SaMuRaI

[T]eachings "A fierce lion is never nice enough to be tamed, a spring wil absorb all and return all in a single shot." "The greatest enemy is oneself. The highest order of class of sword and way of handling is being selfless." "To keep forgiving oneself, finding excuses for oneself is the most undesirable sin to yourself." "Blade is just an instrument, the spirit of the blade lies in your skills and principles." "Intense anger and sadness are double-edged swords, however it's up to the individual on how one weild it." [S]amurai Writer : Xiaofeixia Age : Since 1988 Aspire : Aeroengineer/Researcher [T]rAiLs LeFt By.. [W]arriors.. Jake Yi Herrick Shan Sheng Yang Cheng Han Elizabeth Prawn Vonn Jocelyn Slayerz Angelina [S]hrines Tears Anger Coded Google mail Movies Frenster Blogger Quotes Photos Search Dog Chinese Downloads Singtel SMS Chinese English Dictionary Altavista Translation [A]rchives December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 May 2010 [G]oodies Technicalalities, Physics, Science, Designing, Architecture, Computer, Sendimental songs, Stoning, Chionging work, Repairing, Pooling [E]nemies Irresponisble people, Lip service, Assholes, Humanities, Slackers, Dominators, Heartbreaking, Idiots, ASBS+ACBC people [S]crolls "Hope is the worst of evils for it prolongs the torment of man." -Nietzsche "He who has enough why can bear almost any how." -Frederich N. "Life must be lived as play, playing certain games, singing and dancing" -Plato "Some are born great while some has greatness trust upon them" -President Roosevelt "Kind words can be short but their echoes are endless" -Mother Teresa "The fool wonders, the wise asks" -Benjamin Disraeli "Many times we find ourselves lost, but how many times do we actually find ourselves avoiding the obvious solution?" "Everyone's destiny is not revealed to him or her till the very last minute, why not we craft our own destiny?" "Prophecy is just a prediction of what you may have in future, but it is more of a guideline anyway." "You fight, and you say you make sacrifices for others. However, do you really understand the true meaning of sacrifice?" "Unless it is a high chance of success, if not don't even try doing it. You may be suffering for it in the worst way." "The legacy is not how many you have killed, but the legacy lies in how much have you accomplished benefitting others around you." "You may be harmed by others, but do take pity on those who inflict harm on you. It is because they are lonely and ignorant." "You ask for trouble, and when trouble did come to you, or results not to your liking, just accept it. Because you ask for it, it's yours." "Somethings are better to be said than done. However, how many times have we acted on our own accord without considering those around us?" "Things are not the way they seem. You must look beyond and interprete the meaning behind the thing that you see, not by mere appearance" "If you are called to clear up the shit left behind by others, do not curse and swear. Be positive. At least you learn how to clear up mess, while the others do not know" "Masking yourself is a thing to do when you are confused, but not when you are trying to hide something" "What's yours is yours, do not deny its existence." "You persevere, you stayed without other's knowledge and you labour for them. How many actually came and repay you?" "We always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice" -Spiderman 3 "Life is full of choices. Either you get to choose or you get chosen" "Compliments boosts people, criticsms pushes people off edges. Why not encourage and give compliments?"

Saturday, August 15, 2009 *'Updates as First Year'* I now really hate squeezing in the MRT, especially what happen on yesterday. I think if Singapore got any competition in un-graciousness, I think she would have come first in line. I do not know but yet she managed to do it, she did a displacement reaction on me. Yeah, in a sense that I got displaced into another place, while she occupied some of my original space. I was thinking what the hell was going on. It was like at the train head, it almost packed from back to back and bag to bag. It is literally cannot squeeze through unless you are so liquid enough to flow through each small crack you see between the bags and people. Then came this woman, it was very clear that she could not get in in her her first attempt. Then when the announcement came:" For those passengers who cannot board the train, please wait for the next train", the next moment she did something rather unbelievable to me. She elbowed her arm into my side, then I got to shift and become damn unstable in my way of standing, and she just stand there. And thanks to her, I knock somebody off the feet, and I got such a good way way of greeting others a "Sorry, sorry" rather than "Morning". It just pissed me off. It was her fault, yet she didn't even say an apology, and I got to say on her behalf. Wow, thanks, man, AUNTIE! Okiez, it seems I haven't really update on my University stuff as a freshman. LOLz.. It's really confusing on the first few days, and it really got some kind of depressing feelings, yet mixed with some feelings of excitement. I'm currently doing a degree in Physics and Applied Physics in NTU, College of Science, School of Physical and Mathematical Science (SPMS). It was really an information overload on the first day itself. We've got fight for our modules, seeing who's faster and slower. It's sounded like a market, and people got to 'chop' here and there, and see who's faster. However, when we first year go in, it's almost like getting owned by all other seniors there. They were all already registered there, and we were like at their mercy, don't know when they dropping it, and who would be so lucky to get them. Thus, I just never care about the registration of the modules, because I'm going to fight for the modules next semester, and I shall do it damn fast, and get it. I think just plan it all out and ready to snatch those that are crucial to my degree completion. I'm now still quite confused if I should minor in anything or I should just concentrate on my Physics, and next time, if I'm interested, then go and get a degree in the one I'm interested in. I do not know if it would be very stressful to handle the minor, but I would rather place more emphasis on the quality of the grade, rather than the quantity of the grades. I think it is quite meaningless if you have lots of modules, yet none of them seems to be done well. It would be a waste, from my point of view. The lessons from University is really really different from the JCs. It is like the lecturers just do not really care if you are there or not. People can bring out laptops, chit chatting on MSN or even surf web, yet the lecturer do not care. However, come to think of it, it's university, we are young adults, and we should be responsible for we had done. If you choose not to listen, so be it. However, some of the lecture notes are so many that I'm just lazy to print out, so I just brought the laptop along, and refer to the notes, however, I must admit, printing out the notes is still way way much better than referring them on the computer. It is hard to take down notes this way. I have not really gone to the tutorial class yet. The tutorial rooms look like any of those small meeting conference rooms like that, think I will quite like it. I hope it would be quite fun and interesting in my tutorial classes. One of my lessons is computer programming. I do not even understand what the hell is the lecturer talking about, and his slang is making him difficult to be heard. Some more it's a very dry topic about code writing and all, it's making em asleep. However, I think in University, self discipline is of utmost importance. Thus I'm really gonna make myself more self disciplined and study harder than ever. University life is full of mystery yet filled with excitement. Let me hope that these 4 years would be rather smooth sailing, and complete my degree with a decent result. Why my matric card still not ready?! Grrr.. Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:40 pm Thursday, August 06, 2009 *'Torment! Take Me Away!'* How come all the post tools went missing? It is so damn sian with typing in your post and along with html codes.. It just sucks and troublesome. I really do not know what to do as the dfays of university is closing in. I have already viewed my timetable, and the most xiong day without any electives added in on my own is Thursday. 8.30am to 6.30pm. Kaoz.. This day I'm really going to slog the day manz.. Confirm will go back sleep the moment my head touch pillow. Probably that's University life, you slog during the school term, and then you relax during the vacation. For 13 weeks you fight and you slog, and then you will rrst for the next 4 to 5 weeks. It seems like the lifestyle that we had for JC, just that in JC, we don't slog so hard, because our tutors are pushing us from the back, so we need not have to slog so hard all on our own. In university, much things would have to be done on your own. I have read some of the blog posts. Some are filled with hate and solemn. Some are filled happiness and sweetness of being in love. It makes me feel at lost. For once or rather uncountable times, where should I be? I do not know what does 'being in love' is like, but I fully grasp the distinct features of hate and anger down to the very last detail. I do not know when to be soft, and I do not know how to approach this question. People have a life of their own, and I don't really have to care much about it. However, it is always this feeling of envy or rather jealousy that makes one feel uncomfortable. The feeling of unjust as to why would this person have such a good life, while me having to suffer. People have always been this way. They dislike people who have a better life than them. They want to be better than anybody, yet wanting the fact that other people should be below him or her. We would hardly ever come to compromise the fact that people deserve what they got due to the hard work they put in. We hardly do it, and we just keep lamenting about it. To be exact, I would rather want this feeling of jealousy and envy to be taken away from me, for it's torturing me like hell. The feeling is so strong, yet I could not suppress it. I do not know what to say but just want to say "It's a torment to have those feelings of jealousy and envy!" Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:38 am Saturday, August 01, 2009 *'Lament!'* It all seems hard for me to update my blog. Yet I do not really want to close it down, as it would be such a waste. I said I would give my blog a fresh new outlook, yet it is done. I'm now feeling rather jittery and scared about this new school coming. I do not know why but I'm pretty scared, especially after I saw how my freinds in the senior years have to grab their subjects so fast, I'm just wandering how can I do it. I really do not know how to. Now something more dreadful is coming. I now really got to face the real fear. From what I can gather, the majority of the modern physics, where I'm interested in, is all or almost based on waves. And waves, is particularly my worse topic which I ever came across. I'm now a bit on the jittery side as in should I try to go for it, or try to avoid it all costs, and go for the classical mechanics. Even if it's classical mechanics, it also partly touches on waves, I'm so frustrated. I'm now caught in a decision very clear of the solutions, yet not wanting to do it. I really do not know what to do for I'm quite scared of what's going to happen. All I have to do is just ry and brave through it lorz.. People used 1hr to understand, than probably I would use 2 hours to understand it. It's pure hard work I understand, therefore, I've got to get through it. My A levels is like **, therefore I could only rely on this University degree to help me out. What a lament!** Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:40 am

Saturday, August 15, 2009

'Updates as First Year'

I now really hate squeezing in the MRT, especially what happen on yesterday. I think if Singapore got any competition in un-graciousness, I think she would have come first in line. I do not know but yet she managed to do it, she did a displacement reaction on me. Yeah, in a sense that I got displaced into another place, while she occupied some of my original space. I was thinking what the hell was going on. It was like at the train head, it almost packed from back to back and bag to bag. It is literally cannot squeeze through unless you are so liquid enough to flow through each small crack you see between the bags and people. Then came this woman, it was very clear that she could not get in in her her first attempt. Then when the announcement came:" For those passengers who cannot board the train, please wait for the next train", the next moment she did something rather unbelievable to me. She elbowed her arm into my side, then I got to shift and become damn unstable in my way of standing, and she just stand there. And thanks to her, I knock somebody off the feet, and I got such a good way way of greeting others a "Sorry, sorry" rather than "Morning". It just pissed me off. It was her fault, yet she didn't even say an apology, and I got to say on her behalf. Wow, thanks, man, AUNTIE!

Okiez, it seems I haven't really update on my University stuff as a freshman. LOLz.. It's really confusing on the first few days, and it really got some kind of depressing feelings, yet mixed with some feelings of excitement. I'm currently doing a degree in Physics and Applied Physics in NTU, College of Science, School of Physical and Mathematical Science (SPMS). It was really an information overload on the first day itself. We've got fight for our modules, seeing who's faster and slower. It's sounded like a market, and people got to 'chop' here and there, and see who's faster. However, when we first year go in, it's almost like getting owned by all other seniors there. They were all already registered there, and we were like at their mercy, don't know when they dropping it, and who would be so lucky to get them. Thus, I just never care about the registration of the modules, because I'm going to fight for the modules next semester, and I shall do it damn fast, and get it. I think just plan it all out and ready to snatch those that are crucial to my degree completion. I'm now still quite confused if I should minor in anything or I should just concentrate on my Physics, and next time, if I'm interested, then go and get a degree in the one I'm interested in. I do not know if it would be very stressful to handle the minor, but I would rather place more emphasis on the quality of the grade, rather than the quantity of the grades. I think it is quite meaningless if you have lots of modules, yet none of them seems to be done well. It would be a waste, from my point of view.

The lessons from University is really really different from the JCs. It is like the lecturers just do not really care if you are there or not. People can bring out laptops, chit chatting on MSN or even surf web, yet the lecturer do not care. However, come to think of it, it's university, we are young adults, and we should be responsible for we had done. If you choose not to listen, so be it. However, some of the lecture notes are so many that I'm just lazy to print out, so I just brought the laptop along, and refer to the notes, however, I must admit, printing out the notes is still way way much better than referring them on the computer. It is hard to take down notes this way. I have not really gone to the tutorial class yet. The tutorial rooms look like any of those small meeting conference rooms like that, think I will quite like it. I hope it would be quite fun and interesting in my tutorial classes.

One of my lessons is computer programming. I do not even understand what the hell is the lecturer talking about, and his slang is making him difficult to be heard. Some more it's a very dry topic about code writing and all, it's making em asleep. However, I think in University, self discipline is of utmost importance. Thus I'm really gonna make myself more self disciplined and study harder than ever.

University life is full of mystery yet filled with excitement. Let me hope that these 4 years would be rather smooth sailing, and complete my degree with a decent result.

Why my matric card still not ready?! Grrr..

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 3:40 pm

Thursday, August 06, 2009

'Torment! Take Me Away!'

How come all the post tools went missing? It is so damn sian with typing in your post and along with html codes.. It just sucks and troublesome.

I really do not know what to do as the dfays of university is closing in. I have already viewed my timetable, and the most xiong day without any electives added in on my own is Thursday. 8.30am to 6.30pm. Kaoz.. This day I'm really going to slog the day manz.. Confirm will go back sleep the moment my head touch pillow. Probably that's University life, you slog during the school term, and then you relax during the vacation. For 13 weeks you fight and you slog, and then you will rrst for the next 4 to 5 weeks. It seems like the lifestyle that we had for JC, just that in JC, we don't slog so hard, because our tutors are pushing us from the back, so we need not have to slog so hard all on our own. In university, much things would have to be done on your own.

I have read some of the blog posts. Some are filled with hate and solemn. Some are filled happiness and sweetness of being in love. It makes me feel at lost. For once or rather uncountable times, where should I be? I do not know what does 'being in love' is like, but I fully grasp the distinct features of hate and anger down to the very last detail. I do not know when to be soft, and I do not know how to approach this question. People have a life of their own, and I don't really have to care much about it. However, it is always this feeling of envy or rather jealousy that makes one feel uncomfortable. The feeling of unjust as to why would this person have such a good life, while me having to suffer.

People have always been this way. They dislike people who have a better life than them. They want to be better than anybody, yet wanting the fact that other people should be below him or her. We would hardly ever come to compromise the fact that people deserve what they got due to the hard work they put in. We hardly do it, and we just keep lamenting about it. To be exact, I would rather want this feeling of jealousy and envy to be taken away from me, for it's torturing me like hell. The feeling is so strong, yet I could not suppress it.

I do not know what to say but just want to say "It's a torment to have those feelings of jealousy and envy!"

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:38 am

Saturday, August 01, 2009

'Lament!'

It all seems hard for me to update my blog. Yet I do not really want to close it down, as it would be such a waste. I said I would give my blog a fresh new outlook, yet it is done. I'm now feeling rather jittery and scared about this new school coming. I do not know why but I'm pretty scared, especially after I saw how my freinds in the senior years have to grab their subjects so fast, I'm just wandering how can I do it. I really do not know how to.

Now something more dreadful is coming. I now really got to face the real fear. From what I can gather, the majority of the modern physics, where I'm interested in, is all or almost based on waves. And waves, is particularly my worse topic which I ever came across. I'm now a bit on the jittery side as in should I try to go for it, or try to avoid it all costs, and go for the classical mechanics. Even if it's classical mechanics, it also partly touches on waves, I'm so frustrated. I'm now caught in a decision very clear of the solutions, yet not wanting to do it.

I really do not know what to do for I'm quite scared of what's going to happen. All I have to do is just ry and brave through it lorz.. People used 1hr to understand, than probably I would use 2 hours to understand it. It's pure hard work I understand, therefore, I've got to get through it. My A levels is like ****, therefore I could only rely on this University degree to help me out.

What a lament!

Samurai xiaofeixia is once again honored @ 9:40 am