[T]eachings
"A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot."
"The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless."
"To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself."
"Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles."
"Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it."
[S]amurai
Writer : Xiaofeixia
Age : Since 1988
Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher

[T]rAiLs LeFt By..



[W]arriors..
Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina

[S]hrines
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[A]rchives
December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010

[G]oodies
Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling

[E]nemies
Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people

[S]crolls
"Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man."
-Nietzsche
"He who has enough why can bear almost any how."
-Frederich N.
"Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing"
-Plato
"Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them"
-President Roosevelt
"Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless"
-Mother Teresa
"The fool wonders, the wise asks"
-Benjamin Disraeli
"Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?"
"Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?"
"Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway."
"You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?"
"Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way."
"The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you."
"You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant."
"You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours."
"Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?"
"Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance"
"If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know"
"Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something"
"What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence."
"You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?"
"We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice"
-Spiderman 3
"Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen"
"Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

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Thursday, July 09, 2009

'Perceptions Which One?'

It all seems so hard for me to even write a blog post. It's not that I do not know what to write, but rather if the content is right to write about and post it here. I do not know if it is the right way, but I could not really understand myself that well extent as others understanding themselves. I came to do some blog hopping, and found out something. My blog posts seem to be filled with desolation and darkness, hardly was it ever cheered up or even shine like a candle. I do not know to be happy, I only know how to be in desolation and failing to see the light of coming out. I never get to see things in the right way they should be, I'm still seeing things through the lens of desolation and deception. I fail to comprehend the meaning of what 'happiness' means, and what does fresh air feels on the skin.

In comparison, the blog posts nowadays are all standing alone, facing the storm. It is not that nobody wants to stand by me, but rather I do not want them to stand by me. I feel it would only burden people and make them feel uncomfortable. What for would you want to drag other people into your own trouble when they got something else better and meaningful to do rather than sticking in the same shit hole as you? To me, when people say that 'friends will brave through storms together', I think this is a whole load of bullshit. I think it's selfish for one to say so. If you are braving the storm, it's only one party who would really get into the storm, why would you want to drag another person in to suffer with you? By saying friends braving storm together to me is a selfish way of making your trouble to spread to another party, and make the party to feel the same shit as you and he or she is being forced to endure the same suffering. Hence I never believe in friends braving storm together.

There is another saying that friends are there to give you support. I agree with this about 90% for this theory is quite perfect but not really perfect. I believe that when one hears encouragement, he or she will be spurred to survive the ordeal to the very end. When one is down, yet he or she knows that somebody is encouraging him or her, he or she will know that they have the capability of getting out of the trouble and steer out of the sea of toughness. Words of encouragement can have a tremendous impact, just as Mother Teresa said "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless", it evidently shows that words of encouragement have a far greater impact on the mentality rather than action. Though people usually say “Actions speak louder than words”, to me, in this case this does not apply. For if you really want to help this person, you should have tried to steer him or her away from the shit or storm, rather than wait for him or her is into the shit hole or caught in the storm, then you say “Let’s brave the storm together”. Don’t you agree this would be a whole load of bullshit?

Let me be random for now, for I just feel like completing the poem or prose “When you” whatever you call it.

When you are in darkness, let me be your light and lead you out of darkness.
When you are tearing, let me the tissue to wipe your tears away.
When you are being gripped by fear, let me be the pliers to ply away your fears.
When you are about to drown in sea, let me the buoy and help you safely to the shore.
When you are about to break down, let me the technician to reinforce your structure.

When you are feeling tired, let me be the bed where you can rest fully and comfortably.
When you are feeling happy, let me be the champagne and spread the joy with others.
When you are feeling upset, let me be the punching bag for you to let out all your frustrations.
When you are feeling bored, let me the car to drive you around and cheer up.
When you are feeling at a loss, let me be the compass to give you directions.
When you are feeling cold, let me be the jacket to keep you warm.

When you are unwell, let me be the nurse taking care of you and ensure your recovery.
When you are being forgetful, let me the diary to record down your tasks of the day.
When you are throwing tantrums, let me be the one to calm you down.
When you are busy, let me be the organizer to plan out your time and ensure you sufficient rest.

When you wish to pour out your sorrows, let me be the cup to contain your sorrows.
When you wish to talk, let me the receiver on the other end.
When you have a problem, let me be the problem solver for you.
When you feel that there’s a need for me, I will always be there for you.

Though this poem or whatever you wish to call it sounds quite sweet or idealistic, it may not be really that achievable. After all, based on logic some things cannot be done physically, but mentally it’s possible. If you are there to provide support for the other party, I’m rather sure that he or she would gladly offer your help, lest for my case. I once heard a friend said “Love is not something that can be explained by logic”, I do not know how true it is, for I’ve never been in one before. However, I would like to know by saying that sentence, which lens of perspective is he looking through? Love? Or logic?

Probably it would only be known to somebody who said this. For me, I would take the stand that he’s looking through the lens of love, it which mystified the love and making it so good and tempting. But yet again, I would want to ask if love’s no logic, then why would there be break ups based on reasons such as “not compatible with each other”, “draining too much time”? Or break ups follow another theory which is very different from love?


Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 6:28 am