SaMuRaI

[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." [S]amurai Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." -Nietzsche "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." -Frederich N. "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" -Plato "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" -President Roosevelt "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" -Mother Teresa "The fool wonders, the wise asks" -Benjamin Disraeli "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" -Spiderman 3 "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

Tuesday, April 28, 2009 *'Physics And Applied Physics'* Oh wells, it seems so rare for me to be able to blog so often. However, I must blog often now, for the stress is slowly and very slowly building up soon as the days to my university course draws nearer. I'm of course quite happy to be able to study in a local university and able to enjoy teh subsidised school fees and rate. The course I'm getting in is Physics And Applied Physics in School Of Physical And Mathematical Sciences (SPMS), and it is at the South Spine of NTU, and the good thing is, we are able to get the fresh air, though not very fresh due to the expressway (PIE), but there are plants there to photosynthesize and produce fresh air. Thus, I think the balance is maintained. I went to the tea party on last Saturday, and it was sort of mingling with the professors and other students. Maybe I just write a short recount of what went on Saturday. The tea party was scheduled to be at 2pm, then me being kiasu as usual, I reach there at around 1pm. Oh wells, I'm still quite new, so have to get there freaking early, so that could make up for lost time, as in the lost time refers to the amount of time I probably would be lost in the huge campus. Therefore, it's quite lucky that I didn't get lost thanks to assistance provided by my NTU seniors Angelina and Stephanie, if not I would probably reach there only after the tea party had ended. We were given a talk by the Division head himself, about the cirriculium, the building, and the activities that are going on. From the talk, the GPA system seems quite fair on the paper, but practically I'm not too sure yet. However, the building is only less than a year old, and all the facilities are all very new and clean. We were given a tour around by another professor, showing us the laboratories, and the researches that all other professors that they were doing. The research ranges a lot from large scale to nanoscale, with more focus on the nanoscale. The fact that we are being able to see those experiments, to me, is an eye-opener, and I now understand why all Physics experiments takes much precision, and hence time. Most of the students there, those I meet there, seems to be more concerned how much pay are they drawing once they graduate, what fields will they be working in. To me, it's like if you are so scared of what will you be working as and in where, why would you want to take up this course? Just a thought of my own, hope no offense. Then the tea party ended around like 5pm or 5.30pm, though it was scheduled to end by 4.30pm. It was enjoyable of mingling around, though I largely still dislike socializing with people. However, one thing is that studying in Physics, is like going back to Army. Gosh.. There are just hell lot more guys than ladies, isn't this seem a bit unbalanced? Lolz. Guess it's quite late already. I have to go and sleep. Quite tired these few days.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:20 pm Sunday, April 26, 2009 *'Blabbers..'* Oh wells.. It seems a long time since I started to post since my last entry.. I guess there wasn't mucj 2 post.. Except work after work.. It's not that I don't like this much work.. As money come in quite high as well.. How I wish that work would be lesser a bit, and money just stay the same.. It's quite tiring these few days.. Haiz.. University is starting soon.. Should I feel happy or should I not.. As it is back to studying again.. Maybe I should feel lucky as not many people have the chance to study in local university.. Anw, I finished atching Densha Otoko.. It's really a touching movie yet funny.. It's perhaps a typical love story or scenery that a single may hope to have.. But I feel it may only be in our dreams.. It really has low probability of happening.. At least for me, I know it.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:40 pm Thursday, April 16, 2009 *'Happy? Or Blabberings?'* It really seems quite long since I blog about something which is something I don't really know. Perhaps it's just sometime I just got the urge to blog or something. Maybe I would talk about something else. Recently, the workload of mine has been raised and it has been addded quite a bit to my share of work, not because somebody did not come or what, but rather I'm really bored to death with nothing to do especially when you do not even have any Internet access and couldn't rrly enjoy the free time which I had on my hand. Last time I used to do sorting of licenses and it took me like almost 3/4 of my day doing sorting of licenses, then as I got more and more familiar with all the sorting and everything else, all the stuff just reduce to almost half of the time I used to need. Thus, I got loads and loads of freetime. I did think of doing some self revision in preparation for my university, but then sort of while I'm doing, there's somebody shooting arrows behind. And it hurts damn badly, that I don't really want to talk about it. Luckily, the IT fair, and I bought this laptop. Then I was able to at least do some of my work using this laptop and got rid of some time, and lest I wouldn't be like damn boring and sitting down there like some dumb fat ass. Then I came by doing some sample testing. It was like collecting results from some samples, and the best part is I've got the whole laboratory to myself. It's so damn big and cool. Could you possibly imagine a whole laboratory to 1 person, it is just simply awesome. Haha.. Now, I feel much more happier as I got the biggest room in my department but though it's short term, but I guess it's worth it. And I got my complete bluetooth wireless set. Now my laptop is free of wires except for the extra USB hub which I connect it, and even my speakers is bluetooth.. Awesome right? It just feels so god damn right.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:59 pm Sunday, April 12, 2009 *'Please..'* So god damn confusing.. Why couldn't people be nice to each other? Why must you shoot 1 arrow I here shoot 1 arrow? You kena wounded by arrow, not pain meh? Same here, when I kena arrow, I also feel the pain. And I ALSO want YOU to feel the pain.. Haiz.. Vengeance against each other.. Isn't there a really good way out? I wonder.. It has been sometime since I worked in NEA as a temporary staff. It is quite okay as I'm so far still enjoying what I'm doing here. It isn't really that stressful as other temporary staff in other companies complained. I do know I did make a complain in the February entry, as it's really unfair as it seems to me. There were a lot of stuffs to finish by a certain deadline, yet not allowed to work overtime. I think it's really unfair for such requests. Then I just found out that people there don't encourage working overtime. So therefore I think it's pointless to work overtime unless it's really the boss coming down hard, but now it is my supervisor asking me not to work overtime. So I guess even my supervisor say that, might as well just follow it. I'm so god damn tired.. I'm really very tired now.. Being pulled from both side, yet having to be good guy on both side It's tough.. However, if I don't really hold on like that.. Something catastrophic will happen.. It's already starting.. I'm scared.. I don't want it to happen.. Really feel like just jump down and I would not be so hard up.. It's really tiring.. I know it's selfish.. I know it's cowardly to do so.. But I really have had enough of all these nonsense.. Please.. Just let me go.. And let me have the courage to just climb over.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:36 pm

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

'Physics And Applied Physics'

Oh wells, it seems so rare for me to be able to blog so often. However, I must blog often now, for the stress is slowly and very slowly building up soon as the days to my university course draws nearer. I'm of course quite happy to be able to study in a local university and able to enjoy teh subsidised school fees and rate. The course I'm getting in is Physics And Applied Physics in School Of Physical And Mathematical Sciences (SPMS), and it is at the South Spine of NTU, and the good thing is, we are able to get the fresh air, though not very fresh due to the expressway (PIE), but there are plants there to photosynthesize and produce fresh air. Thus, I think the balance is maintained. I went to the tea party on last Saturday, and it was sort of mingling with the professors and other students. Maybe I just write a short recount of what went on Saturday.

The tea party was scheduled to be at 2pm, then me being kiasu as usual, I reach there at around 1pm. Oh wells, I'm still quite new, so have to get there freaking early, so that could make up for lost time, as in the lost time refers to the amount of time I probably would be lost in the huge campus. Therefore, it's quite lucky that I didn't get lost thanks to assistance provided by my NTU seniors Angelina and Stephanie, if not I would probably reach there only after the tea party had ended. We were given a talk by the Division head himself, about the cirriculium, the building, and the activities that are going on. From the talk, the GPA system seems quite fair on the paper, but practically I'm not too sure yet. However, the building is only less than a year old, and all the facilities are all very new and clean. We were given a tour around by another professor, showing us the laboratories, and the researches that all other professors that they were doing. The research ranges a lot from large scale to nanoscale, with more focus on the nanoscale. The fact that we are being able to see those experiments, to me, is an eye-opener, and I now understand why all Physics experiments takes much precision, and hence time. Most of the students there, those I meet there, seems to be more concerned how much pay are they drawing once they graduate, what fields will they be working in. To me, it's like if you are so scared of what will you be working as and in where, why would you want to take up this course? Just a thought of my own, hope no offense. Then the tea party ended around like 5pm or 5.30pm, though it was scheduled to end by 4.30pm. It was enjoyable of mingling around, though I largely still dislike socializing with people. However, one thing is that studying in Physics, is like going back to Army. Gosh.. There are just hell lot more guys than ladies, isn't this seem a bit unbalanced? Lolz.

Guess it's quite late already. I have to go and sleep. Quite tired these few days..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:20 pm

Sunday, April 26, 2009

'Blabbers..'

Oh wells.. It seems a long time since I started to post since my last entry..
I guess there wasn't mucj 2 post..
Except work after work..
It's not that I don't like this much work.. As money come in quite high as well..
How I wish that work would be lesser a bit, and money just stay the same..
It's quite tiring these few days..

Haiz..
University is starting soon..
Should I feel happy or should I not..
As it is back to studying again..
Maybe I should feel lucky as not many people have the chance to study in local university..

Anw, I finished atching Densha Otoko..
It's really a touching movie yet funny..
It's perhaps a typical love story or scenery that a single may hope to have..
But I feel it may only be in our dreams..
It really has low probability of happening..
At least for me, I know it..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:40 pm

Thursday, April 16, 2009

'Happy? Or Blabberings?'

It really seems quite long since I blog about something which is something I don't really know. Perhaps it's just sometime I just got the urge to blog or something. Maybe I would talk about something else.

Recently, the workload of mine has been raised and it has been addded quite a bit to my share of work, not because somebody did not come or what, but rather I'm really bored to death with nothing to do especially when you do not even have any Internet access and couldn't rrly enjoy the free time which I had on my hand. Last time I used to do sorting of licenses and it took me like almost 3/4 of my day doing sorting of licenses, then as I got more and more familiar with all the sorting and everything else, all the stuff just reduce to almost half of the time I used to need. Thus, I got loads and loads of freetime. I did think of doing some self revision in preparation for my university, but then sort of while I'm doing, there's somebody shooting arrows behind. And it hurts damn badly, that I don't really want to talk about it.

Luckily, the IT fair, and I bought this laptop. Then I was able to at least do some of my work using this laptop and got rid of some time, and lest I wouldn't be like damn boring and sitting down there like some dumb fat ass. Then I came by doing some sample testing. It was like collecting results from some samples, and the best part is I've got the whole laboratory to myself. It's so damn big and cool. Could you possibly imagine a whole laboratory to 1 person, it is just simply awesome. Haha..

Now, I feel much more happier as I got the biggest room in my department but though it's short term, but I guess it's worth it. And I got my complete bluetooth wireless set. Now my laptop is free of wires except for the extra USB hub which I connect it, and even my speakers is bluetooth.. Awesome right?

It just feels so god damn right..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 11:59 pm

Sunday, April 12, 2009

'Please..'

So god damn confusing..
Why couldn't people be nice to each other?
Why must you shoot 1 arrow I here shoot 1 arrow?
You kena wounded by arrow, not pain meh?
Same here, when I kena arrow, I also feel the pain.
And I ALSO want YOU to feel the pain.. Haiz..
Vengeance against each other..
Isn't there a really good way out?
I wonder..

It has been sometime since I worked in NEA as a temporary staff. It is quite okay as I'm so far still enjoying what I'm doing here. It isn't really that stressful as other temporary staff in other companies complained. I do know I did make a complain in the February entry, as it's really unfair as it seems to me. There were a lot of stuffs to finish by a certain deadline, yet not allowed to work overtime. I think it's really unfair for such requests. Then I just found out that people there don't encourage working overtime. So therefore I think it's pointless to work overtime unless it's really the boss coming down hard, but now it is my supervisor asking me not to work overtime. So I guess even my supervisor say that, might as well just follow it.

I'm so god damn tired..
I'm really very tired now..
Being pulled from both side, yet having to be good guy on both side
It's tough..
However, if I don't really hold on like that..
Something catastrophic will happen..
It's already starting..
I'm scared..
I don't want it to happen..
Really feel like just jump down and I would not be so hard up..
It's really tiring..
I know it's selfish..
I know it's cowardly to do so..
But I really have had enough of all these nonsense..
Please..
Just let me go..
And let me have the courage to just climb over..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 7:36 pm