulty... *[Adapted from Condor Heroes]* As one can see.. Love isn't that hard.. If both parties are devoted to each other.. It will result in pleasant memories.. Even if it isn't any famous place.. So long as one remains devoted to each other.. Even down the years of the road.. The love will still be as fresh as it was of the first time when both are together.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:12 am

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

'Class Gathering + Pre-Course Thots'

It's ben a long tim since I updated my blog.. Haha.. Was awy 4 quite somtim cz pay is in my hand, n I went round spending it.. Nw is no money again.. Haha.. So I turn 2 blogging.. Lolz.. So I ues I wil jz pck up frm where I drop? Bt I duno where I drop oso.. Haha.. Cz it's fre.. Lolz..

Okiez, let me tok at da clas gathering on da 16/6/2007.. It wasn't rrly som big event, it was jz a normal gathering, wif les den I tink 10 ppl.. So shld it stil b termed as a class gathering? Out of a class of near 25.. So hw? We jz sort of tok cock a lotla.. 4 guys, jz all abt da NS stufs, hw dey tio tekan, or hw slac is deir BMT.. Den me is da mst "lao jiao" of BMT, so jz chip in n tok a bit oso.. t da longer I tok, I fel mor awkward.. Cz dere r gals dere, n mst do not understand wad da hell we r al tokin abt unles dey haf close male frens 2 share wif dem.. I duno la.. Jz fel damn awkward.. Cz I've read mst blogs on gatherings wif NS guys.. One thing tt nvr run away is da Army Days in Tekong.. Dis is da topic tt "sians" others as well.. Esp gals.. Den we proceed 2 haf our diner at da wanton noodle stall.. Acty gt nth special lorz, jz dun understand y muz charge til lik $4 a plate.. It's quite f-ing ex lorz.. Den after tt, we go 2 play pool..

Den while poolng, I went 2 transfer som data.. Den after tt, I went 2 play pool.. I gt "clear table" abt three times in a row.. Mayb I was too tired tt day.. Cz I c da trend as mor disadvantaged I am, da beta I fare.. Haha.. Den I pity da team hu were against me at tt tim.. I dun mean 2 b so ruthless.. Bt it's within my ability 2 clear da ball, so I clr it.. Bt it was a gd gam anw.. However, I stil cldnt win another person.. Bt I learn a lot frm him.. It was mor of a pool trng session 4 me.. So my pooling skills mayb is som where near my cousin's? I duno, cz he's da Pool Club Captain.. Haha.. His skills is geting sharper n sharper each day.. Lolz.. We played pool abt 3hrs.. It's stil short 2 me lorz.. 2 short manz.. Haha..

After pooling, we plan 2 go 2 da beancurd or soya bean drink shop.. 4gt wada hel is it.. Jz went dere n gostan bac.. Mak my fet damn shag.. Haha.. Den we went 2 TCC.. We ordered som deserts n coffee.. I ordered a Vanilla Moncha.. It was stated as "All Time Favourite".. Bt I tink it sux.. Wif da addition of da vanilla ice-cream, it jz mak da moncha 2 lose it's strong n unique coffee taste.. Den we jz sit down dere n tok cock.. Den I help my fren 2 mod his psp 2 a higher version.. Den tok som foto.. As usu I look damn frek in it..

Den it began 2 pour.. Out of a sudden, n we wer caght off gard.. Den as we wer bz sorting out hu's wif hu 4 da umbrella, I jz arranged dem.. Den I left 2 wif ubrella 4 demselves.. Cz I was 2 big-sized, n if I wer 2 go in, I wld b makin dem drenched as well.. So wen each pair is settled, I send out pair by pair.. Til I'm da last man behind.. Haha.. Den I jz walked in da rain.. Side by side wif others.. While ppl lok at me y m I strolling n t runing despite da shortage of umbrella.. Haha.. Well, cz I was wanting 2 b drenched, walking in da rain is my all time favourite.. I jz want da feling of rain hitting on my face, 2 clr da head.. N it was fun.. I sort wans 2 mak sure tt da gals in da gathering is nt drenched.. So I jz gaf up umbrellas 2 dem, cz gals once wet wld CK.. Embarrasing 4 dem as well.. Haha.. So jz mak sure dey r nt wet.. Den we jz half walk half run.. While I stroll much of da way.. Haha.. Da felin is quite nice anw.. So enjoy da walk in da rain.. Bt only if da walk cld b me wif her.. Haha.. It wld b heaven manz.. Haha..

I was all wet wen I went in2 da station.. It was cold, bt I lik da cold feling.. Cz it has been a long tim since I go 2 a cold country.. Bt ppl ard al shot strange glances at me.. Wad's wrong wif a wet person, worth lokin at meh? Den dey kip askin if I nid tissue or nt, bt I jz kip refusing.. Jz so sry if I declined ur kind offer.. It supposedly ended well 4 him, cz I at lest gt 2 do sth tt I lik.. Haha.. It was a gd day 4 me da lest.. Haha..

Basically 4 da last last wk.. Haha.. Nth much acty..

Den abt da las wk, I jz cldnt recal wad I did las wk.. Bt basically it was pure rotting.. N I jz rmb I went pooling.. Den spend lots of money 2 buy 2 bags n becomina Zinc member.. Bt da card is supposed 2 due nxt wk wen I'm on course.. Haha.. So jz wait lorz.. N I jz cldnt recall much le..

Den dis wk is da las slack wk tt I cn haf b4 my course starts.. Cz once da course starts, dun tink I gt tim 2 blog.. Or even haf da mental strength 2 blog.. Haiz.. Jz perservere on.. A samurai is't born strong, bt muz b trained 2 strong.. Den ytd I shifted my bunk frm 1 end of da building 2 another end.. Den I gt da best spot of da bunk.. Lolz.. It's da best position.. Beta den da 1 I used 2 haf b4 I shifted.. Haha.. Pity tt da course is gg 2 start soon.. Nt gg 2 haf much tim 2 enjoy it.. Haha..

Abt da random entry on life, I gues it's one of da mst meaningful stuf I ever wrote.. So did u appreciate it? Lolz..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:28 pm

Sunday, June 10, 2007

'Strange Random'

Dis wek quite a bit sianz.. Bt den every wk has always ben dis way isn't it? My full engineer course is comin in 2nd July.. Heard my instructor is da mst xiong among al others instructors.. A hearsay tt he wil mak dos hu fail SOC 2 run until he see his great grandma or great grandpa dere waving at da SOC runner.. Tink by tt tim is sure die n gone case.. Jz pray hard I wil b able 2 pas my course smoothly n peacefully.. Haha..

I oso duno wad 2 say or do oso.. Bt mayb jz blog lorz.. Haha.. I duno wad 2 say oso.. Bt den tinking abt it, I fel haven rrly gt hold of any grip of myself.. I've been lazing ard, dragging my tim, jz hoping tt my tim wil com, n I wil do wad I m supposed 2 do.. Bt den tinking abt it, wldnt I b a walking corpse? Den I wld b a damn perso 2 walk on dis earth.. Bt hu gifs a damn abt me walking on Earth..

Recently, I gues I gues woke up a bit alr.. I did my passing of tim reading n doin som of my uni course.. Bt den again, I've gt 2 firm my Physics base cz afterall my course is Physics-based.. Haha.. Nw my hearing gt problem.. Haiz.. Duno wad 2 do oso.. If I rrly go n see da Medical Officer, I wld b deemd as CK.. Buden if I duno go, wad hapens if sth rrly hapens cz of my hearing problem? Haiz.. Jz wonder if hearing problem is rrly dere, wld I b downgraded? Haha..

Life's a gift as others say..
Life's something we should treasure..
Life's love and care for others..

Life's about doing things you wish to accomplish..
Life's about meaningful stuffs you do for those around you..
Life's about helping others and yourself..
Life's about hardship and determination..

Here's the catch..
Life's in your hand..

You are the master of your own style of life..
You are the captian of your own ship of life..
You are solely responsible for each and every of your decisions..
You are to bear with the full consequences..
Should you be crossing rough seas of difficulty, blame not others but yourself..
You choose it and travel to it..

For those who wasted their life over small things..
It's high time to wake up now..
Do not dwell on the past..
For it's history and it will never be reversed..

Your job is not to let the bad history repeat..
Your job is to learn from the past and avoid the wrongs..
Your job is also to allow the repetition of good history..
You should be forward looking with the history as stepping stones..

Live your life to the fullest.
Waste not a second in dwelling the past..
For it will never be rewritten or reversed back in time..
So treasure every second and minute of it..
Make it to be a legend..

A legend of famous tales..
Not a list of notorious things..
You would want glory..
Do it from a way where you would be respected by others..
And not hated by others..

These few weeks som of da entry wil seems strange n like no link 2 any of the posts, n sumtims within da posts' sentences itself.. It doesnt make any sense oso.. So jz read n dun care abt it.. Da link may com in a few posts.. Jz lik a puzzle.. Jz tt even its own creator doesn't now hw the end picture would be looking like..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:00 pm

Sunday, June 03, 2007

'Reflection Week'

Well, I duno bt den thru out dese few days of rest n som reflection.. So dis wk is rather a reflection n thinking wk.. It was nt so much of an enjoyment week.. As in I din go out a lot, bt I did went out, bt it was jz pure walking ard n reflecting upon sth.. As in where did I roam? It's more of sub-urban area.. I den found out sth.. Gonna share 1 of da things I discovered abt myself.. I surprsingly find out tt I acty gt a mood indicator.. So here it goes..

The mood indicator is split in2 3 components.. The 3 components are eating style, spending money, n of cz face color la.. And each of these components stand alone.. N r independent variables.. Haha.. Bt dis is indeed true.. So here it goes..

Eating Style
Angry: Eat a lot, and dun care if the food is nice, and spend around $10 to $15 at one shot
Sad: Eat damn little, or dun eat at all
Stressed: Eat a lot, bt eat over a long span of time and money.. Ard whole day, jz kip eating..
Happy: Eat a lot, bt do mind a lot if da food is nice.. So if the food sux, wil turn to other places n find

Spending Style
Angry: Spend a lot at one shot.. Range frm $50 to $120
Sad: Go home str.. Wun b spending any money.. Cz no mood..
Stressed: Spend a lot at one shot.. Bt mostly r dvds frm 1 shop.. Range frm $100 to $150 per shop I go
Happy: Go hm n play com le lorz..

Face Color
Angry: All damn black.. Nt a single trace of smile
Sad: Expressionless
Stressed: Black bt wif little trace of smile
Happy: Happy la.. Ah bo black meh?

Bt den abof all, dis is jz sharing info.. Bt generally, b4 gg out wif anybody, I wld jz gently remind da person wad mood m I in 2day.. Den reference to da color of my face.. So tt da perso wldnt gt a shock wen he or she sees me.. Bt dere r times wen I dun tel.. Cz usu is no mood 2 tel, or u r quite familiar wif me, n I tink u shld noe wad mood m I in wen u c my color..

I finally jz tink of sth.. Bt I jz duno y.. I jz gt mood swings.. N it is said 2 b a characteristic of a female.. Bt den I ask ard, al da female frens I noe if dey spend dis much.. Dey say only go shoping ard, bt mstly jz window shoping.. Bt none spend as much as me.. Somor 4 me, da relapse is lik fortnightly.. Sumtimes twice in a wk.. Haiz.. Jz v confused over it.. Bt I tink I muz learn 2 control it well, n muster it wel..

Mayb it's high tim tt me shld go refine n understand da true meaning of being a Samurai.. Bt den I wil try even harder 2 master da art of da sword n mst importantly, da way of da Dark Samurai.. It has slumped down n I wan 2 pick it up again..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:54 pm

Friday, June 01, 2007

'Random - Love / Relationship'

It's gg 2 b a pure random tim entry again..
No targeting or wadsoeva..
If u tink u r being featured in dis blog, den congrats..
Congrats 4 wad,
I duno..

Loving somebody isn't that hard..
Reciprocating love isn't hard at all..
But why is falling in love so god damn hard?
The answer lies within the individual themselves..

Having one side caring too much,
To another side, it seems authoritative..
Then it will result in quarrels..
Even over the death of an ant..

However, if one side is too easy going.
To another side, it seems too insecure..
This would result is mistrust..
Eventually to break up..
But it will not be one of those big timed quarrels..

Another type is a sedimental type..
Not the relationship itself..
But it's the parties involved in it..
This is what I termed as "Invisible Triangle Love"
One of the party can't put down his or her ex-lover..
Sometimes he or she would still keep in contact with each other..
Message each other frequently..
As if both are still in a relationship..

But the fact is both of them are not in it..
They are already in each of their seperate world and way..
What's worse is that such thing happen during a new courtship..
While wooing or dating a new partner..
He or she still message to each other (ex-lover)..
Is this a way to happen in love or relationship?

The fact is love or relationship is selfish by nature..
Each and everyone wants to keep each other by their side..
They would go to great lengths to keep each other..
Some address each other by sweet terms..
Others wear couple thingy..
While some would make vows and promises to eah other..
However, most of time, these vows and promises are broken..
Isn't this clear that love itself is selfish?

Though it is not wrong to love somebody..
But it doesn't give you the authority to control the other party..
Do it like flying kite..
Let go and hold it at appropriate time..
If not, conflicts would occur..
And then the string will break..

Break ups..
What hurts the party is the emotional part..
Rather than the physical..
The memories you made in each other..
Regardless of what mood is it..
Afterall, it's da foot steps that both of you left in each other..
It can't be erased..
As it will take a long time..
Depending on the sedimental value of the memory..
Or how cold is the person after break up..
Usually time would heal and erase and cuts and bruises, tracks of memories as well..

People often ask what is love..
They often say just go into a relationship and answer is there..
However, I prefer another saying..
Love is dependent on all kinds of factors..
Sometimes, the factors seem so negligible yet they play a significant role..

Love is sweet at first..
Bitter in the middle..
Everlasting sweetness at the end..
People usually give up at the bitter stage..
As it's too much too be taken by them..

What is love?
A variety of answers..
Exact answers?
One has to find out oneself..

Seperation and patching up..
A frequent happening in a relationship..
Happiness and sadness..
Part and parcel of relations..

Passing through the bustling place the sorrow and joy
To be disconsolate and to be with you to roams about intimately
Roaming through a wild green hill and mountain tops
Having your dream to accompany the flower fragrance
I'm soaring this life because your devoted love equilvalent to the world unparalleled
Shadow of the sword is just a passing over the water
This life is perfect because your devoted love equilvalent to the world unparalleled...
If you also had intimately roam about
It's difficult to forget the appearance even if it changes drastically..
It will only be forget with difficulty...
[Adapted from Condor Heroes]

As one can see..
Love isn't that hard..
If both parties are devoted to each other..
It will result in pleasant memories..
Even if it isn't any famous place..
So long as one remains devoted to each other..
Even down the years of the road..
The love will still be as fresh as it was of the first time when both are together..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:12 am