[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" "The fool wonders, the wise asks" "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"
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| Thursday, December 25, 2008
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It's a holiday and it means blogging time.. Lolz.. Seriously, I jz sort of bored alr.. Damn sian in effect.. Yesterday went thru an operation.. Haha.. Nw making quite a gd recovery.. Haha.. Wells, yesterday I worked half day @ my workplace.. Had a Christmas celebration as well.. It's was quite lively? Thou the place wasn't very decorated, but while we worked, people from other company sent us hampers.. Oh wells, since we belong 2 da government, we cun acept any gifts, so since we cun store it up 4 each individual use, we al opened up n share among da whole department.. Acty, da hampoers wer meant 4 da 2 sub-heads of our department.. HAha.. If nt it will b coruption.. Lolz.. Haha.. Enjoyed da drinking of da drinks la.. Non alcholic de hor.. HAha.. Ate nuts, chocolates.. Al da fattening stuffs u cld find.. Haha.. Wad a pity dun haf abolone.. If nt I sure go n tak n hide it.. Lolz.. Then jz went ard, say Christmas 2 everyone, and den went off 4 an eye check up.. Curious why I go eye check up rite? Cz I've gt plans to do my LASIK surgery.. Lolz.. It's an evaluation test on if ur eyes r suitable or nt.. It consists of Eye Power Test, Eye Pressure Test and taking picts of ur eyeballs.. No kidding.. The checkin of eye presure is, if i'm nt wrong, d measurement of da thicknes of da cornea.. It shoots jets of air in2 my eye.. Damn irritating, I've 2 redo it 4 my left eye cz my eye blink closed wen da air came in.. Lolz.. Had 2 go thru twice.. Sianz.. HAha.. Bt I mean if I wan 2 b cosmetic w my eyes, so I gt 2 put in som effort ma.. Cz ppl say '爱美必须付出贷价', so I juz gt 2 bear w it lorz.. I mean wad 2 do? Den aft da whoe series of test, som eye drops were dropped in2 my eye for pupil dilution.. I yink da purpose is 2 mak my pupil lok bigger so easier for diagnosis I tink.. Den waited for the nxt 30min or so, dn gt a consulation sesion 2 attend 2.. BAsically, it jz states wad happens b4 and aft ur opr, ad r da do's and dun's.. It was al writen on da piece of paper n bklet I recieve upon enterin da clinic.. So it ws helpful, loest I no nid 2 flip thru whole bk n read up.. HAha.. Bt it ws borin while waiting, so I more or less had read da whole bk.. Lolz.. Dn aft tt I went 2 da counter n 2 acknoeledge tt I've alr went thru da consultation n dn go n register that I wil b gg thru da consultation n advice buy the doctor.. Den I went 2 da doctor w my dad bside me.. Dun say I'm a litle kid still nid parents beside me.. It's a a major opr ok? It concerns my eyes.. Da impt organ of my life lorz.. Like ppl say 眼睛是灵魂之窗, hw cn I nt ask my parents along? Dn aft som clarification n verification by the doctor, dn I was recomaneded 2 do da wavefront type of lasik for it's more customized for each eye.. Then aft som discusion wif my parents, dey allowed me 2 do da wavefront type of lasik wif da financial suport frm dem.. Dn it was schduled to have da opr lik on da day itself in da evening.. Fast eh? Then I went out n shopin a while calm myslef down la.. Haha.. Dn went back up again lik ard 5.30pm.. Cz it was schduled to be tt tim.. Dn wen I went up, da nurse led me in2 da prep rm 4 surgery.. Dn gt 2 sign da consent form, n understand da risk taken n al.. Dn I was al prep n wrapped up 4 opr lik in 30min.. Dn I waited da doctor lik frm 6pm to lik ard 6.50pm? Haha.. Dn I was called in 2 do da opr.. N everything was al set up n ready.. Dn I lay down on da bed, w da laser machine over me.. Dn I was being reviewed again for wad da opr wld b lik.. Heard da sound of da laser, n da procedure.. Aft tt, da opr started.. It started w da anesthesia.. Dey drip it ik dere's no tml.. Lest beta, u dun fel da pain.. Haha.. Dn waited 4 da anesthesia to kick in.. Dn da opr start w da creation of da cornea flap.. Da proces wld b horible if I tel u online.. Bt basicaly, dey used quite sophisicated tools 2 achieve da creatn of cornea flap.. A device was used 2 prevent u frm closing da eyes.. Dn aft tt light wer switched off, n my vision of da laser light b-com blured.. Dn started count 30 backwards w da laser on.. Dn da burnin smel cam lik ard 20 count onwards (i.e. 22, 21, 20).. Gt a bit scared, bt da doctor jz literaly pressed down on my head jz 2 prevent turnin of da head.. Dn it was done.. Dn da flap was put bac on, n eye droplets or rather eye moisture was dripped again lik dere's no tml.. Machaim fre lik tt.. Acty oso ok la.. I pay 4 it eh.. Haha.. Dn da sam was done w da left eye.. Da vision is quite cloudy, bt cld see wad's in front of me quite clearly, n it's lik ur vision gt covered by a wedding gown veil.. Dn aft da whole opr, I was asked 2 sit up n lok thru a meter again, 2 mak sure everything goes well n is ok.. N dn I was asked 2 go 2 da recovery ward.. Dn put on eye covers w tapes.. Lokin quite ugly I muz say.. Haha.. Dn went hm w parents w da medicatin alr given 2 me.. Da pain was nt so painful aft da opr on da left eye was done.. Bt it was damn sore n pain on da way 2 recoevry ward.. Damn itchy 2 rub 2 gt off da irritatn.. Bt it is a NO 2 tt.. So bear wif it.. Dropped eye antibiotics.. It's stinging pain.. By gt 2 bear w it.. Dn on da way bac hm.. Gt 2 close my eyes 2 ease da pain.. It's TORTUROUS 2 even open my eyes.. Da whole night I walked w my eyes closed lik 80%.. Damn jialat.. Kip tearin oso.. Machaim lik even scolded real bad.. Cryin non-stop.. Cldnt even raise my head 2 gret ppl.. Understand hw painful it is alr? Dn gt hm, bath n change.. Dn pop in da sleepin pill tt ws given n aplied da necessary medication, went 2 slp.. Dn da nxt day wak up, vision bac 2 ok.. Dn went for da follow up @ 1.45pm.. Dn @ da follow up, da doctor examined.. Dn went for da eye power test, if I nv hear wrongly, my astigmatism is zero, n my degree is lik 25.. Bt wil flactuate within 3 mths 2 stabilize.. So jz pray hard tt it wil drop to 0, so no nid 2 wear any glases or strain eyes 2 see things frm faraway.. Bt muz tak rrly gd care of da eyes nw.. Bt I muz say it's rrly beta dn wearin da contacts.. Cz no nid 2 tak it off or put it on wherever I go.. So it's worth it la.. Bt a bit ex I muz say.. So tt's all la.. Bt dn it's rrly expensive I muz say.. Dn nw I haf 2 protect da eyes wherever I go.. Lik go anywhere, jz put on sunglasses if it's 2 glaring.. So nw, cz my sight haven stabilize, so even da computer screen is glaring.. So nw even wen I do computer things, I put on da sunglasses.. Dun laugh or say I exaggerate.. Cz u go n try dis opr urself.. It's nt as ez as u tink.. Da care aft da opr is crucial.. So wear a sunglass 2 reduce, nth wrong ma.. Haha.. Gt 2 go n rest le.. Haha.. Rmb 2 rest ur eyes aft reading such a long entry.. In a summary, I'm happy tt I cld gt rid of da glasses hopefully except sunglasses, n never 2 wear dem again.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 4:27 pm Sunday, December 21, 2008
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It seems to be a long tim since I blog.. But then I cldnt rrly tak up da keyboard n start typin al my entries into a composition for I rrly gt quite a bit 2 say yet cldnt rrly put them into words 2 describe it.. It has also ben a long long tim since I write al da entries in paragraph form.. It has ben a long tim hasn't it? But it rrly tak me quite a bit of mental 2 b able 2 write like then n now.. I've read thru a few blogs n left my ugly prints here n dere.. Bt in dere is juz a chaterbox or rather a tagbox.. Cz it's meant to leave short msgs here n dere.. N mayb leave a bit of coments here n dere.. Cldnt rrly expres it.. I have 2 admit I was v active in da last yr's bloging.. Abt my NS life, wrk n studies.. N rrly is time flies lorz.. I nw had alr finished my NS n nw gg to uni.. Haha.. It rrly al sems fast.. I cld stil rmb hw desprate I was 2 gt out of army wen I first enlisted n started countdown of "2 yrs to ORD".. Haha.. Nw I've lar ORD-ed le lorz.. Haha.. Well there's rrly quite a bit for me to write in dis comin esay of thoughts.. Haha.. First up is the reflection of thouts in blogs that I've read so far.. Well, first of all I cam by a blog wich almst everytim dealt wif romance n stuf.. Basicaly relationships n al.. Dos v sticky problems.. I personaly rrly dun lik 2 tackle dese type of problems.. For they rrly leave a v sticky efect n drains ur attention away slowly.. Soon u b-com shag n nt performin 2 ur fulest at times.. Bt dn again I say wadeva I say here nid b concretely suported by examples or so.. Al dese r jz my tots n felings of sumting.. I oso cldnt bring myself 2 say it personaly face to face.. So I gues I have 2 do it dis way n hipe tt person wun do anything la.. I wil try 2 put it in a v nice way n try nt 2 hurt.. I knw it definitely hurts 2 b in an ambigious r/s n yt askin 4 a sinmple thing of true love.. However it's nv gona b ez n it's takin a toll upon 1 side n nt both 4 d other party dun rrly care much.. 2 me if u ask, I wld say true love mayb hard 2 find but it's totally not impossible.. U juz haf 2 find da "Right One" in ur life as said by many so far.. I guess evrything wil haf 2 b put off until one cn rrly suport a family in da wrkforce w a steady pay n hapy wrk.. Some might say concurent.. Do romance w wrk, n one shld b ready 2 comit once love n wrk r stable.. However, wldn't it b torturous if either 1 fails? Wad hapen if ur love fails? Or ur job fails? I nw split in2 2 scenarios n say.. If ur love fails, 1. Mild case, at most u wil b soules a few days, n bac 2 wrk normaly.. Ur job wun b afected much.. 2. Moderate case, abt sam as mild case, jz tt duration of recovery wld b long.. 3. Serious case, u wil b souless.. N u wil b trying 2 find ways 2 gt bac 2 ur ex partner.. Do al sorts of sily things, n u wil start 2 neglect ur wrk.. Wif ur wrk neglected, of cz ur attitude towards wrk wil sux also.. U wil nt b able 2 perform 2 ur optimum.. U wil b in chinese say" 醉生梦死".. Dn u wun b able 2 conc on ur wrk.. Ur bos nt hapy, u jz wait b fried.. I duno if dis is a smart alec way of doing, or mayb I've exagerated it a bit 2 far fetched.. Bt dis is wad I tink n fel.. Damn sian de.. I oso wldnt want tt 2 hapen or wad.. SO best thing if u shld encounter da problem of 'love fails', hope u wil gt da 'mild case' or cases tt is even more milder dn wad I've describe above.. If your wrk fails, acty al u cld do is find another job lahz.. Bt dn it cld b oso a test of r/s 4 u n ur partner.. It is a time of trial n test.. So do open ur eyes big big n kep a lokout.. Haha.. It's a rrly gd thing n bad thing la.. BAd thing is u gt no income, gd thing is u gt 2 train urself in times of trial n a test of r/s.. So it's kind of gd de la.. So I gues nth is rrly bad dependin frm wich angle u r loking frm.. Howevr, I cldnt rrly find a gd angle 2 look frm in da proble of "If ur love fails".. So plz dun blame me 4 being quite 1 sided.. Nxt another blog is abt frens.. Well, I do understand tt frens r impt.. I understand tt 4 a frenship b sustained long enuf, lots of atention n efort muz b put in.. Bt no mater hw frens r impt, it wld nv rie over da imptance of a family member.. So I gues my answer is clear.. Family matters r always @ da priority of al.. It shld b given 2 dem.. My ratio is always twice as much.. If u gif ur frens 1hr of atention n tim, u shld gif ur family 2hr of atenton n tim.. However it rrly depend on situation la.. It cun b if u gif ur fren a day, dn u kip urself @ hm 4 2 days rite? It's dumb rite? So do da adjustments as accordingly.. Wad dis ratio is juz 2 kip in check of balancing frens n family 4 me.. Haha.. Enough of toking abt blogs n stuf.. Gues I wil tok abt mysefl! HAha.. I jus gt out frm NS nt long la.. HAha.. Heard tt gt 2 go reservist lik in June? For da first cycle or wad I oso duno.. Lolz.. Dn I nw curently doin a temp staff @ NEA.. Almst doin everything.. Frm logistics to admin.. Lots n lots of stuf 2 do.. Haha.. Bt it's fun tho.. People dere r al I know de.. Dos perm staf down dere.. Haha.. CZ dey wer wif me since I wa young.. Haha.. Cldnt believe it tt I gt in2 a wrkplace where I grew up n play in, n nw b-com my wrkplace.. HAha.. Da ppl dere r nice.. N wad's more is dere r oso 2 ppl down dere hu watch anime oso.. Haha.. So happy.. Lest gt ppl hu had sam hobbies as me.. HAha.. It's a rrly fun place.. Love working dere.. It's rrly enjouyable wrkin dere.. Wad's more is tt I started da job rite aft I ORDed.. Haha.. Almst lik no break in income.. Haha.. It's a rrly enjoyable place.. Haha.. Paywise is al abt da sam 4 da temp staf in da wrkforce.. Da pay oso nt say v gd.. A nt v gd pay is ALWAYS beta dn NO pay.. Haha.. Tt's al I gt 2 say.. Oh ya, rmb rest ur eyes aft readin dis entry.. U shld b quite tired le aft reading such long n partly rubush or entire rubish 4 so long.. Haha.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 5:47 pm Friday, December 05, 2008
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Finally.. It comes.. I ORD le Lorz! HAhax.. Bye bye to dos suckers in camp! HAha.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 4:26 pm Wednesday, December 03, 2008
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Haha.. 1 more day to ORD lorz.. Waited 4 lik 2yrs 4 it? Haha.. Cun wait 4 tt day 2 com manz.. Haha.. Rrly wish 2 leave dere earlier.. Thou dis wk is da best of al weeks since Feb 2008.. Haha.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:22 pm |