SaMuRaI

[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." [S]amurai Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." -Nietzsche "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." -Frederich N. "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" -Plato "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" -President Roosevelt "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" -Mother Teresa "The fool wonders, the wise asks" -Benjamin Disraeli "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" -Spiderman 3 "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

Monday, December 31, 2007 *'New Year Resolutions'* Here I'm writing da last entry of dis yr.. I rrly duno wad 2 write.. CZ I'm felin damn unwel nw.. Nt physically unwell.. It's emotionaly unwel.. Haiz.. Nv gt such felin las yr.. Mayb it's part n parcel of life ba.. Dn my coy is sort of undergoing a transformation.. Dn da ppl changing 2 is somhw I dun quite lik.. So I wonder hw m I gg 2 survive da nxt 12mths in army lif.. It's a long way thou.. Mayb it's yr end le.. I shld do som new yr resolution.. Here goes da New Year Resolutions: 1. Get my IPPT with a Silver (wana gt tt damn 200 bucks) 2. Pass both my Combat Shoot w Marksman( wana gt tt 200 bucks oso) 3. Try and pass my SOC w a decent timing 4. Don't kena any extra anymore 5. Try to get more off-days 6. Get my 7k computer by June 2008!! 7. Control my retail therapy!! So mayb tt's all I haf 4 dis yr ba.. Dn wish all other ppl ard me n dos frens of frens of mine 2 find their princes n princesses as soon as poss.. Hee.. Shld b able 2 start my countdown quite soon le ba.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:35 pm Friday, December 28, 2007 *'COmputer'* It seems a long tim since I've updated dis blog.. Cz recently I duno y I've b-com mor n mor emo.. I dun lik suden outbursts.. Bt sumtims wen I duno wad hapen, it jz coms out lik tt.. N I hate ppl nagging n nagging.. Dn wen outburst r literaly caused by other external factors, dey blame me 4 nt controling.. I wonder hu's fault is it.. Since it's alr forecasted tt dese few days da face wld b blac, sb sumhw jz lik 2 play w it.. Dn wen it rrly cracked thunder n lightning, dey com n blame da person hu alowed it 2 b out.. N nt da person hu made it out.. I wonder wad's comin 2.. It's jz sth wich I'm nt hapy abt anw.. Anw, my computer is nw sort of I declare it 2 b old n on da verge of dying.. It gaf out engine cranking sound almst everytim I on my computer aft 30 to 45 min.. I acty dun wan 2 do anything abt it.. Bt I gues my atitude 2 always wanting 2 buy a new com, I haf 2 shop ard da onlin n gt 1 of my computer ready n dn start 2 save da money.. Cz it's gona b quite ex.. Cz I've sort of decided 2 build a prety middle high range entertainment computer wich includes both music, n gaming needs.. So da computer I've shopped n customized.. I've sort of set my eyes upon da Dell XPS 420 Desktop, wich is a rather new design in Singapore.. Cz da USA has alr up til XPS 720 / 720H2C.. SO it's da second latest design if I nv gt my eng wrong.. So I've considered n customized da computer wich I set my eyes upon.. It's da XPS 420 Desktop.. Here goes da list of da computer I'm gg to have: Intel Core 2 Quad Processor Q6700 Preloaded Genuine Windows Vista Home Premium OEM Version 24" UltraSharp Wide Screen Flat Panel LCD Monitor 4GB NECC Dual Channel DDR2 667MHz SDRAM Memory 500GB SATA 3.0Gb/s Hard Drive with Native Command Queuing Dual Drives 16X Max DVD-ROM + 16X DVD+/-RW with Dual Layer Write Capabilities 19-in-1 Hi-Speed Media Reader with Bluetooth 2.0 Dell Xcelerator Media Accelerator with front AVIO ports 768MB PCIe x16 NVIDIA GeForce 8800 GTX w/TV-Out and Dual DVI AGEIA PhysX Physics Accelerator Integrated Sound Blaster Audigy ADVANCED HD Audio Software Dell Care Premium Dell WL6000 5.1 Surround Speakers w/subwoofer & Wireless Rear Channel (SG) Dell Bluetooth Keyboard and Optical Mouse (w/out dongle) Dell Bluetooth Wireless Mouse Adobe Elements Studio Software Dell PCIe Hybrid PAL/SECAM/DVB-T TV Tuner with Remote Control Microsoft(R) Office Home & Student 2007 OEM Version McAfee(R) Security Center(TM) – 30 days trial Integrated Gigabit Ethernet 10/100/1000 System Drive DVD Kit Dell Support Adobe Reader Dell Support Center 1.0 XPs Accessory Kit Shipping Documents So basically that is da configuration of my computer tt I'm going to buy.. It shld b a rather quite a gd com, for I can play music, games, n even watch TV.. Hahas.. So it shld b a damn gd computer ba.. I shld b able 2 play mst of da games at its high end features.. So it wld b rather interestin 4 me 2 at lest c y ppl lik gaming computers so much.. Haha.. It's said in da review hw gd is al dese n dat.. Bt mayb I shld tak 1 tym n try n c if it rrly suits me.. Hee.. All it lacks is tt I dun haf a rom 4 myself.. If nt, it wld rrly b a heaven manz.. However, I do haf a decision 2 make oso.. I was tinkin of nt putin da AGEIA PhysX Physics Accelerator (-437.63), bt swap it n change it to Blu-ray Disc Drive (BD/DVD/CD burner w/double layer BD write capability) (+782.17).. DA net diff is abt 350.. Bt if I am 2 put in both da accelerator n da Blu-disc optical drive.. It wld b a ratehr enormous bill.. The current 1 stands @ $5754.46 (approx 4.208mths) The Bludisc w accelerator stands @ $6536.63 (approx 4.846 mths) The Bludisc w/o accelerator stands @ $6099 (approx 4.52mths) The timin indicates da timing I nid 2 save using my ful salary, meaning dun spend on anything, jz kip saving it.. No buying of anything.. HAiz.. Wil b coopin in hse as much as poss.. N avoid gg out cz since I'm prone 2 retail therapy, meaning spending money 2 fel beta in tims of moodines.. Yep.. So nw damn sianz.. Rrly tinkin v hard wich 1 shld I acty buy.. Cz wen I buy, it wil rrly cost ard near 7k.. Big sum manz.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 2:30 pm Saturday, December 15, 2007 *'Emo POst'* I'm nw getin mor n mor emo.. I rrly duno wad 2 do or say.. Bt I rrly fel lik jz ending it al once n 4 al.. Bt dere's always sth tt puls me bac, n makin me postpon tt thot.. Bt no mater hw I push, it wld stil b dere.. It's kinda stresin me up.. I wanted 2 sek psychological help, bt I sort of wan 2 delay it n control it myself.. Bt it al sems getin frm bad 2 worse.. I cldnt rrly help it anymor.. I wana go.. Jz let me go.. Jz let me off n go off.. 2day morning was ok.. Cz gt tuiton, dn jz went 2 tich him hw 2 do dese sums.. Dn while doing halfway, he made dos errors wich I haf alr said b4 nt 2 comit.. Bt he stil comit it.. I asked him several tims on wad's da reason behind of al his mistakes.. He jz kept quiet n dun wan 2 ans me.. I kept givin him da ans, n ask him wad is it tt he duno.. He jz refuse 2 say anything.. Dn parents cam in n intercepted.. Dn he sort of b-com a litle beta.. Bt stil he jz wldnt say anything.. Jz "umm", "ar", "orh", nodding head al da way.. It jz irritates me n made me fel rather pissed.. Bt I din rrly show it, thou I show it 2 a certain extent of ard 20% I tink.. Dn nxt student came.. Duno is I hungry or wad.. Bt aft I ate a biscuit, I sorta b-com a lil beta.. Able 2 b mor aware of situations.. Dn I sort of b-com rather patient wich I'm ratehr surprised @ myself oso.. Dn aft finish teaching, dn wanted 2 rest.. Bt was caled 2 do hsework.. It's nt tt I hated hsework.. Bt I'm jz nt hapy tt almst everytim wen doin hsewrok, sb is almst always nt at da scene.. Always say out w frens la, doin dis doin tt.. If he's so enthu abt outsid, y bother 2 com hm? SHldnt might as wel stay outside.. Damn it.. I sort of being brot up 2 do al dese hsehold chores.. Even wen parents nt ard I do, wen ard soso I do.. Wada hell.. Y is he being brot up lik a real man, who hardly haf 2 touch hsework.. While me being brot up lik a hse husband, havin 2 do al da hsehodl chores wich mstly is done by da female counterparts.. Y is it lik tt almst al da tym? I'm nt tryin 2 seterotyp or anything, bt frankly I find tt it's a bit demeanin 2 ask me 2 da hsehold chores wich is normaly tot 2 gals.. I jz cun stand it anymor.. Da anger jz started within me aft I started work in abt 10min.. I jz cldnt stand it anymor.. I hat it.. I oso dun lik da way on hw he is being taut.. He wans 2 go out, by al means, he always gt da gren lite.. Dn me wen I wana go out, I wil b a red light on dos days w hsework.. While his is on gren lite? Wada hel is it tryin 2 prove? Cldnt jz trry n teach him hw 2 wash n do hsework? I'm rrly getin a litle pissed n angry 4 it.. Evferytym al so acurate de lorz.. Gt hsework, sure gt go out de.. If nt, he wld jz do dos kind of menial de.. Lik wipin da tables n chairs n he can go alr.. While me haf 2 wash da toilets, mop da floor n sumtims even scrub da kitchen.. Wad's hapen? Damn it.. I jz cldnt tak dis lying down.. I jz cun tak it.. Dn it jz mak my whole day emo.. I dun fel lik tokin 2 anyone.. I oso dun haf da apetite 2 eat or even go out.. Jz wana stay @ hm n watch da TV n jz drift off 2 slp.. Dn even thou it was said tt I wld go out n acc fren.. Bt cz I'm al emo-ed up.. Da face is much mor darker dn any1 tim.. So jz cancel it, n satyed @ hm.. Caled 2 say sry 2 da fren, dn tok a while long ond a fone.. Dn went 2 chek abt da status of my free incomin cal previlege.. It's being extended 2 2008.. Hee.. So it shld b ok.. Even nw, I stil rrly dun fel lik eating, mayb it's da anger tt filed up my stomach.. I sorta rrly dun wan 2 do anythin.. Even if I'm given money 4 doin da hsework, it does nt serve anything le.. Cz it's nt I'm angry over da money isue.. Bt it's sorta sims da unequality in da job scope.. I hat it.. it rrly makes me no apitite @ al.. Even if it's my fav fod - Sushi.. Mayb nw, I wld do som replies on som interestin posts I came by.. Nw replyin da Frens 1.. 1 said tt: "so having more fren is better or having less fren is better?... too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by.. so conclusion?better to have no fren?" Well.. My reply is.. I tink he mixed up da defn of "budy" n "fren" SOLEY based on my own definition of frens n buddies.. Wad I believe is: Buddy: You can only have 1 or 2 the maximum. As there are not many true friends like your buddy around. Friend: You can have a lot of them. Regardless if they share the same interest with you. So based on my definition, wad I fel is tt, dere is no such thing as "too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens", cz frens 2 me r 4 company.. Dey may say dey wil b dere 2 share da woes n troubles wif u.. Bt da truth is, only ur buddies wil rrly stand by u, n help u wen u r rrly in ned, n sort of dissappear wen da joy is dere.. Nt many know da fact of dissapperance of da buddy.. cz dey r normally surounded by da frens hu com 2 share da joy, n nv notice da dissappearance.. So wad I believe is "too many frens = will 冷落your own buddies".. Den dis bring 2 my nxt pt of da accompany.. To say "having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by..", it's a bit of irrelavance 2 me.. Cz wen u wan 2 find company 2 share woes, it's only ur buddies ard hu wil share w u, n budies wld nv find it a chore 2 acc his own buddy.. However, wen u wana find sb 2 share da joy, ppl wld flock 2 u, where gt too taxing on frens de? It dun mak sense.. So acordance 2 al dese, I wil only consider myself as a fren 2 mst ppl.. Nt a material 4 budy.. Kinda write quite long oso.. Gg off liaoz.. Writen w bits of regrets.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:03 pm Saturday, December 08, 2007 *'A Year Aniversary, 24km record'* Well, 2day marks da 1st yr in da SAF since my enlistment date.. Lolz.. Dun haf much 2 say, bt dn yr end is comin.. Perhaps da blog shld b ready 4 an overhaul, n a yr-ending post wich least sumarize da yr.. Lolz.. Dn mayb I cld start w da things hapen ytd.. Or rather da Thursday late afternon n nite.. On da thurs nite we are al preparin 4 da 24km Route March (RM).. Seriously, da coy of mine seriously tink tt da RM is rrly redundant 4 us.. Dn da CO b4 da march said sth wich I cld hardly mak it out.. Cz 2 me, it's a bit of mumbling n gibberish.. So cldnt b bothered 2 hear it.. Dn anw, let me trace bac 2 da prep n everything.. On da wed nite, my bunk went on da carbo loading.. In other words we went 2 eat a lot of things wich r essentially rich in carbo.. So we went 2 eat da canteen rich food, dn we went 2 cokhse.. While gg 2 da cokhse, it was agreed we jz drink da drinks n it wld b ok.. Bt ended up, we went 2 eat 1 mor serving of da food.. We sorta forced ourselves 2 eat.. It was rather funy 2 c ppl force 1self 2 eat.. Cz it's lik u wan 2 eat mor, yt u noe u rrly cun.. Dn ended up 1 of us throw da fod 2 da dog 2 eat.. Dn we went up 2 da canten 2 buy chocolates.. Haha.. Cz chocs gif loads of energy.. So each of us equiped w 2 bars each.. Lolz.. Aft tt, we jz went bac 2 bunk.. Wash up n gt ready 2 slp.. Dn on thurs mornin, ppl al sems 2 b v restles, yt nt pumped up tt kind.. Dn we gt instructions 2 work til 1pm, dn was ordered 2 rest until 5pm 2 go 4 diner.. Dn we jz lazed ard 2 11pm 2 eat our lunch.. Dn we jz went up 2 bunk n slp.. We jz slp til ard 5pm.. Dn we heard comotion 2 ask us 2 gather downstairs.. We wer al grogy frm slp.. Dn it was actualy a confirmatn if we r walkin n confirm our arms number.. Dn we wer al damn sian abt it.. Dn we sorts drag ourselves 2 da cokhse in rain.. Da rain was non-stop since wed afternon.. Jz damn sian abt it.. Dn aft we ate, I jz went bac n try 2 catch som slp.. Jz try slpin again, bt cldnt slp.. Dn jz lie on da bed n tink of several things.. Bt cldnt rrly figure out an ans 4 dos qns I haf.. Dn woke up, carbo load da las tim w da chocs.. Dn went down 2 draw da arms.. Dn we acct 4 da strength n ppl walking.. Dn we went 2 da gather pt.. Sit down dere n eat da night snck.. Sit dere n tok cock w each other til ard 12am.. Dn we start warm up, hear da CO tok a bit of things, dn da walk commence.. Dn we jz walked n sing songs.. Dn as da night gt darker n darker.. A sense of fear jz griped me.. I duno hw dis sense come abt.. Bt I becam mor n mor afraid 4 each step I tak.. N on several steps I nearly sprained my ankle.. I tried 2 convince myself tt nth wld hapen 2 me 4 it's safe as always.. Bt mayb cz I gt night blindness, n I cldnt c wads in front of me.. N pluz I knock in2 a person several times, yt sumtims I cldnt c hw far is he in front of me, n I walked a bit faster, I knocked in2 him.. I nearly fal on a few incidents.. My heart jz went damn fast.. Dn I cldnt rrly breathe easily.. Sorta choked off my breath.. I cldnt rrly walk anymor.. Dn a PC cam along n said 2 me tt he wish tt I cld finish da RM w him since it's his las day here in SAF.. I made da promis 2 him.. Den wen I reached da 12km mark.. My heart jz cldnt tak it anymor.. It sorta sends short pulses of pain.. I apologize 2 da PC tt I cldnt fulfil da promis.. He said it's ok since I've finished halfway w him.. Bt nonetheles, I stil fel bad abt it.. Dn in da wee hrs of da morning, ard 5.30am, we sort of went up 2 da top of da hil 2 watch a sunrise.. Da sunrise wasn't tt nice anw.. Bt HE say gt sth abt da sunrise.. I see nth, n I hat it.. Dn shortly aft it, we jz went down da hill, n gt everything up n ready 2 go bac camp.. Dn once reached camp, everybody's morale was damn high.. It made me sorts guilty tt I wasn't able 2 walk w dem.. Bt nonetheles, jz walk bac 2 da coy line.. Dn help out w da caryin of packs n equipments bac 2 da bunk.. Dn did som washing of clothes n washing up.. Dn went 2 slp.. Slept til ard 2pm.. Woke up n had lunch.. Bt jz laze ard til bk out tim.. Dn tt's hw da whole recount of da 24km is lik frm my perspective.. Seriously, I've been thinkin again n again.. Shld I go 4 u, wad hapens if u gif me an ambigious ans again? Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 5:09 pm

Monday, December 31, 2007

'New Year Resolutions'

Here I'm writing da last entry of dis yr..
I rrly duno wad 2 write..
CZ I'm felin damn unwel nw..
Nt physically unwell.. It's emotionaly unwel..
Haiz..
Nv gt such felin las yr..
Mayb it's part n parcel of life ba..

Dn my coy is sort of undergoing a transformation..
Dn da ppl changing 2 is somhw I dun quite lik..
So I wonder hw m I gg 2 survive da nxt 12mths in army lif..
It's a long way thou..
Mayb it's yr end le..
I shld do som new yr resolution..
Here goes da New Year Resolutions:

1. Get my IPPT with a Silver (wana gt tt damn 200 bucks)
2. Pass both my Combat Shoot w Marksman( wana gt tt 200 bucks oso)
3. Try and pass my SOC w a decent timing
4. Don't kena any extra anymore
5. Try to get more off-days
6. Get my 7k computer by June 2008!!
7. Control my retail therapy!!

So mayb tt's all I haf 4 dis yr ba.. Dn wish all other ppl ard me n dos frens of frens of mine 2 find their princes n princesses as soon as poss.. Hee.. Shld b able 2 start my countdown quite soon le ba..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:35 pm

Friday, December 28, 2007

'COmputer'

It seems a long tim since I've updated dis blog.. Cz recently I duno y I've b-com mor n mor emo.. I dun lik suden outbursts.. Bt sumtims wen I duno wad hapen, it jz coms out lik tt.. N I hate ppl nagging n nagging.. Dn wen outburst r literaly caused by other external factors, dey blame me 4 nt controling.. I wonder hu's fault is it.. Since it's alr forecasted tt dese few days da face wld b blac, sb sumhw jz lik 2 play w it.. Dn wen it rrly cracked thunder n lightning, dey com n blame da person hu alowed it 2 b out.. N nt da person hu made it out.. I wonder wad's comin 2.. It's jz sth wich I'm nt hapy abt anw..

Anw, my computer is nw sort of I declare it 2 b old n on da verge of dying.. It gaf out engine cranking sound almst everytim I on my computer aft 30 to 45 min.. I acty dun wan 2 do anything abt it.. Bt I gues my atitude 2 always wanting 2 buy a new com, I haf 2 shop ard da onlin n gt 1 of my computer ready n dn start 2 save da money.. Cz it's gona b quite ex.. Cz I've sort of decided 2 build a prety middle high range entertainment computer wich includes both music, n gaming needs.. So da computer I've shopped n customized.. I've sort of set my eyes upon da Dell XPS 420 Desktop, wich is a rather new design in Singapore.. Cz da USA has alr up til XPS 720 / 720H2C.. SO it's da second latest design if I nv gt my eng wrong.. So I've considered n customized da computer wich I set my eyes upon.. It's da XPS 420 Desktop.. Here goes da list of da computer I'm gg to have:

Intel Core 2 Quad Processor Q6700
Preloaded Genuine Windows Vista Home Premium OEM Version
24" UltraSharp Wide Screen Flat Panel LCD Monitor
4GB NECC Dual Channel DDR2 667MHz SDRAM Memory
500GB SATA 3.0Gb/s Hard Drive with Native Command Queuing
Dual Drives 16X Max DVD-ROM + 16X DVD+/-RW with Dual Layer Write Capabilities
19-in-1 Hi-Speed Media Reader with Bluetooth 2.0
Dell Xcelerator Media Accelerator with front AVIO ports
768MB PCIe x16 NVIDIA GeForce 8800 GTX w/TV-Out and Dual DVI
AGEIA PhysX Physics Accelerator
Integrated Sound Blaster Audigy ADVANCED HD Audio Software
Dell Care Premium
Dell WL6000 5.1 Surround Speakers w/subwoofer & Wireless Rear Channel (SG)
Dell Bluetooth Keyboard and Optical Mouse (w/out dongle)
Dell Bluetooth Wireless Mouse
Adobe Elements Studio Software
Dell PCIe Hybrid PAL/SECAM/DVB-T TV Tuner with Remote Control
Microsoft(R) Office Home & Student 2007 OEM Version
McAfee(R) Security Center(TM) – 30 days trial
Integrated Gigabit Ethernet 10/100/1000
System Drive DVD Kit
Dell Support
Adobe Reader
Dell Support Center 1.0
XPs Accessory Kit
Shipping Documents

So basically that is da configuration of my computer tt I'm going to buy.. It shld b a rather quite a gd com, for I can play music, games, n even watch TV.. Hahas.. So it shld b a damn gd computer ba.. I shld b able 2 play mst of da games at its high end features.. So it wld b rather interestin 4 me 2 at lest c y ppl lik gaming computers so much.. Haha.. It's said in da review hw gd is al dese n dat.. Bt mayb I shld tak 1 tym n try n c if it rrly suits me.. Hee.. All it lacks is tt I dun haf a rom 4 myself.. If nt, it wld rrly b a heaven manz..

However, I do haf a decision 2 make oso.. I was tinkin of nt putin da AGEIA PhysX Physics Accelerator (-437.63), bt swap it n change it to Blu-ray Disc Drive (BD/DVD/CD burner w/double layer BD write capability) (+782.17).. DA net diff is abt 350.. Bt if I am 2 put in both da accelerator n da Blu-disc optical drive.. It wld b a ratehr enormous bill..

The current 1 stands @ $5754.46 (approx 4.208mths)
The Bludisc w accelerator stands @ $6536.63 (approx 4.846 mths)
The Bludisc w/o accelerator stands @ $6099 (approx 4.52mths)

The timin indicates da timing I nid 2 save using my ful salary, meaning dun spend on anything, jz kip saving it.. No buying of anything.. HAiz.. Wil b coopin in hse as much as poss.. N avoid gg out cz since I'm prone 2 retail therapy, meaning spending money 2 fel beta in tims of moodines..

Yep.. So nw damn sianz.. Rrly tinkin v hard wich 1 shld I acty buy.. Cz wen I buy, it wil rrly cost ard near 7k.. Big sum manz..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 2:30 pm

Saturday, December 15, 2007

'Emo POst'

I'm nw getin mor n mor emo.. I rrly duno wad 2 do or say.. Bt I rrly fel lik jz ending it al once n 4 al.. Bt dere's always sth tt puls me bac, n makin me postpon tt thot.. Bt no mater hw I push, it wld stil b dere.. It's kinda stresin me up.. I wanted 2 sek psychological help, bt I sort of wan 2 delay it n control it myself.. Bt it al sems getin frm bad 2 worse.. I cldnt rrly help it anymor.. I wana go.. Jz let me go.. Jz let me off n go off..

2day morning was ok.. Cz gt tuiton, dn jz went 2 tich him hw 2 do dese sums.. Dn while doing halfway, he made dos errors wich I haf alr said b4 nt 2 comit.. Bt he stil comit it.. I asked him several tims on wad's da reason behind of al his mistakes.. He jz kept quiet n dun wan 2 ans me.. I kept givin him da ans, n ask him wad is it tt he duno.. He jz refuse 2 say anything.. Dn parents cam in n intercepted.. Dn he sort of b-com a litle beta.. Bt stil he jz wldnt say anything.. Jz "umm", "ar", "orh", nodding head al da way.. It jz irritates me n made me fel rather pissed.. Bt I din rrly show it, thou I show it 2 a certain extent of ard 20% I tink.. Dn nxt student came.. Duno is I hungry or wad.. Bt aft I ate a biscuit, I sorta b-com a lil beta.. Able 2 b mor aware of situations.. Dn I sort of b-com rather patient wich I'm ratehr surprised @ myself oso.. Dn aft finish teaching, dn wanted 2 rest.. Bt was caled 2 do hsework..

It's nt tt I hated hsework.. Bt I'm jz nt hapy tt almst everytim wen doin hsewrok, sb is almst always nt at da scene.. Always say out w frens la, doin dis doin tt.. If he's so enthu abt outsid, y bother 2 com hm? SHldnt might as wel stay outside.. Damn it.. I sort of being brot up 2 do al dese hsehold chores.. Even wen parents nt ard I do, wen ard soso I do.. Wada hell.. Y is he being brot up lik a real man, who hardly haf 2 touch hsework.. While me being brot up lik a hse husband, havin 2 do al da hsehodl chores wich mstly is done by da female counterparts.. Y is it lik tt almst al da tym? I'm nt tryin 2 seterotyp or anything, bt frankly I find tt it's a bit demeanin 2 ask me 2 da hsehold chores wich is normaly tot 2 gals.. I jz cun stand it anymor.. Da anger jz started within me aft I started work in abt 10min.. I jz cldnt stand it anymor.. I hat it..

I oso dun lik da way on hw he is being taut.. He wans 2 go out, by al means, he always gt da gren lite.. Dn me wen I wana go out, I wil b a red light on dos days w hsework.. While his is on gren lite? Wada hel is it tryin 2 prove? Cldnt jz trry n teach him hw 2 wash n do hsework? I'm rrly getin a litle pissed n angry 4 it.. Evferytym al so acurate de lorz.. Gt hsework, sure gt go out de.. If nt, he wld jz do dos kind of menial de.. Lik wipin da tables n chairs n he can go alr.. While me haf 2 wash da toilets, mop da floor n sumtims even scrub da kitchen.. Wad's hapen? Damn it.. I jz cldnt tak dis lying down.. I jz cun tak it..

Dn it jz mak my whole day emo.. I dun fel lik tokin 2 anyone.. I oso dun haf da apetite 2 eat or even go out.. Jz wana stay @ hm n watch da TV n jz drift off 2 slp.. Dn even thou it was said tt I wld go out n acc fren.. Bt cz I'm al emo-ed up.. Da face is much mor darker dn any1 tim.. So jz cancel it, n satyed @ hm.. Caled 2 say sry 2 da fren, dn tok a while long ond a fone.. Dn went 2 chek abt da status of my free incomin cal previlege.. It's being extended 2 2008.. Hee.. So it shld b ok.. Even nw, I stil rrly dun fel lik eating, mayb it's da anger tt filed up my stomach.. I sorta rrly dun wan 2 do anythin.. Even if I'm given money 4 doin da hsework, it does nt serve anything le.. Cz it's nt I'm angry over da money isue.. Bt it's sorta sims da unequality in da job scope.. I hat it.. it rrly makes me no apitite @ al.. Even if it's my fav fod - Sushi..

Mayb nw, I wld do som replies on som interestin posts I came by.. Nw replyin da Frens 1..

1 said tt:
"so having more fren is better or having less fren is better?...
too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens
having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by..

so conclusion?better to have no fren?"

Well.. My reply is.. I tink he mixed up da defn of "budy" n "fren" SOLEY based on my own definition of frens n buddies.. Wad I believe is:

Buddy: You can only have 1 or 2 the maximum. As there are not many true friends like your buddy around.

Friend: You can have a lot of them. Regardless if they share the same interest with you.

So based on my definition, wad I fel is tt, dere is no such thing as "too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens", cz frens 2 me r 4 company.. Dey may say dey wil b dere 2 share da woes n troubles wif u.. Bt da truth is, only ur buddies wil rrly stand by u, n help u wen u r rrly in ned, n sort of dissappear wen da joy is dere.. Nt many know da fact of dissapperance of da buddy.. cz dey r normally surounded by da frens hu com 2 share da joy, n nv notice da dissappearance.. So wad I believe is "too many frens = will 冷落your own buddies".. Den dis bring 2 my nxt pt of da accompany.. To say "having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by..", it's a bit of irrelavance 2 me.. Cz wen u wan 2 find company 2 share woes, it's only ur buddies ard hu wil share w u, n budies wld nv find it a chore 2 acc his own buddy.. However, wen u wana find sb 2 share da joy, ppl wld flock 2 u, where gt too taxing on frens de? It dun mak sense.. So acordance 2 al dese, I wil only consider myself as a fren 2 mst ppl.. Nt a material 4 budy..

Kinda write quite long oso.. Gg off liaoz.. Writen w bits of regrets..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 8:03 pm

Saturday, December 08, 2007

'A Year Aniversary, 24km record'

Well, 2day marks da 1st yr in da SAF since my enlistment date.. Lolz.. Dun haf much 2 say, bt dn yr end is comin.. Perhaps da blog shld b ready 4 an overhaul, n a yr-ending post wich least sumarize da yr.. Lolz.. Dn mayb I cld start w da things hapen ytd.. Or rather da Thursday late afternon n nite..

On da thurs nite we are al preparin 4 da 24km Route March (RM).. Seriously, da coy of mine seriously tink tt da RM is rrly redundant 4 us.. Dn da CO b4 da march said sth wich I cld hardly mak it out.. Cz 2 me, it's a bit of mumbling n gibberish.. So cldnt b bothered 2 hear it.. Dn anw, let me trace bac 2 da prep n everything..

On da wed nite, my bunk went on da carbo loading.. In other words we went 2 eat a lot of things wich r essentially rich in carbo.. So we went 2 eat da canteen rich food, dn we went 2 cokhse.. While gg 2 da cokhse, it was agreed we jz drink da drinks n it wld b ok.. Bt ended up, we went 2 eat 1 mor serving of da food.. We sorta forced ourselves 2 eat.. It was rather funy 2 c ppl force 1self 2 eat.. Cz it's lik u wan 2 eat mor, yt u noe u rrly cun.. Dn ended up 1 of us throw da fod 2 da dog 2 eat.. Dn we went up 2 da canten 2 buy chocolates.. Haha.. Cz chocs gif loads of energy.. So each of us equiped w 2 bars each.. Lolz.. Aft tt, we jz went bac 2 bunk.. Wash up n gt ready 2 slp..

Dn on thurs mornin, ppl al sems 2 b v restles, yt nt pumped up tt kind.. Dn we gt instructions 2 work til 1pm, dn was ordered 2 rest until 5pm 2 go 4 diner.. Dn we jz lazed ard 2 11pm 2 eat our lunch.. Dn we jz went up 2 bunk n slp.. We jz slp til ard 5pm.. Dn we heard comotion 2 ask us 2 gather downstairs.. We wer al grogy frm slp.. Dn it was actualy a confirmatn if we r walkin n confirm our arms number.. Dn we wer al damn sian abt it.. Dn we sorts drag ourselves 2 da cokhse in rain.. Da rain was non-stop since wed afternon.. Jz damn sian abt it.. Dn aft we ate, I jz went bac n try 2 catch som slp.. Jz try slpin again, bt cldnt slp.. Dn jz lie on da bed n tink of several things.. Bt cldnt rrly figure out an ans 4 dos qns I haf..

Dn woke up, carbo load da las tim w da chocs.. Dn went down 2 draw da arms.. Dn we acct 4 da strength n ppl walking.. Dn we went 2 da gather pt.. Sit down dere n eat da night snck.. Sit dere n tok cock w each other til ard 12am.. Dn we start warm up, hear da CO tok a bit of things, dn da walk commence.. Dn we jz walked n sing songs..

Dn as da night gt darker n darker.. A sense of fear jz griped me.. I duno hw dis sense come abt.. Bt I becam mor n mor afraid 4 each step I tak.. N on several steps I nearly sprained my ankle.. I tried 2 convince myself tt nth wld hapen 2 me 4 it's safe as always.. Bt mayb cz I gt night blindness, n I cldnt c wads in front of me.. N pluz I knock in2 a person several times, yt sumtims I cldnt c hw far is he in front of me, n I walked a bit faster, I knocked in2 him.. I nearly fal on a few incidents.. My heart jz went damn fast.. Dn I cldnt rrly breathe easily.. Sorta choked off my breath.. I cldnt rrly walk anymor.. Dn a PC cam along n said 2 me tt he wish tt I cld finish da RM w him since it's his las day here in SAF.. I made da promis 2 him.. Den wen I reached da 12km mark.. My heart jz cldnt tak it anymor.. It sorta sends short pulses of pain.. I apologize 2 da PC tt I cldnt fulfil da promis.. He said it's ok since I've finished halfway w him.. Bt nonetheles, I stil fel bad abt it..

Dn in da wee hrs of da morning, ard 5.30am, we sort of went up 2 da top of da hil 2 watch a sunrise.. Da sunrise wasn't tt nice anw.. Bt HE say gt sth abt da sunrise.. I see nth, n I hat it.. Dn shortly aft it, we jz went down da hill, n gt everything up n ready 2 go bac camp.. Dn once reached camp, everybody's morale was damn high.. It made me sorts guilty tt I wasn't able 2 walk w dem.. Bt nonetheles, jz walk bac 2 da coy line.. Dn help out w da caryin of packs n equipments bac 2 da bunk.. Dn did som washing of clothes n washing up.. Dn went 2 slp.. Slept til ard 2pm.. Woke up n had lunch.. Bt jz laze ard til bk out tim.. Dn tt's hw da whole recount of da 24km is lik frm my perspective..

Seriously, I've been thinkin again n again.. Shld I go 4 u, wad hapens if u gif me an ambigious ans again?

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 5:09 pm