[T]eachings
"A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot."
"The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless."
"To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself."
"Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles."
"Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it."
[S]amurai
Writer : Xiaofeixia
Age : Since 1988
Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher

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[E]nemies
Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people

[S]crolls
"Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man."
-Nietzsche
"He who has enough why can bear almost any how."
-Frederich N.
"Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing"
-Plato
"Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them"
-President Roosevelt
"Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless"
-Mother Teresa
"The fool wonders, the wise asks"
-Benjamin Disraeli
"Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?"
"Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?"
"Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway."
"You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?"
"Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way."
"The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you."
"You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant."
"You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours."
"Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?"
"Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance"
"If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know"
"Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something"
"What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence."
"You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?"
"We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice"
-Spiderman 3
"Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen"
"Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

'Emo POst'

I'm nw getin mor n mor emo.. I rrly duno wad 2 do or say.. Bt I rrly fel lik jz ending it al once n 4 al.. Bt dere's always sth tt puls me bac, n makin me postpon tt thot.. Bt no mater hw I push, it wld stil b dere.. It's kinda stresin me up.. I wanted 2 sek psychological help, bt I sort of wan 2 delay it n control it myself.. Bt it al sems getin frm bad 2 worse.. I cldnt rrly help it anymor.. I wana go.. Jz let me go.. Jz let me off n go off..

2day morning was ok.. Cz gt tuiton, dn jz went 2 tich him hw 2 do dese sums.. Dn while doing halfway, he made dos errors wich I haf alr said b4 nt 2 comit.. Bt he stil comit it.. I asked him several tims on wad's da reason behind of al his mistakes.. He jz kept quiet n dun wan 2 ans me.. I kept givin him da ans, n ask him wad is it tt he duno.. He jz refuse 2 say anything.. Dn parents cam in n intercepted.. Dn he sort of b-com a litle beta.. Bt stil he jz wldnt say anything.. Jz "umm", "ar", "orh", nodding head al da way.. It jz irritates me n made me fel rather pissed.. Bt I din rrly show it, thou I show it 2 a certain extent of ard 20% I tink.. Dn nxt student came.. Duno is I hungry or wad.. Bt aft I ate a biscuit, I sorta b-com a lil beta.. Able 2 b mor aware of situations.. Dn I sort of b-com rather patient wich I'm ratehr surprised @ myself oso.. Dn aft finish teaching, dn wanted 2 rest.. Bt was caled 2 do hsework..

It's nt tt I hated hsework.. Bt I'm jz nt hapy tt almst everytim wen doin hsewrok, sb is almst always nt at da scene.. Always say out w frens la, doin dis doin tt.. If he's so enthu abt outsid, y bother 2 com hm? SHldnt might as wel stay outside.. Damn it.. I sort of being brot up 2 do al dese hsehold chores.. Even wen parents nt ard I do, wen ard soso I do.. Wada hell.. Y is he being brot up lik a real man, who hardly haf 2 touch hsework.. While me being brot up lik a hse husband, havin 2 do al da hsehodl chores wich mstly is done by da female counterparts.. Y is it lik tt almst al da tym? I'm nt tryin 2 seterotyp or anything, bt frankly I find tt it's a bit demeanin 2 ask me 2 da hsehold chores wich is normaly tot 2 gals.. I jz cun stand it anymor.. Da anger jz started within me aft I started work in abt 10min.. I jz cldnt stand it anymor.. I hat it..

I oso dun lik da way on hw he is being taut.. He wans 2 go out, by al means, he always gt da gren lite.. Dn me wen I wana go out, I wil b a red light on dos days w hsework.. While his is on gren lite? Wada hel is it tryin 2 prove? Cldnt jz trry n teach him hw 2 wash n do hsework? I'm rrly getin a litle pissed n angry 4 it.. Evferytym al so acurate de lorz.. Gt hsework, sure gt go out de.. If nt, he wld jz do dos kind of menial de.. Lik wipin da tables n chairs n he can go alr.. While me haf 2 wash da toilets, mop da floor n sumtims even scrub da kitchen.. Wad's hapen? Damn it.. I jz cldnt tak dis lying down.. I jz cun tak it..

Dn it jz mak my whole day emo.. I dun fel lik tokin 2 anyone.. I oso dun haf da apetite 2 eat or even go out.. Jz wana stay @ hm n watch da TV n jz drift off 2 slp.. Dn even thou it was said tt I wld go out n acc fren.. Bt cz I'm al emo-ed up.. Da face is much mor darker dn any1 tim.. So jz cancel it, n satyed @ hm.. Caled 2 say sry 2 da fren, dn tok a while long ond a fone.. Dn went 2 chek abt da status of my free incomin cal previlege.. It's being extended 2 2008.. Hee.. So it shld b ok.. Even nw, I stil rrly dun fel lik eating, mayb it's da anger tt filed up my stomach.. I sorta rrly dun wan 2 do anythin.. Even if I'm given money 4 doin da hsework, it does nt serve anything le.. Cz it's nt I'm angry over da money isue.. Bt it's sorta sims da unequality in da job scope.. I hat it.. it rrly makes me no apitite @ al.. Even if it's my fav fod - Sushi..

Mayb nw, I wld do som replies on som interestin posts I came by.. Nw replyin da Frens 1..

1 said tt:
"so having more fren is better or having less fren is better?...
too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens
having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by..

so conclusion?better to have no fren?"

Well.. My reply is.. I tink he mixed up da defn of "budy" n "fren" SOLEY based on my own definition of frens n buddies.. Wad I believe is:

Buddy: You can only have 1 or 2 the maximum. As there are not many true friends like your buddy around.

Friend: You can have a lot of them. Regardless if they share the same interest with you.

So based on my definition, wad I fel is tt, dere is no such thing as "too many frens = will 冷落 some of the frens", cz frens 2 me r 4 company.. Dey may say dey wil b dere 2 share da woes n troubles wif u.. Bt da truth is, only ur buddies wil rrly stand by u, n help u wen u r rrly in ned, n sort of dissappear wen da joy is dere.. Nt many know da fact of dissapperance of da buddy.. cz dey r normally surounded by da frens hu com 2 share da joy, n nv notice da dissappearance.. So wad I believe is "too many frens = will 冷落your own buddies".. Den dis bring 2 my nxt pt of da accompany.. To say "having few frens = too taxing on their time for company,harder to maintain frenship as time goes by..", it's a bit of irrelavance 2 me.. Cz wen u wan 2 find company 2 share woes, it's only ur buddies ard hu wil share w u, n budies wld nv find it a chore 2 acc his own buddy.. However, wen u wana find sb 2 share da joy, ppl wld flock 2 u, where gt too taxing on frens de? It dun mak sense.. So acordance 2 al dese, I wil only consider myself as a fren 2 mst ppl.. Nt a material 4 budy..

Kinda write quite long oso.. Gg off liaoz.. Writen w bits of regrets..


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