[T]eachings
"A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot."
"The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless."
"To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself."
"Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles."
"Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it."
Writer : Xiaofeixia
Age : Since 1988
Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher
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[A]rchives
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[G]oodies
Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling
[E]nemies
Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people
[S]crolls
"Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man."
-Nietzsche
"He who has enough why can bear almost any how."
-Frederich N.
"Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing"
-Plato
"Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them"
-President Roosevelt
"Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless"
-Mother Teresa
"The fool wonders, the wise asks"
-Benjamin Disraeli
"Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?"
"Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?"
"Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway."
"You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?"
"Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way."
"The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you."
"You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant."
"You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours."
"Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?"
"Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance"
"If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know"
"Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something"
"What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence."
"You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?"
"We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice"
-Spiderman 3
"Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen"
"Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"
Sunday, May 24, 2009
'My Thoughts'
Sometimes I guess it's hard to communicate even though we have such good communication tools such as handphones, MSN chat rooms, IRCs and even facebook. The purpose is to keep an update of what your friends are up to, their well being and everything. However what I feel is perhaps a distant friendship even if it's just next door to you. I finally understand that a wrong word use, or even a wrong structure of sentence with a word could totally mean different things. I never understand why a literature essay could have so many analytical essays about that particular essay, but I now understand. I now finally understand why people normally say that anything can be done, but never say the wrong things as the Chinese saying goes "东西可以乱吃，话不可以乱讲", I now sort of understand this a bit fair bit more than what I used to.
I sort of starting to think that it is probably better if I remain dreamy and remain oblivious to somethings and not to bother myself with other things. I feel other things except studies and work is just sort taking up much of the time. Even a simple task of hanging out with friends I also find it to be a chore. I would rather communicate through handphone, or even Internet chat, emails to stay in contact with them. I now starting to feel that staying at home is so much far better than going out, perhaps I'm starting to become an anti-social guy? I really do not know.
Though I may be cheerful outside, I'm hardly peaceful and happy within. I'm starting to feel the despair, desolation that is spreading within this very heart of mine. I'm starting to become afraid to face each day, for I do not know for each day to come, what disastrous event or even disappointment that the day is going to give or surprise me with. I'm really starting to be afraid or even scared of facing each day's morning or should I say the start of each day. I really do not know how to face each day with such blaring loneliness and blasting desolation within the heart. It is a really very scary feeling. It is a scary feeling to be isolated and desolated, I've experienced it once, I do not wish to experience it again. Perhaps it is something which I must learn to control and accept it. It is way too much for me to bear and control, but yet I do not wish this to be spilt over to any other people to share such darkness within me. I think it's not fair to throw people your darkness or even your troubles unless that person wants to share it with you. It's an unfair treatment to others to just straightaway pour such darkness and desolation without even consulting that person.
Another thing is I do not know to put this in a nice way or in a subtle way. I finally realise that our ideals were actually different. Your ideal was sort of placing more emphasis on friends than on your family while me is the direct opposite. I do not know why would you want to do that way, but like what I've said, it is not fair for me to stick my nose into your business and ask you to change it. I believe each person's and each individual has their own ideal and knows how to go along and manipulate this ideal to each individual preferences. However, perhaps I think maybe it should be alright if probably I just share my ideal of friendship.
I sort of comprehend the Chinese saying of "在外靠朋友，在家靠亲人" as the fact that friends are important, however family is still much more important than friends. Perhaps it is the fact that I stayed at home far much longer than I'm outside excluding the NS, I feel that family is much more reliable than friends. From the experience of NS, I further confirm the fact that family members are far much more stable to depend on, rather than friends. It is not that friends that I have now are not good, but I feel that whatever help that they could give could never surpass that extent of help by the family. I would want to spend more time with the family as much as possible, as I'm now in the outside more than at home. Moreover, both parents are not getting any younger, and I think it's only proper that I spend more time with them.
I think no matter how good your friend is, none still can surpass the care that is given by the parents. Thus, I think it's only right that we share the thoughts with the parents, at least share your feelings with them. They do not want track you, but they just wish to know about what you are doing and they are informed about it. I do not think it is fair that a parent should find out what their sons or daughters are doing through their friends. It would reflect badly on them, reflecting that they have such poor parenting skills that they could not even communicate with their children. You may not understand this at the moment, but I feel that it's unjust to reflect that upon the parents. After all, they did bring their children to their present age. If you think their way is not correct, maybe you can try and be a parent yourself in later years, and you see for yourself.
Though some may argue that their parents are not like other friends' parents are better then theirs, I still think that such arguments could not stand. As there is a Chinese saying goes "外国的月亮总是比较圆", and another English saying goes "The grass is always greener on the other side", it is no doubt that people would be subjected to comparisons. Thus I feel, if parents do compare you with other children, I guess you just fall back on these two sayings, and I think it would be alright.
I do not know why am I saying all these. Perhaps by saying all these, it could make some of you feel better or worse I do not know. But this is just a sharing of thought. You are not obliged to stick to my thoughts, for these are just some thoughts and feelings being shared.
This is a very long post I must agree. Maybe it's time that I must give my blog a change of clothes soon.
I sort of starting to think that it is probably better if I remain dreamy and remain oblivious to somethings and not to bother myself with other things. I feel other things except studies and work is just sort taking up much of the time. Even a simple task of hanging out with friends I also find it to be a chore. I would rather communicate through handphone, or even Internet chat, emails to stay in contact with them. I now starting to feel that staying at home is so much far better than going out, perhaps I'm starting to become an anti-social guy? I really do not know.
Though I may be cheerful outside, I'm hardly peaceful and happy within. I'm starting to feel the despair, desolation that is spreading within this very heart of mine. I'm starting to become afraid to face each day, for I do not know for each day to come, what disastrous event or even disappointment that the day is going to give or surprise me with. I'm really starting to be afraid or even scared of facing each day's morning or should I say the start of each day. I really do not know how to face each day with such blaring loneliness and blasting desolation within the heart. It is a really very scary feeling. It is a scary feeling to be isolated and desolated, I've experienced it once, I do not wish to experience it again. Perhaps it is something which I must learn to control and accept it. It is way too much for me to bear and control, but yet I do not wish this to be spilt over to any other people to share such darkness within me. I think it's not fair to throw people your darkness or even your troubles unless that person wants to share it with you. It's an unfair treatment to others to just straightaway pour such darkness and desolation without even consulting that person.
Another thing is I do not know to put this in a nice way or in a subtle way. I finally realise that our ideals were actually different. Your ideal was sort of placing more emphasis on friends than on your family while me is the direct opposite. I do not know why would you want to do that way, but like what I've said, it is not fair for me to stick my nose into your business and ask you to change it. I believe each person's and each individual has their own ideal and knows how to go along and manipulate this ideal to each individual preferences. However, perhaps I think maybe it should be alright if probably I just share my ideal of friendship.
I sort of comprehend the Chinese saying of "在外靠朋友，在家靠亲人" as the fact that friends are important, however family is still much more important than friends. Perhaps it is the fact that I stayed at home far much longer than I'm outside excluding the NS, I feel that family is much more reliable than friends. From the experience of NS, I further confirm the fact that family members are far much more stable to depend on, rather than friends. It is not that friends that I have now are not good, but I feel that whatever help that they could give could never surpass that extent of help by the family. I would want to spend more time with the family as much as possible, as I'm now in the outside more than at home. Moreover, both parents are not getting any younger, and I think it's only proper that I spend more time with them.
I think no matter how good your friend is, none still can surpass the care that is given by the parents. Thus, I think it's only right that we share the thoughts with the parents, at least share your feelings with them. They do not want track you, but they just wish to know about what you are doing and they are informed about it. I do not think it is fair that a parent should find out what their sons or daughters are doing through their friends. It would reflect badly on them, reflecting that they have such poor parenting skills that they could not even communicate with their children. You may not understand this at the moment, but I feel that it's unjust to reflect that upon the parents. After all, they did bring their children to their present age. If you think their way is not correct, maybe you can try and be a parent yourself in later years, and you see for yourself.
Though some may argue that their parents are not like other friends' parents are better then theirs, I still think that such arguments could not stand. As there is a Chinese saying goes "外国的月亮总是比较圆", and another English saying goes "The grass is always greener on the other side", it is no doubt that people would be subjected to comparisons. Thus I feel, if parents do compare you with other children, I guess you just fall back on these two sayings, and I think it would be alright.
I do not know why am I saying all these. Perhaps by saying all these, it could make some of you feel better or worse I do not know. But this is just a sharing of thought. You are not obliged to stick to my thoughts, for these are just some thoughts and feelings being shared.
This is a very long post I must agree. Maybe it's time that I must give my blog a change of clothes soon.
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 5:08 pm
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
'Please Understand..'
It is not the fact that I do not understand the meaning of "What are friends for", but rather I would rather have this burden to be down by one rather than whole lot of people who will get this kind of lousy mood and things. I think it would very unfair of someone pulling others into the same shit hole that you are in. I firmly believe that if one happens to drop into that shit hole be it by others' fault or own mistake, it is only right that you get out yourself, unless someone really offers you a helping hand. However, if you fail to see or even sense the helping hand, maybe it is at best you step out on your own, as probably you would learn much more by this way. As a lesson I used to learn, a struggle is a series of lessons stringed up in hardship that will prepare you for any tougher future to come. Thus, I would always try to stand up by myself, and if I fall even I could be on my two feet, I will still try again. Isn't it the same way as when the baby is trying to walk?
I do understand the fact that friends are important, and they are there whenever you need help. However, to me, friends are of help, but afraid of becoming too reliant on them, I would rather not sought their help. It is a habit of me becoming reliant on help if given too much, thus I've been trying to get up on my own and trying hard. It is not that I do not have the results, but each time it only managed to remained solved for a short period of time, but the problem came back again, with much more difficulty in handling. It is more of like a recurrence of things.
Next thing up is relationship. I believe that last post wasn't quite explicit as to what I was trying to say. What actually I was trying to say was, why people around me easily struck chemistry with the people they like, and not encountering much problems. Or even if they encounter problems, they seem to be able to solve it and has a fairy tale ending? That was my question and puzzle that I couldn't really solve it. I mean though people say looks not important, what matters is feelings, but then, that is not happening. How about what was said on Internet, humans normally look at the looks of the other person before proceeding to whether they have a good or bad impression. This is akin to an analogy which I'm going to make, it may be a little gross.
We all know that faeces (s***) is a good source of fertilizer for the healthy plant growth, but would you dare to take it with your bare hands and bury it by the plant? It has a bad smell, and a very dull looking thing, you wouldn't want to take a second look at it, and just walk away. You would never know that the faeces have such good value within them, unless you could bear with the smell and the dull look. The question here is how many would want to go near it and take it up?
I do not know what's wrong with me trying to keep digging at such topics. I really do not know any. I know friends are getting attached one by one, I do feel a little pinch, but quite happy for them for they found the one they wish to spend their life with in future. But for me, I guess the road is still damn freaking long, unless I could do something for myself which is go slimmer. But where can I find the determination to go slimmer? RARR!
I do understand the fact that friends are important, and they are there whenever you need help. However, to me, friends are of help, but afraid of becoming too reliant on them, I would rather not sought their help. It is a habit of me becoming reliant on help if given too much, thus I've been trying to get up on my own and trying hard. It is not that I do not have the results, but each time it only managed to remained solved for a short period of time, but the problem came back again, with much more difficulty in handling. It is more of like a recurrence of things.
Next thing up is relationship. I believe that last post wasn't quite explicit as to what I was trying to say. What actually I was trying to say was, why people around me easily struck chemistry with the people they like, and not encountering much problems. Or even if they encounter problems, they seem to be able to solve it and has a fairy tale ending? That was my question and puzzle that I couldn't really solve it. I mean though people say looks not important, what matters is feelings, but then, that is not happening. How about what was said on Internet, humans normally look at the looks of the other person before proceeding to whether they have a good or bad impression. This is akin to an analogy which I'm going to make, it may be a little gross.
We all know that faeces (s***) is a good source of fertilizer for the healthy plant growth, but would you dare to take it with your bare hands and bury it by the plant? It has a bad smell, and a very dull looking thing, you wouldn't want to take a second look at it, and just walk away. You would never know that the faeces have such good value within them, unless you could bear with the smell and the dull look. The question here is how many would want to go near it and take it up?
I do not know what's wrong with me trying to keep digging at such topics. I really do not know any. I know friends are getting attached one by one, I do feel a little pinch, but quite happy for them for they found the one they wish to spend their life with in future. But for me, I guess the road is still damn freaking long, unless I could do something for myself which is go slimmer. But where can I find the determination to go slimmer? RARR!
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:33 pm
Sunday, May 17, 2009
'Blabberings Erratic Swings'
It seems a long time since I went for lont essay blogging. However, I really do not really have much to blog, except for some very unhappy and moody things to blog about. Seriously, I don't really have anything to do, neither was my mood on any of high side or even happy side. It just kind of went sour for me the last few hours of the Friday. I could not really figure out why, but it just set em thinking lots of things that I probably would not think about in my free times, let alone the times when I'm busy. It really sets me thinking what had or has or even have led me to this current state of depression or even not least any trace of happiness or cheerfulness. I probably would start off with something that I had been thinking long enough, but finally have some very minute or even microscopic or even less than a pico of courage to say about this.
The issue is about friends. I have really started to think about if I do really deserve friends or even deserve to be friends with others. The current state I'm in do push friends off the cliff, not wanting to do anything to them. I do appreciate the fact that some do try to help me and stand by me, encourage me when something not so good happened. I know some are very pro active in maintaining a friendship, wanting to have a meet up once every week or even longest is once every 2 weeks. It's not that I do not appreciate your effort in wanting to meet up or what so ever, but sometimes it's really a sucky feeling to be out, and not doing what you want to do. It's so strong in me, that I would rather reject you straightaway, and not wanting you to probe even further.
The reason behind of stopping you from probing even further is to keep you from knowing the true reason, and become agitated over the real reason. The real reason is that I do have the mood to go out, and I do not want to dampen the mood of yours with this foul mood. This foul mood is contagious, and I had been controlling this, and not wanting it to happen again and again. However, it only seems to be a failure when I tried to do so. The frequency of it happening seems to be increasing and increasing. Probably it is due to the fact that my income seems to be on the decreasing side, and now the expenses seems to be going up. Perhaps that contributes to the foul mood and the horrible stress I'm in.
The university admission is coming soon. I do not really know what to do, as the university seems quite stressful though I say its tutorials seem quite easy. I really have a lot to aim for, I aim to get this and that, and I do not count those as unnecessary stress or anything, but if treating them as encouragement, it seems a bit too harsh for me to take. This experience is akin to being forced to take the bitter tasting medicine for recovery, and it's a do or die thing. This feeling is so oppressing, and I guess it's really a great pressure to be in it. I really do not know what to do for this stress is all adding up, yet not knowing how to release it. I've been wanting to release it, but yet something will always turn up at the last minute to foul my mood up, and sour it, making me feel not wanting to relase it out anymore, and think it would be just fine to keep it.
I'm not trying to push friends away or what so ever. I would hope that it's not I do not want to meet up with you, but rather I would want to find a solution in knowing how to curb this erratic mood of mine.
Another thing is that people ask me if I really enjoy singlehood. My reply would be I do enjoy it for now, however, deep down I do not really enjoy it. Friends around are all getting attached one by one, it kind of make me sad. It is not because they've got attached but rather I feel that why am I such a failure that I do not have the courage to even say anything to initiate a relationship with the girl I like. It just seems so hard to initiate and yet people around just seems to do so easily, as if they are born to do it. What I meant here is that, people around are making the initiating step so GDF easy. I wonder why is it so hard for me. Probably if I'm slimmer, and smarter, it would probably be much more easier for me.
Here comes another thing, how can I be firm minded to go and reduce my weight?! ROAR!!
I'm so sorry for blabbing out so much. So sorry!
The issue is about friends. I have really started to think about if I do really deserve friends or even deserve to be friends with others. The current state I'm in do push friends off the cliff, not wanting to do anything to them. I do appreciate the fact that some do try to help me and stand by me, encourage me when something not so good happened. I know some are very pro active in maintaining a friendship, wanting to have a meet up once every week or even longest is once every 2 weeks. It's not that I do not appreciate your effort in wanting to meet up or what so ever, but sometimes it's really a sucky feeling to be out, and not doing what you want to do. It's so strong in me, that I would rather reject you straightaway, and not wanting you to probe even further.
The reason behind of stopping you from probing even further is to keep you from knowing the true reason, and become agitated over the real reason. The real reason is that I do have the mood to go out, and I do not want to dampen the mood of yours with this foul mood. This foul mood is contagious, and I had been controlling this, and not wanting it to happen again and again. However, it only seems to be a failure when I tried to do so. The frequency of it happening seems to be increasing and increasing. Probably it is due to the fact that my income seems to be on the decreasing side, and now the expenses seems to be going up. Perhaps that contributes to the foul mood and the horrible stress I'm in.
The university admission is coming soon. I do not really know what to do, as the university seems quite stressful though I say its tutorials seem quite easy. I really have a lot to aim for, I aim to get this and that, and I do not count those as unnecessary stress or anything, but if treating them as encouragement, it seems a bit too harsh for me to take. This experience is akin to being forced to take the bitter tasting medicine for recovery, and it's a do or die thing. This feeling is so oppressing, and I guess it's really a great pressure to be in it. I really do not know what to do for this stress is all adding up, yet not knowing how to release it. I've been wanting to release it, but yet something will always turn up at the last minute to foul my mood up, and sour it, making me feel not wanting to relase it out anymore, and think it would be just fine to keep it.
I'm not trying to push friends away or what so ever. I would hope that it's not I do not want to meet up with you, but rather I would want to find a solution in knowing how to curb this erratic mood of mine.
Another thing is that people ask me if I really enjoy singlehood. My reply would be I do enjoy it for now, however, deep down I do not really enjoy it. Friends around are all getting attached one by one, it kind of make me sad. It is not because they've got attached but rather I feel that why am I such a failure that I do not have the courage to even say anything to initiate a relationship with the girl I like. It just seems so hard to initiate and yet people around just seems to do so easily, as if they are born to do it. What I meant here is that, people around are making the initiating step so GDF easy. I wonder why is it so hard for me. Probably if I'm slimmer, and smarter, it would probably be much more easier for me.
Here comes another thing, how can I be firm minded to go and reduce my weight?! ROAR!!
I'm so sorry for blabbing out so much. So sorry!
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 6:26 pm
Saturday, May 09, 2009
'Ramblings..'
Oh wells, I do not know why but I could just be so bored and tired out of a sudden. I just bought a few movies, and I've already completed them. Probably that's why I feel so bored and tired out of sudden. I also couldn't really comprehend why and what constitutes to such incredible swings, but I guess probably it's stress from my sub conscious mind. I really do not know what is going on, but probably I need to go for some psychiatric help if the problem is getting real bad, but then maybe when the truth comes out that I really need psychiatric help, probably I would not want to go. Sigh.. I really do not know myself so well, or even comprehend. Why would humans have such complexities such as emotions? It's just so frustrating.
Anyways, the referesher course for the Physics adn Applied Physics has finally kicked off at NTU yesterday. It was a NS men kind of course, all guys and no female counterparts. However, I think I was thinking too much as afterall it's a refresher course for guys who had served NS. In addition to that stupid question of mine, since when did girls actually went to do NS? Anyways, how come I like to use the word 'anyways' so much, I was given the sample tutorial of the university physics, it was like some typical A level questions, however more in depth thinking is required. The in depth thinking is mostly applied in reading and analysing the questions, concepts wise, of course got new concepts, however I guess all still falls back on the basic principles of Physics, the fundamentals of Physics, thus I think it's probably not hard to master the concept, but it would probably take time to master the analytical thinking of solving the questions and all the skills that are going to come along.
However, I'm still not very clear on the computation of the marks for my university GPA, thus I really have to do my very best in any modules that I'm taking so that I would not really have to worry how well did I fare. I just really have to give it all as my A level results can never be used, so really is a do-it-or-die situation.
I just do not really have much to say. However, I just got a Facebook account, and I'm just so quite busy like approving people adding me as friends. I was thinking, if you want to add somebody as friends, just add, why must wait for confirmation? As probably I think, I only added those I know. Lolz.
Anyways, the referesher course for the Physics adn Applied Physics has finally kicked off at NTU yesterday. It was a NS men kind of course, all guys and no female counterparts. However, I think I was thinking too much as afterall it's a refresher course for guys who had served NS. In addition to that stupid question of mine, since when did girls actually went to do NS? Anyways, how come I like to use the word 'anyways' so much, I was given the sample tutorial of the university physics, it was like some typical A level questions, however more in depth thinking is required. The in depth thinking is mostly applied in reading and analysing the questions, concepts wise, of course got new concepts, however I guess all still falls back on the basic principles of Physics, the fundamentals of Physics, thus I think it's probably not hard to master the concept, but it would probably take time to master the analytical thinking of solving the questions and all the skills that are going to come along.
However, I'm still not very clear on the computation of the marks for my university GPA, thus I really have to do my very best in any modules that I'm taking so that I would not really have to worry how well did I fare. I just really have to give it all as my A level results can never be used, so really is a do-it-or-die situation.
I just do not really have much to say. However, I just got a Facebook account, and I'm just so quite busy like approving people adding me as friends. I was thinking, if you want to add somebody as friends, just add, why must wait for confirmation? As probably I think, I only added those I know. Lolz.
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:12 pm
Monday, May 04, 2009
'What Kind Of Life Would You Give?'
Oh wells, I've just finished watching Densha Otoko Movie. It is really a very touching movie about how one fight for his or her love. It's kind of quite inspiring to me about how one could be strong in times of failures and most importantly be more self confident. I've also come to realise that having a love of your life is not bad, but what if you begin to sort of neglect your friendship? Though friends can never be part of your family (wrt same gender), but I guess their support works out the best in times of crisis and trouble.
Though being single now, I feel rather nothing about it. I'm fine with the single hood or rather bachelorhood that I'm experiencing now. However, I'm not afraid to admit that I do admire couples, not for the intimacy they share, but rather the courage they have to admit to each other and the honesty of feeling that they mutually share. I do not wish for any of those fairytale kind of love, but a simple and true or honest love should be able to suffice. However, it all seems hard to get it nowadays.
Yesterday, I went out with JY. Towards the end of the meeting, we had a rather engaging conversation about the life that we want in the future. From the conversation, I realise that we both have such a vast difference which probably I did not realise perhaps until yesterday.
As regard to my case, my philosophy of my future life is based more on the quality of life and the luxury that I can have. The dream of mine is always to be able to stay in a landed property and share the joy with the family inclusive of parents, and of course my own family with my future wife and kids. It all seems to luxurious, but this is the type of life I want. As what I used to say, I would rather have a short but luxurious life full of happy encounters and fulfilling life than a long but boring and scrimp life. To me, if I really had to lead such a boring and scrimp lifestyle, then I will go along with it. But what for? If I know that this isn't what I want, I should now really work hard and prevent this from happening to me.
However, on the opposite, JY wishes to have a family earlier and be able to live peacefully with a stable job. He would want to have an income of a comfortable range with limited amount of splurging, as in comfortable will do and need not be luxurious. He would be satisfied with that. This is how vastly different we are from each other.
The life that I wish to have is like when I want to splurge some money to pamper myself, I need not have to think too much about it. My way of thinking is that if you want to pamper yourself, and yet you consider a lot of other factors, you are already burdening yourself even though you really want to pamper yourself. I kind of think that this kind of pampering might as well don't pamper, as you don't really get the enjoyment. My aim is that I want to give a life of little finance worry to my future family and my parents. I would want them to enjoy to the fullest and more of to the higher extent of luxury. That is probably my definition of life.
Perhaps after I've talked so much, none have yet to be comprehended. thus, I think it would be fine if you just read through, and just think to yourself as to what kind of life would you prefer to give to your spouse, children and parents.
I did not really know that by watching the movie, so much could flow out! Lolz.. :p
Though being single now, I feel rather nothing about it. I'm fine with the single hood or rather bachelorhood that I'm experiencing now. However, I'm not afraid to admit that I do admire couples, not for the intimacy they share, but rather the courage they have to admit to each other and the honesty of feeling that they mutually share. I do not wish for any of those fairytale kind of love, but a simple and true or honest love should be able to suffice. However, it all seems hard to get it nowadays.
Yesterday, I went out with JY. Towards the end of the meeting, we had a rather engaging conversation about the life that we want in the future. From the conversation, I realise that we both have such a vast difference which probably I did not realise perhaps until yesterday.
As regard to my case, my philosophy of my future life is based more on the quality of life and the luxury that I can have. The dream of mine is always to be able to stay in a landed property and share the joy with the family inclusive of parents, and of course my own family with my future wife and kids. It all seems to luxurious, but this is the type of life I want. As what I used to say, I would rather have a short but luxurious life full of happy encounters and fulfilling life than a long but boring and scrimp life. To me, if I really had to lead such a boring and scrimp lifestyle, then I will go along with it. But what for? If I know that this isn't what I want, I should now really work hard and prevent this from happening to me.
However, on the opposite, JY wishes to have a family earlier and be able to live peacefully with a stable job. He would want to have an income of a comfortable range with limited amount of splurging, as in comfortable will do and need not be luxurious. He would be satisfied with that. This is how vastly different we are from each other.
The life that I wish to have is like when I want to splurge some money to pamper myself, I need not have to think too much about it. My way of thinking is that if you want to pamper yourself, and yet you consider a lot of other factors, you are already burdening yourself even though you really want to pamper yourself. I kind of think that this kind of pampering might as well don't pamper, as you don't really get the enjoyment. My aim is that I want to give a life of little finance worry to my future family and my parents. I would want them to enjoy to the fullest and more of to the higher extent of luxury. That is probably my definition of life.
Perhaps after I've talked so much, none have yet to be comprehended. thus, I think it would be fine if you just read through, and just think to yourself as to what kind of life would you prefer to give to your spouse, children and parents.
I did not really know that by watching the movie, so much could flow out! Lolz.. :p
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 10:51 pm
'Guerrilla Warfare / Spamming?'
Lolz..
I couldn't believe it. I'm blogging while at work. It has been a long time since I've an Internet connection. Oh wells, it has a been a rather boring day so far, nothing interesting worth blogging about. I guess it's time to go off a bit, just in case. Haha.. Machiam like fighting guerrilla warfare like that. Rather thrilling?
I couldn't believe it. I'm blogging while at work. It has been a long time since I've an Internet connection. Oh wells, it has a been a rather boring day so far, nothing interesting worth blogging about. I guess it's time to go off a bit, just in case. Haha.. Machiam like fighting guerrilla warfare like that. Rather thrilling?
Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 4:00 pm